I don't want you to act like you know me,
Because you don't!!
I just want you out of my life
Wish you had never become a part of it
Am devastated, Am stressed
And you trying to make me feel better, makes it worse

So what if my face is a sea of worries
Does it matter to you that my heart is a book of fear
That I just want to crawl under covers and cry
That I wish I did never been born why do you care??!!!

I hate you cause you see through my mask
My smile fools thousands but not you
I hate it that you stay even when I tell you to leave
It bothers me how much you love me

My pen,it speaks
my hand it transfers.
What lies in my heart,my hand it takes to then which puts it on paper
Put down the pain& shame
My tears,my terror,my demons
Am not okay
Poetry is my safe heaven,
Yet it too seems be getting sadder
Some throw me hapi lines

Age is not equivalent to wisdom
                Experience is
So just because your older,doesn't mean your wiser

Giving it a try
Just trying
Am a little sad
No,really sad.
It usually lasts a few days,a week or at most two
But now it has lasted longer

My safe heaven has been snatched away
Many feelings buried coz I can express them no more
I can't pen them down
This writers block has hit so hard
How to get back to my peaceful place
I don't know
Am just ,TRYING

Nerves....
Hearts beating
Like a drum sounding
Doo do doo do
Aaaahh...I cry out
Its not pain...its fear

A million eyes watching
Murmurs in the crowd
Wat if I forget the words..
Wat if the lines don't rhyme

Ts time...lights are out in the crowd
Only a spotlight stands--all eyes on me..
I begin to recite
All fear gone
Am lost in the rhymes and rhythm
Am done!!!
They r all up...the love it

I want to lose myself
I want to melt in your arms and dream
To be yours and you mine
I want this to be so bad
But not bad enough
Cause I want to want you yet I want someone else

I know you would treat me better,
But am so foolishly in love with a man who can't treat me right
He beats me -you would caress me but I still want him

Guess am a good girl
So into this bad guy with his bad ways
I want him
Even when I want to want you