It is people like you that keep me going
People like you who believe in me
It is people like you that inspire the fire in me
Thank you for the poems written
For messages sent
Comments left
Thank you for the follow

I don't want you to act like you know me,
Because you don't!!
I just want you out of my life
Wish you had never become a part of it
Am devastated, Am stressed
And you trying to make me feel better, makes it worse

So what if my face is a sea of worries
Does it matter to you that my heart is a book of fear
That I just want to crawl under covers and cry
That I wish I did never been born why do you care??!!!

I hate you cause you see through my mask
My smile fools thousands but not you
I hate it that you stay even when I tell you to leave
It bothers me how much you love me

My pen,it speaks
my hand it transfers.
What lies in my heart,my hand it takes to then which puts it on paper
Put down the pain& shame
My tears,my terror,my demons
Am not okay
Poetry is my safe heaven,
Yet it too seems be getting sadder
Some throw me hapi lines

I don't need to go thru something
Sometimes all it takes is observation
And then my pen moves
I start to write
Problem is when I write even about other people it all becomes part of me

Sitting in corner of a crowded room,
       My eyes searching
Feeling so alone,living with anxiety
Is it a fear to know or to be known??

My eyes begin to water
My heart-it aches
Its been 8weeks and 3days yet still
    I feel like a stranger
Here in a crowd wea I sit daily,
I feel colder and so alone.

Am losing my mind
Am so stressed, I can't even fake a smile
I have built my wall so high
And now it gets thicker
Not that am a loner
Am just so alone
Here in a crowd of familiar faces
I feel so alone

Just because I smile doesn't mean I don't hurt
  I got issues
  Got demons to battle
   Skeletons to hide
So just because I smile doesn't mean  am alright

Picture perfect, I was taught to always keep it picture perfect,
It hurts when you can tell nobody about the magma boiling on your inside
When every body sees perfection yet your constantly breaking down

Behind closed doors it all dawns on me
The smile I take off like a piece of jewelry
Then the darkness begins
I begin to battle
Battle with the truth

If you treat me right
       I promise
If you love me as much as am willing to love you
       I guarantee
To love you till I die
To fall for you daily
Till my last breath...I promise to be yours
I guarantee you my in unconditional love
     But
Only if....