I am not lonely, I am just alone,
I am excited to be on my own.
I am tough and I will get by,
Even if it is just me, myself and I.
I have all I need, I need no more,
No more broken hearts left to restore.
Is it to remain unclear?
What it is that I fear.
Is it to trust or to rejoice?
Or is it losing my choice, my own voice?

Thoughts running through,
My body and mind split in two,
My mind never still always in motion.
My head is a mess like a storm on the ocean.
I feel like a fish caught in a net,
I need all the help I can get.
My body is still, almost dead,
Just laying here hopeless in my bed.
My body and my mind are torn,
All life in my eyes are gone.

I beg of you, please ruin me.
Take me high for I want to fall.
Crush me like the rain on the sidewalk.
Turn out the light that nourishes my very being.
For I would rather loose in this wicked cupids game.
For I cannot live in a fair world
Where love is planned and earned.
I urge you to breathe for the tears.
See the beauty in a scar.
Notice the hearts that beat black
Dull; the world that is filled with red.

The smile that is always big,
Even when you're feeling sick.
The excitement in your eyes.
The way you can always see through my lies.
Your cute yet a bit dorky hair,
It suits you perfectly I swear.
You make my eyes open, now I finally see,
You make me happier than I thought I could be.

When I cry you hold me tight,
And try to make it all alright.
You smell unexplainable sweet,
You're the only thing I desperately need.
I love you more than a heart can take,
My love is so big it can never be fake.
My one, my only, my love.

My dreams will die, my heart will bleed,
A little love is all I need.
My heart is sore
I need all that love and more.
A love so big, it is yet to be found,
Only that love will my heart unbound.
Maybe under all this pain and all these tears,
Lies a person who is feisty and fierce.

This was never me,
This was never who I wanted to be.

I never thought that you would cheat,
Now I dread seeing you walk the street,
After our final meet,
I will surely stumble on my feet,
My tears will seem so bittersweet,
Yet will your hand rise as an awkward greet?
While you secretly steal my dejected heartbeat,
You are going to be my defeat,
Along with my conceit,
You are the crack in my hearts concrete,
The hurt you caused is on repeat,
The memory I wish I could delete,
The shadow of a person who once made me complete.

I'm sitting here waiting for you,
Sitting here is all I can do.
I'm sitting here wishing for you to come home,
I'm sitting here every night all alone.
I'm sitting here thinking of you every hour,
Trying to remember your favourite flower.

I guess it still hasn't reached my head,
That you are gone, that you're actually dead.
Nevermore am I gonna see your face,
Or listen to your hearts beating pace.

I'll wait forever.