I’m no longer going to look to the skies for you this time I’m done
this dating game has let me down you won
I’m just glad it ended before any more Permanent damage could be done
I dreamed about youA lot it was surely fun
  but u let me down with those cold stares and inconsistencies letting me know I wasn’t the one  
Kevin I don’t share I wanted you all to myself shidd I wanted to even give u that ....your first son.....
so when u read this just know u met and had her but she gone now enjoy the endless dating have fun
but as u get older and she gets colder you’ll see I was the one
  and a life with me would have been better than ur addiction to guns
u bruised my ego made me feel less attractive so indefinitely u won
I thought u had undeniable love for me but obviously there was never none

love sincerely
sister Nancy the nun

p.s.
its cool my heart will heal the damage is done just remember I told u that I wanted to make that dream come true me making love to you in the rain under the hot steaming sun

I prayed to god that my dreams will follow you. I started seeing a therapist because now my every thought is intertwined with ur face and your loving mental embrace. she said I’m in love and that loving someone is never measured by time
just by what the heart wants and needs that’s why I won’t be able to erase.... especially if the heart mind and body knows the feeling that only he gives  I will never be able to replace
I’m dying cause my heart wants more it ended to soon to say good by but I don’t know what to do or where to start... but if I had a second chance I would loving treat u more than a friend. I want to share my love with u through poetry but pride won’t allow me to hit send. so everyday I wake up with heavy heart and tears in my eyes cause reality hits , and knowing that one day I will see u with someone else truly happy..... without me
I do know that what ever is ment... will be

Today I almost cried because I’m missing him my body yearns to be touched by him my mind long for the mental stimulation that only he gives
my soul must believe that we will be connected again cause I’m starting to see him in my dreams as if it’s ment to be .....
I attempted to write a poem and share with someone other than u the words wouldn’t form for me This is extremely out of the norm
I keep lying to myself like I’m not affected by this
my heart must know something I don’t which is???

All I know is it’s rare to have this feeling
your love is infinitely appealing
got my mind bent and turned gone... high above my cream colored ceiling
desireble desirable dreams about your stimulating ****** healing
night after night we’ll play under the covers biting moaning talking **** squealing
sorry I didn’t mean to be so blunt forceful sexually revealing

Now that I know it’s truly over, finally.... done
I’ll share every last poem paged in my diary, all except for....one

2 cups of fool in love
1 tbs of heart break
1/4 cup of deceit
1 cup of pride
1/2 cup of failed past loves
6 cups of Mary j
1 gal jack Daniels honey Tennessee
1 cup of dangerous chemistry
and another gal jack Daniels honey Tennessee
left you and me as disasters’ very own Recipe

I hate being called pretty girl....
that’s what he called me.... who is he
my torture that left me with constant nightmares since the age of 3.... he would finger me
he would play B.B. king and say dance for me
he told me pretty girls wear red lipstick as he kneeled down on his knee
scared and left abandoned she thought
since her momma left her this was how it was supposed to be
memories of little me since the age of 3......