thanks for the temporary pulse
and temporary thrill
i've never gotten a vibe quite like yours
i guess i never will

i like you and it is sad

I've concluded that I wanna tell you
everything
and something keeps telling me
you'll listen, you'll really listen
I don't know
I don't know who knows how late
I've been awake
and I don't want to sing into my
pillow so it muffles the sound
I think you're here to bring me back
and I wanna tell you everything

there are so many lines of poetry that i read
and i wish i had written them
and i think about how the author came about writing
such words
and i wonder if they knew the feelings they'd evoke from a reader
with such words
and i hope i evoke feelings with you
and i wonder if you know how many times
i've thought about you
and i wish you'd look at me again like that
and i want to see you and be with you
and i wonder if you're wanting
the same

i get intrigued by
looking at certain people
and right now i’m just wondering
if anyone’s ever been intrigued
by looking at me

******* my family makes me feel like I'm special and that
I've got a purpose that no one else has
and sometimes I pat myself on the back and feel convinced that they're
right
and I've got perfect pitch but music isn't in my career window
and I'm terrified that it      will      never      be
I'm one person
*******
I can't feel like I'm special I need you to stop spilling that idea into my brain
it's like some sort of antidote and
every syllable is a sock in the confidence but in a good way
and I go crazy
I guess I am crazy most of the time
but I'm not when I'm sitting here with
a blue face

I've been listening to the same album for the past 3 days
and it never gets old
It's directly linked to my living and
my life in this **** moment
I like the way the sharps and flats
clash with the pure melody
it creates this sort of structured chaos but it also makes me feel insanely in control of myself
and not so far off
and more and more tense with happiness
it's ****** up but it's a beautiful
piece of work
thanks