I am so conflicted
Why? Why am I so?
I hate this feeling
Why can't I just be contented with what I have right now


Why do I have this mindset?
Why do I always feel that I can get everything I wanted?
Why can't I calm down?
I need help, I do not have self-control.

Is this really the life that I always wanted?
I am drowning myself
I always want more than I have
I am making myself suffer

I have two jobs
I had two men
I had two love
I had two lives

Now that I lost one
I feel conflicted
Am I really deserving of such love
I had the grasp of the love that I wanted
But I cannot let go of the other life I had

Why! Why! Why!
LA, help yourself
Please I am suffering
I am not happy even if I had everything that I need.

I need self control, oh please control
You may have the things you wanted but you cannot even get a grasp of your self
You get it, then you lost it.
And now you're missing it.

What if he leaves?
He got what he wanted
Is that really what he wanted?
What if he leaves?

if he does, life goes on.
He is just a person, a memory.
There's a lot of fish in the sea
Anyone can give the same love

If he leaves, then let it be
It may be the greatest love that you had
But you can always get it anywhere
Do not overthink, Focus on what's in front of you

As long as he is there, that means he loves you,
If he leaves, then that is his lost
If he leaves, then life will be sad
But you can always get a new love

You are young, you are attractive.
It may be a lost but not a great lost.
Focus on the love that you have right now.

I'm afraid that I will destroy myself
I cannot control
It's taking over
My mind - it's out of control

I am getting scared..
The past few months, I tried ignoring it
I've made mistakes, in life and financially
I know I have to take responsibility,

I know I can get past through this problem right now.
I know I can pay off everything
I just have to keep moving forward.

Talk to yourself
You just need someone to talk to
You can talk to your self.
Like what you've always done..

LA, calm yourself down.
Don’t make rash decisions
Don’t make stupid decisions
Always remember D--, what he did, and what he risked.

Remember what he said - he liked it when he touched you,
Even if he does not want to be touched.
Remember that he placed 100% trust on you
Do not waste that. Be contented, be happy that you have him.

You're done with Z--, he should be your past, a stranger.
You guys should not be more than just friends. Why do you still think of him?
Is it because he reached out? Is it because he said that he was capable of giving you what you wanted?
Do you really want to go back to him? Where you have ask to be cuddled, kissed, or be hugged?
Where you'd have to tip toe with his feelings and ask permission to get loved every time?
Where you felt hurt, where you don't get your hand held, where he does not show you off?

Think twice, think thrice, or not think at all!
We already know who's the winner, we already know who's better.
And you want to waste that with someone who just ****** you so good that you forgot your name?
Love is better than ***, learn to control, learn to learn, learn to change.

You will get what you want, just in time. Do not rush.
D-- will take care of you, and you will take care of him.
Ignore what Z--'s is saying, he may be regretting not treating you better,
He may want you back, but that does not mean he will be able to give you AS MUCH love that D--gives.

Time may take Z-- a while, it may take him a while to change, it may take him a while to improve.
Once that happens, be happy for him, just be happy.
Wish him a better life, wish him better love, wish him a better person.

LA, are you really in love? Or you're just searching for ***?
Do you really like him? Or you're just going to use him to get love?
Although yes, we have been inspired by him, why do you always get sad?
Accept that this is your reality now, accept that this is happening now.
They say you deserve being with him, they say he deserves you.
But why is it that there's uncertainty, doubts, and sadness in your eyes?

Please get in your right mind - He is new to your life.
Open up! He's old enough to understand
He won't make effort to go ride w/ you
He won't make effort to adjust his lunch time w/ you
He won't make effort to talk to you about his life
If he does not like you


He accepted you for what you are
He holds your hand without you asking for it
He asked you for a kiss first
And He takes his time, your time, to enjoy the moment
He endures the urge, he endures your tantrums, he accepts how you think
Now it's up to you to adjust, it's up to you if you will face this reality. Accept it.