One lifetime ago
When the dream was the only heaven I knew
Twenties is the hardest and the simplest time

I was not the only
Girl who lost her mind
Crossed the line
Risk the life and afterlife

And here I stand
Next to someone with a good rep
Trade the tears as event price
Just to take me back to the track
And for that I owe you a thank



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Bella, intern of The Tortured Poets Department

I turn twenty-six and sit here all alone
Even the closest one I chose to say no words
Cause I find no reason why should they know

People on the internet are crying over this
But I chose it with all my elegies
Too much space too many strangers
Wish I could have a party inside my castle

No one gives me the warmest hug but myself
who knows it shake my hands and that's all I deserve

When I turned twenty-six and nobody knows
All I wish is you appear with your vows

PS: Happy Birthday to ME!
190522

It's tasteless
the hello, the smile, and everything you do

still haunted by the blast of that fast fancy little train
willing to feel it again is a kind of luxury
not more come again
210322

A homeless woman stray the road alone
her arms is the only one who hug her coldness
she was in a peak of pleasure once
when the rollercoaster bring her touch the sky
loose every burden, forget every wound and fly

If you see a butterfly in the sky
don't ask her to fight
cause when time turns the table
she turn herself as a snake, or a dragon

If you see a butterfly who turned to be a snake
don't ask her what why
ask her what happened, instead

Because fragile wings can't save my life, she said
and my beauty call the devil to destroy me in the nick of time

250122.BDG

It's kinda weird.
This wide smile.
Not because of you.

It's kinda weird.
This cute story.
No share it with you.

It's kinda weird.
Kissing in the rain.
But the lips is not yours.

It's kinda weird.
To live every second.
And you're not around.

19022022. BDG

as our blood dripping from the rope tied our hands
as the warmth in the eyes can never stop us to dance
it made us blind, deaf, and lost our minds
but baby if it doesn't, why I keep calling you mine

you are the one who the most bleeding
you are the castle I sold for nothing
this leaving is a dagger I've been hold
day and night wondering where to put it on
is it on your chest or in the center of my soul

as you're the prey and I'm the archer
wish I could stay and build our castle
tied together with a vow with you
but they don't know an arrow can bleed too

as your hug is the warmest touch
shoted gun, closed eye and our  blood
as between your arms is the only place I call it home