You're blowing smoke rings and I'm brushing my hair
I'm thinking things I shouldn't share
You're playing guitar and I'm drinking tea
I hear what you're saying but you won't look at me
You say my plates full and that's your excuse
We're speaking in metaphors without a clue
I guess it's a buffet because you've piled this s**t up high
I'm pretending to people watch but I'm just watching you pass by
I'm not going to beg and I'm not going to fight
You were there too and you know it felt right
I'm not going to open my heart or shed any tears
You said I've got to let go but you've confirmed all my fears
Well the timing might be wrong
But a clock can't determine where I belong
If you asked me the question I would have told you the truth
I was too busy acting cool and being aloof
You've got me cracked but in some ways you were wrong
I'm not the hulk I can't always be strong
Its not love because we didn't give it a chance
This is only the intro it can't be the last dance
I'll carry on with a carefully painted smile
You'll regret this but I'll always be at the bottom of your pile

There's a man with a walking stick striped like a candy cane
He sits at the bus stop and he always looks the same
He wears a cap from the military
Which makes he seem a bit scary
But when I see him at the beginning of the day
He makes me feel okay

There's a drunk at the cathedral who stands there swaying
I asked him for the time once but I didn't understand what he was saying
He mumbled something about being in the S.A.S.
I made up stories in my head about how he got in to this mess
I promised myself I'd never end up like this man
And I carried on making plans

There's an old lady in the coffee shop who only has one cup of tea
Even when I talk loud she can never hear me
I wonder if she's ever had her heart broken
If she's death because too many "I love you"s were spoken
I sit and write them happy endings
Because they seem like they need mending
So why does my little heart ache seem like the worse thing in the world?
when there are all these desperate souls left unheard
Why am I so selfish and why am I so lonely?
when unlike them I have my whole life ahead of me

All of the rested, I hope they're in peace
I'd like to think they were somewhere better if I had any beliefs
I won't cry at your funeral because my tears would tear you apart
You left your body and entered my heart
I'll keep you warm snuggled there for the rest of my days
Because I don't want to lose you in a million ways
No matter how heavy your heart keep you head held high
And the rest of this s**t will just pass you by
You'll be safe in your cavern of dirt
I hope the worms have no intention to hurt
I can't stand the thought of your skin fading away
But with me you will forever stay
My hope and opinions are encased in that box
Six feet of dirt is more solid than locks
Someone else's cliche is engraved on that stone
stealing the empty words of someone unknown
The rotting flowers from the people you love
Who keep their sanity in delusions that you're hovering above
I don't want to think of you as an eternity suspended on the sky
I promised for you, I'd never cry.

The flowers are falling around out feet
You're making lines I can't compete
I'm saying things I haven't thought through
I know you're waiting for the perfect que
My eyes are tight shut because I don't want to see
The rainbows of colour you're showing me
There are fragile things breaking in places out of sight
We're rewriting laws to make everything right
There's covers and lies and open books
we've been whispering secrets and feeding the ducks
the things you say are right out of line
all I really wanted was your hand in mine
There are bear's in my head and sunsets in my palms
It's worth it all to be on your arms
I didn't want to write another rhyme about how your my world
But I've listened to my head and that's all I've heard

I'm always the mistress never the wife
Always the ******* the outskirts of life
You said "who wants a girl who can never be found?"
"who wants a girl who can't keep her feet on the ground?
When I was a child I said "I never want to be old and dull"
I'm always going to live like this, living lift to the full
But the older you get the more you're meant to be serious
No one loves a girl for being fun loving and mysterious
Sure she will be good for just one night
to give you a little happiness because she is the light
But you can't stay forever with a ******* the edge
You can't build a home for life on a ledge
I won't be happy being nestled in the hills
I need to be on top living off the thrills
does your wife know where you were last night?
I said it was fun not it was right

I'm always the mistress never the wife
Always the ******* the outskirts of life
You said "who wants a girl who can never be found?"
"who wants a girl who can't keep her feet on the ground?
When I was a child I said "I never want to be old and dull"
I'm always going to live like this, living lift to the full
But the older you get the more you're meant to be serious
No one loves a girl for being fun loving and mysterious
Sure she will be good for just one night
to give you a little happiness because she is the light
But you can't stay forever with a ******* the edge
You can't build a home for life on a ledge
I won't be happy being nestled in the hills
I need to be on top living off the thrills
does your wife know where you were last night?
I said it was fun not it was right