It's like if we keep dumping all our time and energy into these computers, forever and ever or until the sun won't shine (for whatever reason,) everything will just instantly get better for everyone somehow...even though it hasn't happened yet, even though this has been going on for so long.

The computers don't even have any real money inside of them, everyone, even though so many of us dumped so much real time and money into these machines; I think it's funny...funny and sad.

We get what we ask for, even if it's the last thing we wanted; that simple fact can cause you endless laughter and tears
You'll drown and choke on all and/or nothing so long
Just like me and everyone still here

It's better to just **** me than allow me to live with your pain in my brain because I'll accidentally smother with kindness trying to make up for it

It does hurt and always has
Other people's pain hurts more than my pain and always has
My mind won't stop showing me faces of sadness and pain on my loved one's faces sometimes

I guess you could say I stepped into the ring with a vendetta but you should never say that nothing didn't hurt me all that while I destroyed everyone who stepped up to me

It was always about me until it never was and perhaps that's how it always is
I cannot say with full surety
But I know my pain along the way was real and I often could hardly ever breathe psychologically