Whether we do good or bad, we always have to be ourselves, which is bad when we're bad and good when we're good and I'm not just saying so to be simple-hearted or coy or whatever; it really is that simple. I almost just got thrown back into the hospital but chose to have my parents and siblings just press legal charges against me this time; the trooper said there's not enough hard-evidence to drag me in but did end up writing a citation against me for harassment. This really is a crazy country but I love it.

I am so tired
I should just take one of my giant pills that my doctor prescribed
They just tranqulize me, which is good...because I seriously hate being awake so much sometimes
I can't even figure out how to spell the word tranqulize right now and refuse to look it up because I seriously do not even care at all
I just wish life was always a bit happier and that good people didn't die young and leave you all alone for the rest of your life
I like to daydream and fantasize that Taylor Swift would love me but she probably would not even care much about me or my life
I'm so stupid
Just wanna sleep or something, even though it isn't even dark out
Summer is my favorite season and I've been waiting forever for it but I don't even care right now
I'm always alone
My heart is black
I will always be alone in a cold cave of sad desperation and total insanity and no one will ever reach out to me and really care and I won't care, either
No one can love me because I'm a beast and beauty isn't real

You know what I mean
Keyz to my heart

What is someone as smart, wise, beautiful and talented as Taylor Swift actually had a crush on me?
I seriously would just play it cool and not blow it, everyone
I just would wanna be whatever her ideal is

I feel like watching the movie Valentine's Day
Even though it has Ashton Koochair
Because the real Taylor Swift is in the movie
I wish she cared about me enough

Her boyfriend
He don't know that I'm her girlfriend
I'm a 33 year old male lesbian
Who licks her sweet crevacis all night long
Me so *****!
Yes!
Me love you long times!!!!!

Sometimes it can be so good
Other times so wrong
When it comes to good I wish it would
Be extra good so long
Me love you long time
Me so *****!!!!!!