If I were to see a shooting star
I would immediately close my eyes
And yearn for his touch
I just want him in the most innocent of ways
To just be able to lie in bed with him
To feel those arms wrapped around me
To feel his heart beat move against mine
To kiss the warmthness that is his neck
To get my hands all lost in his hair
To kiss his plum lips
To get tangled up in the bedsheets as we talk about our dreams
I just want to feel his skin against mine
I want to take in his boyish scent
I want to be able to get lost within his eyes
And finally touch those dimples
I just want him and since there is no shooting star
I am keeping him alive the only way I know
I am keeping us alive through poems
Poems that he will never see
Filled with feelings that will never be voiced.

There is something in his eyes that makes me keep longing
The way one keeps sipping even though their is nothing at the bottom of that cup
There is something about his arms that makes me want to keep on hugging him
The way one says hello after a long departure
There is something about his shirt
The sweet sorry smell that is him
The bedsheets I yet to wash
There is something about his hands that makes me want to stay
The way one stays 'one more beer'
There is something about his lips
Maybe it's how soft they are
Or maybe it's because they taste like the sweetest honey
I keep wanting to come back like a honey bee
There is something about his smile that gravitates me towards him
The way the sun and the moon cannot stray
These is something about his heart, mind, and soul that keeps him alive in all my poems
I can never forget a boy like that even if he has already moved on
This is me
Keeping my favorite dream alive
Keeping us alive
Keeping Him Alive.

I sit in class
Writing about him
He sits across the room from me
With no knowledge that I like him
He makes my heart ache
He sends me over the edge
He causes all these emotions to emerge
Much like a tornado
Sweeping everything in its path
Destroying me from the inside out
With no end.

But once someone
Cries affront of you
It means they gave themselves up
They needed someone
And they chose you
Keep a flask in your heart
And mark this day
Write it in stone
For tears are sacred.

My darling
My dear
My beautiful little girl
When you cry
Angels weep
Causing it to rain
My darling
My dear
My beautiful little girl
When you smile
A rainbow kisses the sky
The sun and the sea finally meet
My darling
My dear
My beautiful little girl
When you're angry
A thunderstorm appears
But just know that a rainbow must always follow
Sooner or later.

I hate your loving smile
I hate your glistening eyes
I hate your soft fliipy hair
I hate your pouty pink lips
I hate your tall, slim body
I hate your adorable dimples
I hate your constellation-like freckles
I hate your athletic graceful walk
I hate your sensual Adam's apple
I hate your boyish mischievous grin
I hate the way you throw your head back and laugh so wildly
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate that I have to write about you
To try and get over your piercing eyes
Because John,
The truth is I like you
I have since the 8th grade
And now we're sophomores
But guys like you don't go for girls like me
The truth is, I don't hate you
I try to convince myself I don't like you
I am writing this as a reason to why I should hate you
But I simply cannot
I think, slowly and painfully that I have fallen in love with you
I can't get you out of my mind
Every love story I read I wish it were us
I dream of you John, constantly and always
Oh how you have ******* with my heart
With that devilish smile of yours
I hate you John.

I walk away
You should've treated me better
Can't you give me another chance? You ask
I laugh and leave
Oh, how many times I have heard that
Coming straight from your slurry, drunken mouth
I deserve better than this
This is where our accidental collided paths separate
Goodbye, my Darlin'
I will always be in love with the guy I once knew
Not this stranger.

I leaned up against you
I tried to resurface our memories
But you looked right through me
You turned away and called for another friend
That's when I knew I was on the end of the elastic band
It came and struck me in the face
That's when I knew I loved you more
That you just simply let go of us
I held in all the tears
but you texted me out of the blue wanting to hang out
I literally broke down
Remembering how you ignored me, but wanting our friendship back
Wanting us back
I tore the bandage off
Now I'm crying and breaking
Our 4am conversation running through my mind
All the shared laughters
Running through my mind
If I knew I would've ended up in pain
I still would've walked up to you
Oh, my dear friend
Does she not know what she has done to my heart?

I don't lie
To intentionally hurt anyone
It's completely the opposite
I lie to protect
The girl in the mirror
I can't let her get her hopes too high
Because there is this beautiful little demon
Called reality
He will wreck her plans
Cause her ship to sink in the torturous waves
And the sad thing is
She's got nothing to lose
She's got nothing to fear
But the girl in the mirror
Who gets in her own way.

Once upon a time I used to be so blue
But then I blew all my worries away
The ocean carried them in ripples
Like nothing more but a grain of sand
The wind carried all my doubts astray
Along with the other gone souls
I've learned to let go
Like one person once said
Worrying is like going outside with an umbrella and waiting for if to rain
You just need to learn how do dig a six foot hole
And throw all your worries, fears, doubts, and anything haunting in the grave
Nothing more but a flush of your waste.

I have fallen in love with the simplicity of words
Stringing them along like the chords of a guitar
Lighting up the night sky like the twinkling stars
A thunderous roar of hear my words
Let them move you along the dance floor
Or like the waves of the sea
Hang on there and I'll save you with some sweet sweet poetry
Baby please hang on
I need you like the dark night needs the star to light the way
I need you like the sun needs the clouds to cool it down
I need you like the rustling leaves needs the wind to pick them up again
I need you like the very breath you are
Let my words take a hold of your heart and soul
Leave the past in the past
Take my hand and hang on
I'm going to show you what it feels like to be a mockingbird
Beauitful and happy to sing and to love
Fall in love with me
Fall in love with sweet sweet poetry.

They were so young and crazy
Whispering I love you
In the back of his truck.

They are graduates now
She is staying in Texas
And he is going overseas
She wants to be a doctor
To save lives
He wants to be a Marine
To defend his country for the greater good.

He comes back
A half year later.

She kisses his cold soft lips
Drawing him in for the last embrace
They put him in underground.

She will never forget him
He's watching over her now
Guarding the gates of Heaven
Waiting for the moment when he will see his love.

They were young and crazy
They were lovers.

I am wrapped in your endearing warmth
In the bed of your truck
Tangled in sheets
Pillows thrown around
A bottle of Jack uncapped and empty
You whisper against my lips
The promises of forever and love
The wind plays with my hair
But all I feel is your arms around me
The stars are out illuminating the dark sky
A full moon playing with our shadows
You throw your head back and laugh
Sendning me to crash againt you
As our bodies lie on top of one another
I can't help but feel how perfect it is being here with you
I stare into your eyes
They are filled with a burning passion
My eyes linger at your lips
I whisper the words "Kiss Me"
The moment our lips touch
Sparks fly and the stars smile at our love
The moon knows what we did that night
We both know it's a feeling you only ever feel once in your lifetime
You were, and still are my first and only love.

I am free
For the soldiers who fought
No one can compare to them
They are this Country's constant thought
They are the brave
They are the strong
The ones we rave
The ones we long
They are veterans
Fighting in hell
For our Heaven
But now we say farewell
For they are in God's kingdom
Assigned to guard Heaven's gates
Now they are at rest
So it is now our fate
To keep America at its best
Thank you Lord
For these Veterans
Now give them my word
They are my hereos
They are Veterans.

I am a poet
A reader of love
A desire of touch
A yearning of passion
I want my skin to heat
To feel your heart beat
To get tangled up in sheets
To get drunk on your lips
All in the name of innocence.

The most lightest graze
Can ignite a fire up and down my soul
The most tender graze
Can make me feel dazed
I crave the love
Not the touch
Some days all I want is hugs
Other days I just want to be left alone
I love the sensation of the touch
When it's out of love and affection
I hate the touch when it hurts
And leaves a mark
Love isn't suppose to hurt
Don't touch me out of anger
Don't take advantage
You tell me you do it because you love me
But you are the reason why I'm afraid
I'm afraid to let people in
I'm afraid to trust people
I'm afraid to love people
I'm afraid of being afraid
Just don't touch me.

Hang on.

You have always been the boy
I have always been infatuated by you
I don't know what it is
But there's something about you
Something that won't let me stop writing
Something that keeps me up late at night
I imagine you lying next to me
Your hot breath warming my neck
Oh John, how I wish I could just tell you
Maybe you'll feel the same way
Maybe I can finally let go
Dear John,
You are the very dream I ache.

It's one of those sleepless nights
Memories of us engulfing me in tears
Clutching a bottle of whiskey
Your name escaping my drunken lips
My shivering body wanting you to keep me warm
I holler for you, I scream, my lungs collapsing
But I know you are in the bed of another
I shouldn't of let you walk away
I should've clung on tight
I should've told you I loved you
I stare at the stars and all I see is your lips
My vision is blurry with loving tears
Memories of us fading in and out
How I wish I could forever stare at the stars.

"But you must be happy to cry and cry to be happy."

A book
is planted
from a
withering
tree of tales
just waiting
for someone
to watch
it blossom,
waiting for
someone to
read its tales
to live
another life.

You walked out of my life
I turned around
I couldn't watch you leave me
I fought the urge to run after you
To beg you to stay for a little longer.

That was the last time I saw you
Now you are in the arms of another
I'm trying to be okay
I really am
Because I don't care.

I am not a poet
I am just a simple small town girl
I love to gaze at the stars
To feel the wind blow my hair and whisper in my ears
I love the feeling of cold mud on my skin
Laughing and screaming till I can't no more
I love to sit on the pier
To watch the sun set as it gives the sea one last kiss
I love to find a shady spot
To just sit there and imagine a world full of love and passion
I sit here, now
With my journal in hand
Writing about the art of words
But mind you, I am no poet.

There's something about this boy
He makes my heart gallop
My breath jagged
My skin flush
I stare at him with heart shaped eyes
All I see is an aching, walking dream
He has waltzed away with my heart
It is dark now and the stars are out
He is lying next to me
I am writing with my eyes closed
I smell the dirt and sweat on him
He stares into my eyes intently
I bite my lip and twitch as his gaze
He kisses me the way every girl dreams
I grab him by the nape of his neck
And pull him in closer
His body heat making me glow
The moon blushing at our very shadows
He whispers about Love and Always
I feel someone nudging my shoulder
I jolt awake and realize it was another dream
He's not mine
His lips never came crashing down on me
He never looked well within my soul
But I must dream of us in a world of words.

I held my daddy's hand at grandpa's funeral
I looked up and saw a tear flow free
Carried away by the wind
Who says real men don't cry?
I looked at her thin frame
She tried to fake a smile
But I clung on to her side
Who says real women have curves?
I looked at the blood on the floor
The rope on the ceiling
Another Beauitful soul gone
Who says words don't ****?
I looked at them part
Another goodbye
A kiss here and there
I promise to come home safe, mom,  he says
Who says freedom comes free?
I looked at the torn innocent girl
I held her trembling body in my arms
Trying not to fall
Who says **** is okay?
I look at the man on his deathbed
The drugs and the beer have finally gotten to him
I hold his hand and kiss his forehead for the last time
Who says smoking and drinking is cool?
I look at the beaten man
I rush to his side and dial 9-1-1
He's barely breathing, his breaths are jagged
Who says a man is the only abuser?
I look at her covered tattooed arms
Her patient starts to slowly die and she starts panicking
Quick! Hurry! Save the little girl, she says
Who says people with tattoos are stupid?
I see the man in his turban
Helping the little old lady cross the street
She's laughing like there's no tomorrow
Who says all Muslims are radical?
I see a man getting bullied
Others screaming at him to grow some *****
A group of women and men run up to take his side
Who says feminists hate men?
I look at the girl in her Dress Blues
M-16 slung around her chest
Her family surrounding her
Who says women belong in the kitchen?

There is a monster settling deep within me
A bottomless pit it has formed
I struggle from day to day
My body always freezing and locking
I wish I were like the wings of birds
Instead I am the shackles that weighs my own self down
I hate when people stare at me
They're all critiques
They are silently judging me for the very breath I take
I hate being put under the spotlight
Like a grain under a microscope
Or an ant under a magnifying glass
I like to be alone
The anxiety disappears when I am alone
Please help me get rid of this anxiety
It is eating me alive from the inside out.

I was staring at a dream
My heart hammering
The butterflies exploding
My tongue twisting
My breath quickening
Oh how that smile tangles me up
He looks up and catches me staring
My cheeks blush
I look away immediately
How I wish I had the courage to talk to him.

You meet a stranger and hit it straight off the bat
You say "see ya later" when you never know if you will
It's just the hope
You see someone crying
You go to comfort them talking about Jesus
You say "I'll always be here"
Knowing your own shoulders bare enough
You see someone alone
You take that seat next to them
You say "You're not lonely anymore"
Knowing you were the one that was lonely
You see someone getting bullied
You say "I'm here"
Knowing that no one is there when your parent's fight
You see someone depressed
You try everything in vain to cheer them up
You say "Just be happy"
With images of your parents unhappy
Hugging your younger siblings
Cursing God
You see someone disbelieving
You go and spread the good word
Promising them God is real
When you are angry at Him
You say "God will never forget you"
Eventhough you feel like nothing more but a shadow
You see someone happy
You can't help but stare
You fall in love with their smile
It causes you to smile
Knowing you have lost yourself
You try your hardest to cheer everyone up
When you haven't seen a rainbow in days
People are crazy.

I am a lover of words
Stringing them along
Elongating them
Drawing them out
The simplicity leaving me awestruck.

I have never fallen so deeply in love with a little girl
She was an angel put in my path by God's grace
I latched on to her while she clung to me
I stared into her beautiful baby blues
I held her cute little face in my hands
I wanted more than anything to kiss her on her forehead
I wanted nothing more than to never leave her side
I wanted to freeze time and see her smile light up the whole night sky
She told me she would miss me the moment I walked out the door
She held out her arms as wide as they would go and told me that's how much she would miss me she told me she would miss me from the earth to the moon to every star and to every planet, twice
As I walked out of the building I quickly turned around and caught her eye for the last time
I immediately broke down and started to feel a hurricane form deep within my soul
This little girl has touched my heart in ways that nobody has
Once the tears flowed free it was like a dam that just started to burst
There was no way to control the tears or the violently trembling hurricane that was my body
Nobody could calm the storm contained within me except her
But she's long gone until our paths cross again
God has a funny way of filling your heart with love than leaving it with a longing
But filling it with gratitude for being face to face with an angel
You have such a beautiful little voice, my darlin'
I hope you never forget me the way I haven't forgotten you
You will forever and always be in my thoughts and prayers
There will always be a longing contained within my heart waiting to see you again
Until our paths cross once again
There will forever be an image of you carved into the back of my heart
Until I can take your hand in Heaven and spend my days dancing with you.

She stares at him
He pretends not to notice
He looks up and almost catches her eye
But she quickly looks away
She will never let him hurt her
He will never hurt her
She stares at the ground
Daydreaming about the boy
Across the classroom
He watches her, falling deeper for her smile.

I watched from afar
I never fully understood
How two people could be
In love but not together.

As I watched the sunset in the bed of my truck
I wondered where does it go?
As I was pondering this
The moon came up
The birds stopped chirping
The wolves started howling.

The sun and the moon are deeply in love
One dies to see the other live
The other lives to see the one die.
They are in love but never together.

It's freezing cold outside
The lifeless trees scratching our window
Begging to come in
The wind keeping the door shut
A fire is blazing
The wisps of wood turning into ash
Your hot skin against mine
We are wrapped in a blanket
The clock ticking promising forever
Your mouth whispering "I Love You' against my hungry lips
Your body warmth filling me with love
The crackling of wood filling the room like candles
Love, passion, and romance
Heating the log cabin
Snowflakes landing on our windowsill
Your body igniting a fire well within my soul
Oh how I love these winter nights
The fire playing wonders with your eyes
The shadows of our bodies
The roses scattered across the floor
Your lips red with wine
Oh these romantic winter nights.

I am lost in a world where I never want to be found.

I walk in the room roses scattered across the floor
A raging love of war
I lie on the bed and think of our wedding night
It was flight or fight
I think of your hot skin igniting my naked soul
Now there's nothing left but a gaping hole
Baby why did you have to leave me?
Why did it have to be?
I feel your lips crashing against mine passionately
The tears are flooding in slowly
I miss you like roses where the tenderness peeks out of blooded thorns
I would do it all over again
Even with the knowledge of that bullet taking your life
I still would've said yes to being your wife
Oh Baby you got me feeling like roses
All complete and beautiful with the blood stains from the thorns
I lie awake whispering your name to the bed sheets
These memories soaring in and taking me away to a world of peace
Baby, you are my single rose.

You say you don't love me
I watch you walk away
Knowing I was bound to get hurt
But I loved you either way
And I'd do it all over again
I act tough
I bawl my fists
And chase after you
I won't let you go
Bet you restrain and walk away
Give me another chance
I'm willing to change if you just say you'll be mine
That night, I cried myself to sleep
Dreaming happily of you and I
I got drunk that night
And I passed out on the couch
That night I never woke up
But I never did stop dreaming of us.

If you look up to Heaven
You will see the Angels
They are jumping from cloud to cloud
They are happy
A rainbow always kissing the sky
If you look down below
You will see the Fallen Angels
They are jumping from pit to pit
They are unhappy
A thunderstorm always fighting the lightning
If you look around you
You will see Beautiful, Misguided Angels
They are jumping from good to evil and evil to good
They are emotionally confused
A thunderstorm always followed by a rainbow.

Everyone has shoulders to fill
Tears that shed
A burden upon the soul
A gaping, flaming heart
Either from love or hate
Everyone carries burdens
Some just smile a little more
Some just don't think about the weight
They live a better life
There are times when you can't change what you bear
But you can change the way you carry it
Don't walk with your head down
Keep your head held high and back straight
Learn how to bear your weight
Because truth be told, we are all filled with burdens
We are all running to a finish line that doesn't exist.

Oh how I wish I was warned
And maybe I wouldn't be so darned
To believe that happiness last
And maybe my heart wouldn't be in a cast
Forevers are a lie
And feelings die
But people keep moving
While others are barely coping
Some see the light
And others are in a fright
Oh how I wish I could turn back time
But maybe it wouldn't be worth a dime
But my feelings would of been spared
And I wouldn't be so scarred
Oh how I wish I could turn back the clock
And make my wall a higher block
This isn't worth the pain
But I feel everything in vain
I don't know which is worse
To get knocked off a horse
Or to let you in
Because I know I won't win
Happiness is nothing but a let on
And I have been torn a ton
If you were to tell me you wanted to stay
I would say okay
Oh how I wish I was warned
Because I am already darned.

We talked about the future like we had a clue
You were my best friend and I was yours
We talked our souls out at 4 in the morning
Woke up the next day a little lighter
We were going on four years
But I guess fate has a different idea
Oh how I wish I knew what it was
I try to talk to you, but you shut me out
It was like an elastic band
She had long let go
I should've caught all the signs
I guess I should finally stop thinking of her
Maybe that's why I'm writing
Or I might just be keeping the memories alive
I miss you, but you no longer look at me
If I would've know this is how it would've ended
I still would've walked up to you four years ago
Every day spent with you was well worth it
Still worth the pain of missing you
Oh, goodbye my friend
Until I see you in my dreams.

Our song wasn't the kind that you hear on the radio
It didn't have words
There wasn't guitars or any kind of instruments
Our song comes on at midnight
He takes me by the hand
Out in his ranch
The crickets chirping
The leaves shaking
The wind laughing
The very dirt beneath our feet whispering
The moon cheering
Nature was our song
Our burning passion for one late in the night.

I lie awake
Staring at the stars
Thinking of your twinkling eyes
I close my eyes
Feeling the wind
Thinking about your hot breath next to me
I open my eyes
I stare at the moon
Thinking about how often it changes
But we never will
There might be times when a cloud covers our sun
But even the sky parts
I stare at the trees that are dancing with the wind
And I think about our last dance right before you went to sleep
It's a full moon out tonight
I look at you and see my world
I listen to the crickets chirping
I think about our long talk of forevers
If only I could freeze time
And relive this moment every day
What a beautiful starry night
With the boy I have fallen in love with.

I don't care if you love me
But I'd like you to
I push you away
But I want you to stay
I say mean things
Even when my heart is full of love for you
You were the rose
And I was the thorns
You were a ray of sunshine
And I was your stormy night
You made my day better
And all I did was make you blue
I tell you I won't force you to stay
In hope that you won't leave
You were a honey suckle
And I was your wasp
You were a cure
And I was your poison
You were life
And I was death
You were front stage
And I was your shadow
You were skipping
And I was slipping
You were smiling
And I was frowning
You were peace
And I was the war
You were found
And I was lost
You were loved
And I was ******
You were too good for me
And I was not enough
So please stay...
Or don't
I don't care
Even if I do
I like you
I don't like you
You were sensitive
And I was insensitive
You were a Northerner
And I was a Southerner
You were the moon
And I was the wolf
You were the cherry
And I was the stem
You were the flower
And I was the dirt
You were Heaven
And I was your Hell
You heart is whole
I don't have a heart
Your life is complete
My life hasn't started
You were sweet
And I was bitter
You were the wild berries
And I was the vine
You were soft
And I was hard
You were a cloud
And I was the rain
You were a planet
And I was the asteroid
You were the water
And I was the Fire
You are an Angel
And I am a Demon
You fixed me
I broke you
You still stayed
You were afraid to speak your mind
But I was a blunt
You spared the feelings of everyone
I spared no one
You were as soft as a teddy bear
And I was as hard as steel
You were glass
Marked 'fragile'
I was a bomb
Marked 'dangerous'
Don't you see?
I am hard to love
I am insensitive
I am caring
I love with a passion
And hate with my heart
Nothing can hurt me
Eventhough I feel everything in vain
I will defend you
I will leave you
I will love you
I will hurt you
I will say mean things
And do kind
I will not care of you
Even if my heart does
I will say goodbye
Even if my arms say stay
The door is right there...
Just leave
But I am right here...
Just stay
I am a girl
With many different sides
I am love
I am hate
I am ammo
I am the gun
I am the band aid
I am the doctor
I will love you till my last breath
Or when you decide to leave
Beware of me, this is a warning!
I am hard to love.

I look in the distance
There is no place I'd rather be
And I know in this instance
I can just be me
Look at the wind
It is so calm and swift
How I wish I could rewind
And live life more like a gift
As I sit on this tree
I can't help but feel connected
Now I know what it's like to feel free
Sitting here on this tree has made me feel affected
In a good and spiritual way
I feel closer to my country roots
Oh how I wish I could fly away
I stare at my boots
And know their ain't nothing more simple than this way of living
How I wish people would just look around
And see that this is worth dreaming
This life is made for y'all
Now listen to me for I am right
This is the country
Where we all say howdy
And throw the word y'all
Like it ain't meant for over yonder
Where we all know how to bait a hook
And The Bible is our only book
Bring your shotguns
For we are going hunting
Bring your fishing poles
For we are going fishing
And don't worry about not using the word ain't
For over here it is very much alive
Just like our folks
This tree is really beautiful
Just close your eyes
And let the wind through you.

He grew up around *****
Bottles and cans thrown 'round
He calls them his holy water, now
Been a long time since Church
We watch him slowly progressing his death
The bubbles quickening the pace
He drinks till he's out
Till I can't see the heart behind his eyes
A new man kicks in
This ain't the dad I know
All the ***** finally got to him
He drank himself to death
I guess too much of a good ain't a good thing.

Just close you eyes and fall backwards
I'll catch you
Just let me set my alarm for tomorrow morning
I'll see you this weekend
20 years from now...
Forever
Distance and love
Faith is blind
But it's harder to believe in God
And never having seeing him
Rather than not believing
And never seeing
Faith is knowing that when you call
You have God
It doesn't mean you are better than anybody else
It doesn't mean you are a loser
Faith is expecting to wake up tomorrow
And promising your forevers.