I cut myself
Into shreds
Hanging myself
By tattered threads
As bills pile up
The teeth of my monster
Grow sharper day by day
I forget to eat
And trade my weight
With my painful
Emotions
And still you fail to see.

I dared to look away
And lost my place
In the line of
Time.
I glanced the other way
Tripped and fell
Down.
I am not sure where
I have to go
I have become
Alone and yet surrounded
My family is gone.

Welcome to Hell
Please keep soul inside body at all times
Satan is not available for autographs
God does not make house calls
You are not welcome here
Your body will be abused
Your mind will be mistreated
If you make it,
You can say you weren't
Defeated

Hi Mom,
(I'm so sad Mom)
How are you Mom?
(I'm breaking apart Mom)
I can see you're happy Mom.
(Did you forget me Mom?)
Let's talk Mom.
(Don't leave Mom.)
I have a boyfriend Mom.
(He hits me Mom)
I'm happy Mom.
(I slit my wrists Mom)
Everything's changing Mom.
(I'm dying Mom)

Goodbye Mom.

(I'm dead Mom)

I watched the road
For signs
of Change
Nothing in
         view,
Clear
        Blue
               Sky.
And then,
         I realize
It's raining,
                inside.

Beaten up
Torn apart
And glued together
Holding up
And holding in
Every single thing
Walked upon
I sit bruised
  Broken
Numb, Hollow
Void, Accepting
I have fallen
From the top
  of the world..

What happens if this kills me
And I die in my sleep
Because I landed to soon
After falling into dreams

Dreams of loves touch
However, love is not necessary
Remember ignorance is bliss

So I wish to not know
Loves forever lisp
Because I have lost and loved
And prefer to have neither

Rather than risk death
From repeated landings
   After the fall.