She sat with her back against the wall
her legs curled to her chest, as tight
as a ball, with her head between her knees
as she whispered Thank You and Please
She laid with her hand beneath her head
without a pillow and a knife under the bed
and a willingness to **** not just for her body
but for her soul.
That's just how she rolled.
She kissed, just not on the lips.
She wanted to quench
but took just sips
and purged it all
from her mind before she woke
so no memories had a chance
to enhance or evoke.
She found that not everyone
wanted a piece of her
that she wasn't willing to give.
Once she decided it was better
to live, with the tiny part
of her that she couldn't let go.
It was found beneath the snow
that melted from her tattered mind
buried beneath the weight
of another life left behind
that tried to negate
most of her feelings
and all of her power.
She picked herself up from the alley
and stood out in a shower
of rain
that poured down her body
to reawaken her heart.
She waited for clarity to depart
but only an awareness
was left behind.
She didn't see the rain,
only teardrops from sunshine.