You left me oblivious
We don't notice the seconds
ticking by
Or the one falling leaf
Or breaking heart
Or millions of teary eyes.
We don't notice the feet shuffling by
Or the words we can't hear.
We are oblivious to love.
There is someone out there,
Who, like you, is searching
And waiting for the one second
Where the oblivion stops.
A black hole eats me up
Swallowing me whole
Memories of me fading
Like I never existed at all.
Every thin strip of me
Erased in this world
I am nothing now but a wanderer
With no heart and soul.

He doubted me
Then he shouted at me
He blamed me for
No reason
And told me I change
Like season
The person who loved me
Like there was no other
Left my side for another
He said I was expecting
Too much
With kid like attitude as such
This was not a valid reason
To break up like this
But it was evident that
He would never miss me
Of course, as the other
Had taken over my lover
My place in his heart
Was no longer his part
He spilled out my love
And let it drown off like
A helpless dove
When I pleaded with sorry
He said not to worry
As some other will fill in
His absence in my life
Upon my broken heart
He left me shattered
To him,
I no longer mattered
He has found a new bloom
That scented his room
Once owned
Now disowned!

He feels everything too deeply
He takes too much to heart
He’s not always logical, rational, shallow –
He feels first, think second

He’s lonely, but he seems happy
He’s tired, but he moves forward
He’s down, but he doesn’t drown
He’s hopeless, but he’s not careless

They say he’s good looking, but he feels ugly
They say he’s smart, but he feels dumb
They say he’s talented, but he feels incompetent
They say he’s strong, but he feels weak

His mind refuses to stop analyzing, creating, processing –
His trust comes slow
He has no one, but he isn’t gone
And that he, is me.

I haven’t come home in a century or more,
According to my soul calendar
But I’ve gained some perspective with time.

Truth is an old hat that fits your head
When the many detours of life have been taken
And you were left by yourself on the road
Facing the thorns of the lack of belief.

I wished I was there, at the funeral of reason
With a bouquet of lilies in my hand
And a meaningful goodbye on my lips
Gaining some perspectives on higher love,
Tongue out, tasting the cold air of mourn
Setting my eyes on the line of the horizon,
Ready to comprehend the world again.

But I always knew the core was dark,
Even though the span of day full of light,
I always knew, it wouldn’t be that simple
To grab the truth with a slippery heart.

When life feels suspended by a delicate thread
Change is inevitable

I sometimes feel stifled
Tightly constricted
Like a chrysalis
Struggling against transformation

I oppose the transition
And need more time to adapt
Today
A butterfly tapped against my window
Like change asking to come in

If I can comply with Grace
Maybe I too can transcend
And withstand the butterfly effect

G iven so little
R ight when i love you most
A nd it'll all be gone
N ot in my memory or yours
T ake my hand and live out
E very second until the thought
D rags behind us forever

Shattered
Falling too quickly,
Too sudden,
And too hard.

I trusted you, let you in,
And gave you all the weapons.
Everything you need to catch me or destroy me.

I opened up my heart,
Trusting that you would hold it,
Hold it and keep it warm, like how you hold my hands everyday without a fail - But you just reminded me why things break when they fall.

You just got my heart and ripped it out.
Left me feeling empty, ******, and bad about myself.
Letting me fall but without you on the other end,
leaving me broken and shattered.