This pain I feel
This deep sting
It makes me reel
It makes me cling

To thoughts once abandoned
That seemed so distant
Thoughts that once commanded
My every waking instant

Buried for a time
Deep in my soul
Held in my mind
A recess black as coal

Brought to life
By the one that created it
Pulled to the light
But never fully lit

It may remain
To the end of my days
But I will still refrain
From ever meeting your gaze