I have my choice of amazing woman but yet I feel pain
Is it because they love me but yet I don’t feel same,
About her or her or you or you
Please I wish someone would just tell me what to do
Yet rather how to feel, about this pain in my chest that I don’t wish to reveal.
For I love only one so all my ex’s want an appeal.
Docket after docket on how I should be with them
Just want to shut them all out and fall into my REM
You see that's Rapid Eye Movement but my eyes only moved for you
On this ship of relation that I would have forever stayed true.
But for you it wasn’t the same, for the heart wants what it wants
If that wasn't me then why was it a future you would taunt
But I no longer feel guilt, pain, or obligation,
For I have come in terms with being an abomination.
I am such a fool for relishing in your eyes and caving to your temptation
You are my greatest regret when you should have been my greatest salvation

In fear of facing my mind I can never close my eyes at night
I pray for better days where mind is right
Instead of living everyday in a constant state of pain
Where I can break away from the bottle that is my novocain
I just wish that somebody will stop and listen
And understand all that Im wishing
For is a day of peace and silence
Just one night I can rest both my lids

I’ve never been so scared to see you before
For I already knew all that was in stored
For me, for you, and more importantly us
I should have known it wasn’t real love for it was only lust
You promised me that I had nothing to fear
But from your mouth spewed lies for you’ve now disappeared
You said it was all just a show that none of it was real
But it was for me so on my own I must heal
I tried to be everything that you’ll ever need
But I was too late for he already planted the seed
Of a flower called his love that he promised would be different and new
But just as before it will turn out not to be true
I will never forget the last time that we said goodbye
Because it was the last time anything has been able to make me cry