Just Ty

Just Ty May 2018

Please tell me when are you planning to leave
so I can know where to put my heart on my sleeve
Should I place it near my hands so that I can give it to you
Or should I place it up higher for you are just passing through

Just Ty May 2018

Locked Away

You ever want to know about the state of my mind?
Walk into my house and tell me what you find
You would probably find my emotions scattered on the floor
And a trail of tears leading you to a lock door
In that room is where the real me lives
I locked him away for what he did the world cannot forgive
I can hear him at night screaming and crying
Saying I am sorry to his heart for ever trying
I wish I could let him out, I wish he could be with me
But they say time heals all wounds so I guess we’ll see
So for the time being I am the best you’re going to get
For the appearance of my true self isn’t something I’ll let

Just Ty May 2018

Acceptance

I have finally accepted that we will never be
It took a while to see it but I can finally see
My eyes are open and my vision is cleared
It is not my fault that you were too scared
Scared to accept that you deserved more
But you were the opposite of all that you swore
You were right in saying that I could do better
I will find someone deserving of my love letters
I pray one day you’ll realize all that you’ve lost
And regret knowing the heart that you tossed
will eventually give all that should of been yours
And that you are to blame for all you’ll endure
I am not wishing you pain that’s not what I want
Just be prepared for our memories to constantly haunt

Just Ty May 2018

One Day... Maybe

I wish I could tell you all that goes on in my cerebral
Maybe you’ll get a glimpse of why I don’t trust most people
I have yet to meet a person who’s genuine and true
For they only stay around depending on what I can do...
for them as long as I am pleasing
A possibility of a future is what their constantly teasing
Whether it’s love, friendship, or even my career
It all ends the same with me alone with my tears
So now I know I can only count on myself
Maybe one day I will take my feelings off that dusty shelf
Where I tend to keep everything that I want to keep safe
From the world that comes at me like an emotional strafe

Just Ty May 2018

Ride To My Death

Taking my time through this winding road
In fear of all I am about to be told
This will more than likely be my last ride
But hell at least I can say that I tried
I gave you my all but it wasn’t good enough
Getting over you is going to be tough
Not having my moon and my stars to guide me
Where is the end I guess we’ll wait and see
All I know is that at the end I will reach my death
This is where I leave you this is where I take my last breath

Just Ty May 2018

Reality

Today I pulled my phone out to call you and see how your day was going but then I came to the sad realization that it’s no longer my place to do so.

Just Ty May 2018

Goodbye

Today is the day I ask all of you for forgiveness
And apologize to all those whom have to bare witness
To the gruesome scene that is the ****** of my heart
I tried to pick up the pieces but it continues to fall apart
I promise you all I did the best that I could
But no matter what I am made to be the villain constantly misunderstood
Now with my last my few breathes drawing so near
I can say you got what you want as my life disappears
I am sorry to all of those that I am hurting
And to the select few that my pain will be transferring
I just wasn’t strong enough to deal with this **** day to day
I would love nothing more than to be able to stay
I am just so tired of losing it’s becoming to much
Tired of hearing “it’s not you” “maybe next time” it’s becoming too much.
To the one whom was the cherry on the cake
Just know that I loved you even if I was too late.
My eyes are becoming heavy and I am very weary
When I look down upon you all I don’t want to see a single eye teary

Just Ty—