Today is the day I ask all of you for forgiveness
And apologize to all those whom have to bare witness
To the gruesome scene that is the ****** of my heart
I tried to pick up the pieces but it continues to fall apart
I promise you all I did the best that I could
But no matter what I am made to be the villain constantly misunderstood
Now with my last my few breathes drawing so  near
I can say you got what you want as my life disappears
I am sorry to all of those that I am hurting
And to the select few that my pain will be transferring
I just wasn’t strong enough to deal with this **** day to day
I would love nothing more than to be able to stay
I am just so tired of losing it’s becoming to much
Tired of hearing “it’s not you” “maybe next time” it’s becoming too much.
To the one whom was the cherry on the cake
Just know that I loved you even if I was too late.
My eyes are becoming heavy and I am very weary
When I look down upon you all I don’t want to see a single eye teary

Just Ty—

I wish that I was brave enough to tell you how feel
And how much I am afraid of all that you could steal
I don’t have much to take for I was robbed in the past
But I’ll trust one more time so this flame will be my last
Before you have the chance to take I will simply give to you
In hopes that your intentions pure and that the words you speak are true.
I know I’m not much and I know you can do better
In a desperate hope to keep you I’ll write you daily love letters
I promise to give you all I can I promise to give you my best
I promise to only take away not add to your stress
I will never stop trying to get you to fall in love with me
I will never stop trying to get you to see all you can be
I won’t give up on you and I promise you that
Even if in the end you can’t give it back

Just Ty—

I guess it’s time for me to change up
And ask why does everyone drink from societies cup
Why can’t a man want good for his fellow brother
Why do you think it’s ok to disrespect your children’s mother
Why are women all in competition
Why is my town at an all time high for addiction
Addiction to pills but also to them likes
Why does a woman have wrong her body in order to feel right
Why do we have so many fathers sitting in jail
Why is there a slant when it comes to racial bail
Why don’t we do more and come together as a community
Why don’t we choose to be the bigger person when given the opportunity
Why must we keep the hatred going
It’s time to decide if you want to help change the world or keep the hatred growing

Just Ty-

As I stand up here embarrassed by my actions
I wonder if anyone would understand if they only knew a fraction
Of what I battle with on a daily inside my head
Even if you were half the person I am you’d end up dead.
But am I really too far off?
I try to play hard but inside I am soft.
I am as soft as the hands whom once held my heart
With those same hands you easily tore it all apart.
Im not only speaking of my heart but rather my mind, body, and spirit.
Where he once clouded everything I came in and cleared it.
I promised myself this would be the last time
I asked god if I am lovable then to please give me a sign
And there you were so vibrant and beautiful
But just as I thought it didn’t last as usual
I really hate the concept of love because it is something that hurts the most,
You got me good this time Love now raise your glass for this toast
Tonight I toast to you for breaking me down
But at the same time you’ve shown me that I am better than this town.
So heres to a fresh start to some place wonderful and new
But never will it compare to imprint of my heart that only fits you.

Just Ty-