Minsan ako'y napapaisip,
Kung bakit pa ako pumapasok sa eskwelahan,
Pumapasok ba ako para mag-aral?
Eh pakiramdam ko wala naman akong natututunan,
Kabisado ko lahat, ngunit ni isa, wala akong naiintindihan.
Bakit pa ako nag-aaral?
Para ba sa ito aking kapakanan?
Para ba talaga ito sa aking kapakanan, kahit wala naman talaga akong natututunan?
Para ba talaga ito sa aking kapakanan, kahit ito ang dahilan ng aking kalungkutan?
Para ba talaga ito sa aking kapakanan, kahit nalilimutan ko na magkaroon ng mga kaibigan?
Para ba talaga ito sa aking kapakanan, kahit nasasakripisyo na ang aking kalusugan?
Para ba talaga ito sa aking kapakanan, kahit kayo at hindi ako nasisiyahan?
Kayo lang ang natutuwa sa mga matataas kong marka,
Ang mga grado at papuring aking natatamasa, hindi sapat para gawin akong masaya
Nasasakal na ako, gusto kong makahinga
Nakaka-pagod mag-aral lalo na't hindi ko naman gusto ang aking ginagawa
Sinasagad ko ang aking sarili, para kayo't maging
Puyat na puyat,
Pagod na pagod,
Bagsak na ang katawan
At ginagawa lang nilang katatawanan ang aking kapaguran
Hindi nila pinahahalagahan ang aking nararamdaman,
Tao rin ako napapagod, nasasaktan.
Sana maisip niyo rin na gusto kong mag-aral, mag-aral ng hindi napipilitan
Gusto kong mag-aral ng may natututunan
Ayokong maging basehan ang aking mga marka ng aking pagkatuto
Gusto kong pumasa hindi lang dahil basta't kabisado ko at may naipasa
Gusto kong pumasa dahil ako'y may natutunang mga aral na aking dadalhin hanggang sa aking kamatayan.
Bakit pa ako nag-aaral?
Dahil naniniwala akong may makikita akong pagbabago, may makakatagpong **** na babago ng aking pananaw tungkol sa totoong kahulugan ng edukasyon at pagkatuto.

Judge me all you want,
Hate me all you want,
But you can never erase the fact,
That you're thinking of my life.

Sitting at midnight
In front of a laptop
While wiping the tears
And weeping in silence

I looked at our photos
We were so happy before.
Before was the time that
I wanted to get over.
The past is still haunting me,
Moments of you and me,
I still cannot fathom
You being with someone else.

It was just a mere attraction
But ended up with obsession
In constant hesitation
Is this love or infatuation?
What will be the continuation
Of our love story full of contradiction?

Sunrise
Rice
Suffice
Breakfast
Held back
Emotions
Let's break up

I have no time to be sad.
There are school works,
I have to be a functioning human.

I have no time for drama.
There's too much of that in my life.
It is evident, it is rife.

I have no time for emotions or whatsoever in general
I still have a lot of things to do,
I don't want it to be affected
It only brings pain and melancholy.
I've had to much of that.

Because I am a coward and I'm afraid to be hurt,
I forgot how to feel emotions
And instead felt numbness.

I miss myself
I'm not who I was before
I'm changing
And not for the better
I feel suffocated
And tired
And anxious
And depressed
All these feelings that were repressed
How can i let this all out
When the only solution in my head
Is death?