You split yourself in two
And I didn’t have a clue
I was one and now I’m two
Now I keep a half from you
What you see on the outside
Is not what I’m trying to hide
That’s left eating me up inside

I hate my brain
Especially on days
It causes my eyes to rain
As they release all the pain
Oh I miss the bliss
Of that tender kiss
Stop
Allow no room
For these thoughts
To loom
Stop

You shout about my imperfections
So that all the world can see
I smile and shrug it off,
every ****** week.
Until your words seep through
Just a little too deep

You were asked to end this daily show
Where all the acts are all the same
And nothing will ever grow.
Instead of stopping the hurt
You chose words that are curt
And shouted and swore until the curtains came down
Well at least that’s the end of the show

I still can’t get my head around all this

We both were seeing a different man.
She was told she’d always been the “one”
What does that make me a two or maybe three?
Either way he never said that to me.
There was never talk of holiday plans
Marriage or Prams
I’m told the plans were for two
Yet I didn’t have a clue.
All of this he chose to hide
And I was taken for a ride
I still can’t decide what’s right and wrong
But the evidence shows that the feelings were strong.
If she didn’t end it and be so mean
I think he may be just as keen.
Asking to see her more
Sickens me right through the core
I don’t know if I can take any more

There is only one of me you see.
One of me but you chose to split yourself In three.
It’s not a third I want to see it’s the whole of you.
The black the white and all the shades of blue.
The whole colour spectrum all the way through
Three of us share your heart none of us good enough to choose
Be careful as in the end it’s only you that will lose.

I don’t think Santa wants a whiskey or a G and T
Not by the time he gets to me
I think he’d prefer a Tunnocks and a cup of tea.
All night he’s been drinking
So this is what I’m thinking
A coffee perhaps and a little snack
But nothing that will make him too fat.

I wish we could start a new
Pretend we haven’t met yet
Start with, how are you?
I wish I could turn the clocks back
Do it all another way
I wish I hadn’t leant on you
With all that weight
You were bound to break
And now you bolt
It’s all my fault
I just wish you would have talked
Before you had walked
Even though I don’t really know
It seems you want me to let you go
I just wish you could tell me so
Face me
Disgrace me
Tell me what you feel
So that both of us can heal

An important friend
So important we’ve never met
What does that make me?

As I lay with you Jay
The world feels less grey
As we play through the day
And make days go astray
I pray that this is more than a play
With facts not acts and
Bends not ends
And that you’re with me Jay
Until the very last day

You like to hold the power
You hold it for months
I wait
You wait
What are we waiting for?

This person I knew
Couldn’t do these things
I learnt of you
This person I knew
Wouldn’t do these things
I learnt of you
This person I knew
Wasn’t you
This person she knew
Wasn’t you
And now you are new
Is this you?
Who are you?
I don’t have a clue
I hope this is you
How can you stop
This happening again
When you don’t know
How it began
Why you turned from me
To her without any care
You even cut you hair
All of this isn’t fair
Why didn’t you care?

I miss the rush of wind on my face
As I’m floating on a boat
In the middle of the sea
This is where I want to be
Looking out to sea
When looking becomes a stare
Wind in my hair
At the top of a cliff
Standing as a close As I dare
Looking out to sea
Wind on my face
Being in the sea
Waves crashing over me
Wind in my face
Looking out to sea
Me, Just being with me

Perhaps you were teaching me how to be strong but you got it all wrong
The things you taught me ingrained  in me for life.
You taught me that people are powerful and there's nothing you can do
You taught me justice is unfair
You taught me intention doesn't matter an accident is just as wrong
You assumed I was born knowing right and wrong
That there is no time for failure mistakes or to get it wrong.
Thing is, non of this made me strong
I learnt not to fight when bad things happen
I learnt that the world is frightening and hard to get along
I learnt it always me who is in the wrong that gets things wrong.

Your kindness blows me away
I really hope you’re here to stay
Unlike all the rest
You really are the best

I don’t give a ****
If I’ve used all my luck
Because you’re not like all the rest
You really are the best

I love you to bits
And not just for kicks
I try to forget the past
As I don’t have a mask
But you are not like all the rest
You are the very best

I love you and
I will endeavour
to make this
last forever

You said I love you
But I can't stay.
I said ok
but it has to be this way
You said I promise
I said ok
We can find a way.
You broke your promise
I said why?
You said nothing
And left me to cry.