The intrusion I feel
As you step into my home
Like you’ve stripped me bare
And do nothing but stare
I read your eyes and all the smiles
But I know what you’re thinking
That I’m never good enough
I’m a little too rough.

I think how lucky I am to be able to sit in this space
The sea, the sky, and the wind in my face
How lucky I am to feel the sea at my feet,
the heat of the sun on my skin and the breeze from the sea.
This is the place where I can feel alive and be free.

I want to disappear from life and all it's strife
I want to feel nothing
I don't wanna be me anymore
This is not how I hoped things would be
I want to wake up and feel free
But all I wanna do now is flee from being me
One small word or trigger makes for a loud bang
A punch in the face and happiness is drained leaving no trace
I want to feel love and be safe in this place
I don't want to cry, I want my eyes to stay dry without getting high
Nobody can help, there is nothing that can be done
I'm just wired all wrong
I just gotta hope while i sleep my mind is reset
That I wake up tomorrow with a new beat in my step

A dark mood, like a web
Suffocating the light
Sinking claws, sharp and tight
Tangled waves of dark and light,
Both trying to win the fight.

I am me
if you can't except it
please leave me be

There is no explanation
I just did what I did.
Parties and drink
No time to think
Drown it with ***
I'm out to have fun
Chat to mates
Yeah this is fate!
**** it all up
Until she chucks you up

There is nothing I can do,
This is all on you.
You could have made this work
But you chose to be a ****.
To walk away
No care of what I have to say
You can't love enough,
You leave the moment things get tough.
Three times you walk
All I needed was for you to talk.
I think that's enough
To show you don't give a stuff!

I have nothing to give
So I keep it all in.
Keep it locked
so no one can get in.
I'm hard to get to know
So nothing will grow.

I want to be a team again,
To dream again.
The future looks bleak
All alone I will be

I am the broken and
No one has a clue what to do.
No one has strong enough glue.
It's not nice what's inside,
Fragments of broken pieces
And nothing besides.

You said I love you
But I can't stay.
I said ok
but it has to be this way
You said I promise
I said ok
We can find a way.
You broke your promise
I said why?
You said nothing
And left me to cry.

You like to hold the power
You hold it for months
I wait
You wait
What are we waiting for?

To look at the sky is to look at a moment
Look away and turn back and what you see has changed
The slightest change in sunlight
The subtle movement of clouds
The smallest movements can make the biggest difference
A rainbow filling the sky now gone.
A second in time and the sun has shifted, the world has moved on
To look at the sky is to look at a moment
Look away and you miss that moment

Why do people want to watch tv
The world outside is amazing
The sky, the fires we make
The sound of the ocean
The rustle of leaves from the breeze
The birds, the crickets, the splatter of rain
This is what I want to see not sit and watch the bbc

I can't read your silences
I can only fill them in
The blank space, an empty canvas
For my mind to colour in
With all the shades of black and grey
I paint a picture of all the reasons you stay away
With all the darkness I can dream
I fill in all the spaces In between

I walk around a graveyard
Not the one you rest Nichola
But my thoughts are on you and all the other lives too short
The flowers and Christmas tokens, decorating the place of rest of so many loved, touches me
The many forgotten dishevelled tombstones, saddens me
A life lived, lost and forgot
Names and dates are all that remain to mark the place where they are lain.
You will never be forgotten Nichola
You're part of the earth now
The trees that stand so tall and firmly grounded
The flowers in the spring
Part of all new life that will now begin

Perhaps you were teaching me how to be strong but you got it all wrong
The things you taught me ingrained  in me for life.
You taught me that people are powerful and there's nothing you can do
You taught me justice is unfair
You taught me intention doesn't matter an accident is just as wrong
You assumed I was born knowing right and wrong
That there is no time for failure mistakes or to get it wrong.
Thing is, non of this made me strong
I learnt not to fight when bad things happen
I learnt that the world is frightening and hard to get along
I learnt it always me who is in the wrong that gets things wrong.

People think I'm a loon when I say I want to move to the moon.
I'm just so sick of the political tricks people play to get their own way.
Ashamed of the selfish attitude
that grows and grows
in a place, in the  space
I once wanted to stay
til i am grey.
Now I can't  wait to get away.
The more global we become the less and less we seem to work as we are one.
I feel less troubled in my Cornish bubble
But just because I can't see it doesn't mean there's no trouble.
People think I'm a loon when I say I want to move to the moon.
But that's just how this world makes me feel today, like I want to run away.

I'm no ones comfort blanket that can be tossed and lost.
Picked up in the night but dropped by light.
I just want to be treated right.
My heart is sick of all you ****** who think Its ok to pick me up for kicks and licks on lonely nights,
dropped when you're feeling alright.
I just want to be treated right.
I'm left with This spite and want to fight you.
I hate this bitterness you've caused in side me.
My heart has reached a new low,  
a large portion now devoted to caution.
I just wish you could know.