I’m biting my nails
And I can’t sit still,
You’re sighing,
Telling me to chill.

I’m biting my lip
Cause the tears start to surface.
Things are unsettled
And it makes me nervous.

I can’t stay quiet,
Gotta tell you how I feel.
I wanna be with you forever,
Never known something more real.

It’s killing me that
Things have gotten this way.
All I wanna do
Is take your pain away.

You’re pushing me away
And I don’t blame you,
But I just want
To pour my love onto you.

I hate myself for
Letting this happen.
I’m grasping for reasons
To be forgiven.

Gonna do whatever
I can to make you smile.
Cause that means we forgot
Even just for a while.

I wanna hear that laugh
Ringing in my ears;
Wanna hear it for a lifetime,
For years and years.

I wanna feel your skin
Brush against mine,
Bury my face in your hair,
I wanna fall asleep entwined.

I’m gonna do whatever I can
To make things alright
Because if we’re not together
Nothing in this life is right.

Curled up in the mold
Where you usually lay.
Inhaling your cologne,
Trying to get through this day.

I couldn’t be quiet,
Foolishly I spoke my mind.
Took our love for granted,
It made me blind.

Feel like I’m crazy,
Been so lost in my head.
You think it’s better
To leave things unsaid.

But your shoulder’s been cold
And your words have been few.
What I want more than anything
Is to melt into you.

I fear your pain and what
You’ll do out of spite...
Because I’m trying to make
This work with all my might.

Trying to find words
to evoke something from you.
The right words
that don’t seem
desperate or obsessive.

You’re so silent
And I an open book.
But I need you to know
that you hold me together,
that you’re all I want.

Constantly on my mind,
I’m bursting at my seems.
I need you like air
and the sun
kissing my skin.

I want your words
of assurance just the same.
I want to see your lips
shape my
name.

I want to know
that you feel
the same ecstasy
that you give
to me.

I’m craving you
always;
every day,
every minute,
every second.

Not only your touch
but I crave
your presence.
Just to feel your aura
right next to mine.

And there aren’t enough
words, or quite the correct
ones to describe how
you make me feel. Tell me,
how do you keep this all in?

Maybe he was right...

Put on a fake smile everyday
My soul feels broken
Heavy with the burden of this weight

Unsettled now in my heart
Cruel words and cruel intentions
An addiction keeps us apart

Not sad, just angry now
But no one knows me
They all believe the facade somehow

I just don’t understand
You’ve been so mean
All the while I held your hand

...there must be something wrong with me

I’m Im slipping under and falling behind
So much going through my mind

Numb, I couldn’t figure out what I needed to say
So I just go through what’s hurting me in solitude each day

Life’s not, no, I’m not turning out the way I planned
It’s okay, that’s life, people say but they don’t understand

How could boys be so cruel
They threw me around and played me like a fool

Left alone in the end
Yet with them still, under my skin
Embarrassed and ashamed of what I’ve become
What have I done, what have I done

At the end of the day I have to face me
Looking at myself I hate what I see

Holding the pieces of myself together
Don’t wanna live like this forever
So much pressure’s building up
Beautiful girl in a life that’s rough

I keep screaming and reaching for you
But I can’t figure out what to do
All I ask is for a little attention
But I fear I’ll never have your affection

I feel like I’m watching us from outside
Yet I’m feeling all the pain inside
You rely too much on my sincerity
Playing dangerously close to insanity

Stumbling and falling down
But you’ll never see me frown
I won’t let you see that side of me
You’ll never see that I get weak

Want so bad for you to see
The struggle going on inside of me
We’re going through this cycle again
Is this ever gonna end

You know me so well, yet not at all
You’ve seen me when I’ve been so raw
But you just stare past me
Is this all we’ll ever come to be

One by one days go by
Growing angrier with this lie
Where you pretend everything’s okay
When we both have things to say

I lay here just to pass the time by
Imagining for a second what it’d be like to fly

Music so deep under my skin
No one understands, it’s a blessing and a curse to live in

So deeply rooted in the flesh of my being
Pull me away, rip out this passion and I’m just not being

Wanna scream out these notes inside
A melody without a harmony, I’ve died

I feel so beautiful when I’m alone
But when people are looking my feelings are unknown

Even to me, this music screams
Read between the lyrics, behind the scenes