All around, me i see dark clouds approaching
Overshadowing my day from happiness and pleasure, fears and tremors rocking my body like a seizure.
When the clouds where clear, my life didn't ****
But my world turned around when the lightening struck

As fear runs through my brains , the storm comes near
In the pouring of the rains its hard to notice my tear
I'm feeling the sea flowing in my veins concentrating my fear
But as my faith still  remains, the storm calms, cloud clear

Holding back all my tears, try not to weep
Instead I drive myself crazy with thoughts till I sleep
I wake up in the morning, look in the mirror and all I see is a creep
Am at the edge of this cliff called life bout to take a leap
I lose my mind am about to slip

Turn my TV  , there she is
Telling me who Christ is, saying I ain't the worlds' but His
The only time I hear bless me is when I sneeze
World's on a frantic race, we like bees
They say live a fast life, quick money, do what you can, saying snooze you lose
Telling my neighbor to pray and live on their knees
While am living a wild life on *****

Snap back into reality, look back all I see is insanity
How did I loose it? Got me a people pleaser personality
Then it dawned now I realize it was all vanity
Giving myself away to everyone, anyone like charity.

I wish love could really be more than saying i love you
I wish being with me is all you can ever do
I wish the sky was green and the grass was blue,
so that we could watch a green sky and it would be a natural view

I wish i could be down to earth, I wish i grew wings
I wish i could be shorter so that i could easily get to the bottom of things
I wish i could be tall so tht pipo would look up to me
And, All i wish is to be me and what God wishes i could be

I wake up from my dream with tangles in my hair
Throw off the sheets, sweat pouring down because I had a nightmare
The cold seeps into my bones as my feet touch the marble floor bare
Tip Toe Tip Toe....Off to my bedroom window as I let the drapes slide
The moonlight settles in my room and then darkness suddenly hides
Wow!The sight so breathtaking that I let out a sigh
For a cleared view I lean forward touching the glass so stainless and clear
My breath forming a thin mist yet without leaving traces it disappears
"It's beautiful!" I exclaim with my smile revealing braces...Oh dear
On a night like this,the sky so blue unfold like a scroll
Making me wish I could go for a night stroll
Its so magnificent that I hear nature roar
It glitters and gleams but it's not a diamond or any other gem
Each of them very different though they somehow look the same
Like gems on a circlet or a Royal diadem
Different constellations they do form
Over there,the man who never puts down His bow
The Archer always standing strong
Pointing the way East for travellers as they move along
And here Orion the Hunter with his leather belt so fine
Far beyond some of them align
And form the southern cross,Oh my
Billions of shimmering lights hanging on nothing
Stretching far and wide as the eye can see
And I wonder ,Oh how could this be
***** of hot gas,is that what they really are
So close they seem, yet they are just so far
I crawl back into my sheets and close my eyes
And fall back to sleep as l wish upon a star..

Its crazy, I miss her even though i dont know her
Or maybe,  its beyond sight to adore her.
These feelings felt proper..

The first time i saw her, i felt a little shy.
Thinking on her dazzling beauty my dreams will lay.
No lie, its a feeling no one can deny.
(Deep inside so hard to hide)

Her presence filled my sights plessure,
rocking my body like a siezure.
She was beautiful......(sigh)
A dazzle like a candle
A puzzle i cant help bt handle
A simple gaze, a tremor of frenzy
Now its a maze, a little bit crazy.

With a shoulder glance  i so her come and go
I wondered why i didnt introduce myself before
As she politely approached my jaw fell in awe
Thinking,  angels are beautiful bt she was a little bit more.

Just a while,  she approached with an exceptional smile,
Specially organised with a casual style.
She laughed with a little grin, and said her that name was maureen.
I thought she was jokin', bt nothing had to be proven on her tender voice and the words she had spoken.

Though it was a short conversation it didnt matter
Because from that moment i had an endless fantasy chatter.
We where neighbors and that made it better
In the end, I hope we where ment to be together.

She was perfect in everyway
I wished i would see her everyday.
I found everything about her so appealing,
but
I had no way of telling her what i was feeling.

One thing i still wonder, is that God gave her everything except my number.

To think God hates you when you are sad.
To think you can forget Him when u are glad.
To think you can build a life on foundations with flickering quakes, tremors.
Tick the talk, walk the tock; a clock with no timer.
You forget about the ladder when u reach the top. No.!
To feel you are the island, to fill your mind with hot spot thoughts, Stop.!

Gradually dreaming light, an echo of a lullaby. A poetic vision of a mystic sky.
I can't really claim that these ideas are original, there is nothing new under the sun.
Its hard to conceal the embraces of light I know; I'm trying to make the wilderness blossom to someone.
Thoughts and feelings reviewed with obvious reasons mentioned. On grounds of no resentment to having my opinions questioned.
As the blowing winds move trees side to side. Agitating my mind, thoughts deep and wide.
If water is wisdom then thirst is the drive of reason, making the wilderness blossom.

You torment me so, surely you do know not
Opened me to you, yet all that was naught
Your eyes wide open, still it crosses not your thought
Beyond the seeming forte, could be a vulnerable tot.
Confidence boils within, spouts out as molten lava
Tough, yet tougher still, said he to me my lover
There is thunder in her stride, said she to me my mother
Never could it cross their thought, I was a vulnerable tot.

My hand grows weary, eyes too are growing dimmer
Walls crumbling curve in, thoughts within aren’t clearer
I have tried and have done, I know now the taste of fear
Collapsed is the pride, I long for a place to hide.
Come me now to you, rest these my weary limbs
Spread me your arms out wide, today I shan’t be hushed
I have put a mighty fight, that I say with pride
But understand when I say, I am just a vulnerable child.

Let your left ear hear me, your right ear also
Let your mind understand me, your heart love me so
Yesterday is done and past, today grows old fast
Linger not on the yester, tomorrow could be much brighter
Hold my hand now, may your ears shut to doubt
All strength has escaped, but the spirit within still lives
The world will see not, the world may never know
That beyond the obvious forte, I am but a vulnerable child