The person who I am is not the person that you see

The voices in my head have never been so loud
A moment slowly passes, while another’s left to drown
The man above is looking up, while the devils looking down
Why are some noises cherished? And others (are) just sound
Nostalgia doesn’t push away the times that cause us pain
It (just) wants to see the brighter side, and I should do the same
But I focus on the darker ones and stay inside my cage
I push away the ones I love, there’s no one else to blame
Imperfections fill my soul and nothing’s ever changed
My days are just a movie scene, I’m acting on a stage
But nights are when I lose my mind, it cannot be contained
I know I’m prone to run from love, I wish I would of stayed
Stayed to see the friends I knew grow up before my eyes
Stayed to see the girl I love become more than one night
Stayed to see my mum be proud of the man I am inside
I’d leave behind the pain I felt, and live to see the light
But I let fear take over every inch of my weak soul
I never learned to fight for me, I lost all self-control
I’m not sure I can be okay, and go on with my life
The man I see that’s staring back, I hardly recognize

I’ve spent my whole life running
From the demons I won’t face,
Yet I thank my lucky stars
That I am here today

The world ain’t nearly half as bad
As I make it out to be,
I know that I will be okay
Even if it’s in my dreams

The pain that I’ve felt before
And the struggles up ahead,
Will not leave me defeated
I will never walk away

My soul is broken
My heart is froze
Yet I will fight another day
I’m no longer alone
The Lord has blessed me time and time
To be the man I’ll be
I thank Him for the pain I’ve felt
Without it I’m not me
Without it I’m not me
Without it I’m not me

The hate will try to knock me down
And leave me half past dead
I’ve been there many times before
And I’ll be there again

But life ain’t bout the lowest days
It’s bout how you respond
We’ll get back up, find our way
And learn how to go on

My friend, I’ll help you make it through
The darkest of your times
I’ll lean on you, you’ll lean on me
I know we will survive

My soul is broken
My heart is froze
Yet we will fight another day
We’re no longer alone
The pain you’ve felt will soon become
A distant, far unknown
Know that you are special friend
Without you, we can’t be
Without you, we can’t be
Without you, we can’t be

The wolf howls as the moon appears
The wind shrieks, light disappears
The alpha is hunting, craving a taste
Of the lips of a prey, whatever it takes

He hunts and hunts, but to no avail
He takes solace in drinks from the pail,
He needs to feed this hunger inside
He’ll do what it takes, no matter the price

Spotting a prey, he waits to pounce
The prey is alone, the wolf has no doubt
Her friends are all gone, she’s fully exposed  
The moment has come, he rips off her clothes

Helpless and ashamed, the prey cannot react
Yet her screams can be heard, these wolves hunt in packs
This has happened before and it will happen again
Another innocent prey wearing the wrong dress

The wolf could be a man who spent last night alone
The wolf could be a friend dressed in sheep’s clothes
The prey must be careful, can only trust few
The prey could be anyone, pray it’s not me or you

Elijah, don’t be scared
Elijah, I’ll be there
You’ll feel as if you can’t go on
Tell yourself that you’ll be fine
Fight my son, the war is long
Don’t let thoughts control your mind

Elijah, you’ll feel pain
Elijah, I relate
I have seen the lowest lows
I have nearly lost all hope,
But I knew, the sun would rise
And darkness would be left behind

Elijah, I’ve held you near
Elijah, have no fear
I know that life has knocked you down
You soon will learn how to go on
Get back up from off the ground
Trust the Lord, His love is strong

Elijah, let’s see that smile
Elijah, you are my child
Know that life has trying times  
I love to watch you slowly grow
You will be tested, you will survive
I love you more than you will know

I miss so many and I feel alone
An empty mind is the devil’s home,
I have no answers, have no time
The world is changing and passed me by,
The man I was is far away
The man I am was led astray,
Nostalgia should be left behind
I can’t control my lonesome mind,

I care too much what others think
And pour myself another drink,
The world will never see my pain
The bottle knows and loves to stay,
Addiction runs throughout my veins
Another sip is all it takes,
I’m sorry all, you know I tried
I can’t control my lonesome mind

The days are cold, the nights are long
The cliched quote, ‘I can’t go on’,
Yet everyday, I choose to live
I made the choice to never quit,
I feel the pain, I feel the hurt
But still I know, my life has worth,
I have a Lord I can confide
I’ve learned to love my lonesome mind,

Life knocks you down and leaves you broke
But know that life, it still has hope
I write these words to ease your pain
Or let you know, that I relate
I see the hurt, you try to fight,
You punch and punch, with all your might
Yet feel as if you always fail
But trust me friend, you will prevail,
You’re not alone, no need to hide
You can control your lonesome mind

Out in Phoenix, they’re seeing lights
In LA, they shine too bright
In Flint, they’re drinking poison
In Santa Anita, they’re killing horses

The Sun has seen this lonely place
Turn from hell to heavens gates
Far from perfect, we all lack grace
We see nothing when God sees faith

Out in Boulder, they’re drinking Coors
In Sudan, they’re fighting wars
In Quebec, they’re shooting pucks
In Kensington, they’re shooting up

We all drive down different roads
Yet we’re similar I suppose
We laugh and cry and learn and love
We slowly see what we become

In New York, they’re writing plays
In Kuwait, they’re killing gays
On TV, they’re spreading lies
In DC, they’re facing five

We cannot change the hand we’re dealt
Born to nothing or born to wealth
Birthed in freedom or forced to labor
Love has meaning, love is greater

Our hope will always stay the same
No matter what this world became
See death will come for what it raised
But why be scared, that’s just our fate
We live, we breathe, we fade away
Yet leave behind what we create