I'm feeling played out , can't stop spacing out.  Now I want to see how the cards are laid out.
Time will tell what it is really all about.  Odds are good, hopefully they pay out.  I'll take that bet on your mark, get ready set.  On a mission, really got my *** a wishing, that it's that come up I been missing.
Got me in my feelings.....
Wanting to be touching and rubbing.  No **** that, thinking bout it goes me glistening.   It isn't Dixie that I'm whistling.

Dark Side of the Moon grieving over what's left of my womb and I gave birth to the Moon child. Throw that face on, you're not that wild, actually your package reads perfectly clear big letters mild. Too bad I flip script ha-ha I stand in line, oh you must have thought I was kind not with what goes on in my mind.  The feeling won't leave that I'm the one blind

So glad you rescued my heart, mind and soul had me at my very low, I think you deserve these bows. Even though you had no Ducks lined up it made me the happiest woman when you pick me to be with you to grow.

Can there really be happy endings?  
I only pray that it's not pretending.
As my mind is in over spreed, only to be brought down by a rekindling.
Took that rage that was in a cage, oh how it started slowly untying finally dwindling.

Cold and empty without a flame.
Once ignited the love of us they will never tame.
Tornado meets a volcano so it will never be lame.
Get ready nothing will ever be the same.

I'm so **** confused.   I think I might blow a fuse.  I'm kept in the dark, and left with no clues. That's just my luck, in the end, I always lose.  Now it's just a time to pick and choose get my mind right see the light, and take my cue.  Seeing life in a different hue, because no more me singing the blues.  Life is what you make it, so you grab that s* up and take it and don't fake it, take the stage and make the news

Fuckery from the start, felt that from the bottom of my heart.  Try to make believe, that's an art.  One quality ha-ha, but you can't play that part.  
Now we are lost in the dark, that deer really made his mark.  Why couldn't he go play in the park?  We on this road playing Lewis and Clark.  Too bad it was with Griswald.
Basic math skills 2+2 does not = 18, as they want us to believe.  The lies that they try to perceive, good thing perceives, good thing we finally made our leave.

One time in my life I can't even tell me what I'm feeling.  HAHAHA thought you had the world, stupid girl, don't be absurd.  Why would you trust people to keep to their word?
Actions speak by far way louder than words or no words for that fact.  Can't drop that crazy thing inside that makes me want to say "Wow, I knew it was all an act."  Yep seen this way back.
Be true to you, don't make each other blue.  Step up to make my cue, so we don't have to Fake it to make it, but, grab it like a goat "by the horns" and take it like you the one that made it.  Now it's time to appreciate it.
Mystery, contradictions and Imagination have me always guessing what you could be opressing. All the **** you be stressing, you sure have me taught me a life lesson

One day you will love me like I love you, it just seems like you don't have a clue. My heart has been broken for so long, I pray that you are the one with some glue.  That's your biggest  of all the test, to see if you can be true.  Don't need no whites if that's the case, I can surely fly that infamous kite.  Time to bring  ourselves out of the dark, and finally find our light. **** though, I don't want to worry, just because I'm not in your sight.  Please ease my mind.  I am trying so hard to be patient, respect, loyalty that would be polite.  Just bear with me, and stick by my side, but if you have to hide it then it's wrong.  You will just leave me broken, cause you couldn't come through with the words that you loudly spoken.  The new Bonnie and Clyde, don't prove to me that you just lie. Then I will for my well being have to give up on the fight.

Why did you have to pick a different time than mine?

Why did you have to be so **** blind?

Why do you have to stay on my mind?

Why couldn't you give up that life on the line?

Why didn't you think that would be kind?

Now I'm the one standing in line, surely the one left behind. The one that's crying and dying inside. Please let these feelings subside, put them away and let them hide.

Just can't help my thoughts.  I don't want them!  They try to steal my light, so I'll stay with them in the dark.  It's not fun like the park.
They want me to feel that I'm nothing, who's mistaken, you know I'm really Something.  To be honest other's would call me everything.  Kind of crazy For me, some would even give up anything.
I throw my hands up if I'm not what you like in your cup.  Stupid me though running around like I'm some love sick pup.  Hope I figure it out, that's the funniest thing I kind of think I know what's up.
Still, I say in the back of my mind Why?  Oh no but I won't cry, I'll just let out a big sigh, this is why I want to get high.  Really, I just want to curl up in a ball of nothing that I have become and die.

THESE FEELINGS  BUILDING UP INSIDE ME Have to find a way to for a release before I ruined one of the best things that's ever happened in my life . Constant cause of my strife,  my mind it won't stop it plays games on me.  It makes me try to believe you're not the one for me, but only a blind man can really see those feelings deep down in me.  In time it[OR HE ] will go away, just like all the rest when they all take that test .  I wish this was still the Wild West , oh how I try my best to let things rest.

What is real, or hidden by a peel.  Everything is beginning to be so surreal, and that's on the real.  No, not 100 but 300, for you best believe I would ****.  You did you, and that's all it took for you to make the seal.  I'm still screaming in my mind is those for ******* real, don't tell me show me what's the deal.  You won't get an appeal, just me " if you want" me on your heel.

Hopefully this is what they make it out to be.
Daydreams of what this really means.
Letting the walls down, so that we can clearly see.
Putting it all into us, I'm handing you that key.
Only time will tell, so buckle up for that ride of your life.
One day I'll make you proud enough to be your wife.

Another daybreak, and I am still ******* awake.
Don't know how much more my heart can take.  Building up with no release afraid that my knight in shining armor will be fashionably late. So confused, why your actions don't match your words.  I know you have common since knowing something hurts someone, but you do it anyway, it just  plain out don't make no sense.  So you hide behind your eyes, with half *** lies and half *** truths.  Wow, you still don't know why I have no trust. When you blatantly through it under the bus.

We came into this as a mess.
Didn't know we were going to end up each others best.
Love you for the way you are, I know that you don't give anything less.
Going to make you happy, Yeah going to make you proud.
Singing "That's my baby"  in that **** raspy blues that you do, making me all giggly eyed feeling like a pest.
ME!!!!!  I will do it, that's right, I'll take that test.
Little ole me will prove I can be better than all the rest...

As I sit here and sigh.  I can't help but think why am I alive.  Honestly, how do I survive, but then in a cinch there you arrive.  Here I go felling all alive, so I take that dive.  In the end, I will be the one crying and dying on the inside, while everyone just sees me smile.  Please stay awhile, I promise I will give my all to make it worth your while.  All I want is to see you smile.

You think so low, you must with the
blows that you throw.

I'm not one of your old hoes.
As you can sit back like you counting those
crows, as I sit here in all my woes.  Keeping
me on my toes.  

Making me feel all these lows, but '
that is how life goes.  Hoping that you are not
wanting  this chapter to come to a close.
At the end I'm not the one to play pretend,
you just don't know that you .  You are
our god send.  So run away with us , and
lets not fuss and start a bigger chapter staring us.

It's bad enough my own mother and father didn't want me, threw me away like the weekly garbage. Why can't I be enough? Waste of space always last in the race, when I ran the fastest just to be let down over and over again. Why I put my all into something when I don't get that back. The one left behind wish I could rewind and they are kind. Is making someone happy worth my mind? Or are they really happy because if they were, they wouldn't want validation from others. It's settling and I'm worth way more than that. Why can't I or they see that? Never enough... All we are is all alone, Kurt Cobain. And they thought he was insane, he just cared too much. Don't want to feel anymore, just want to leave this place. Ha-ha thinks they're in hell I live it every day. No one could live an hour in my head they would surely be begging for some Led.

Why do I even care ?
Just to feel such despair.
I know better, as you sit there acting all unaware.
The truth is , you just don't care.
Why do I even care?
I don't just change for anyone,
but silly me I even changed my hair.
The truth is you just don't care.
If you truly did ,you would not be able to bare.
The truth is when I think about you not
being in our life I am the one that gets scared.
Supposed to be a team, only in my dreams.  
Something like Bonnie and Clyde , but I see it was
not cause of pride.  No , you just ******* lied
Hope my feelings will subside, because
it wont be you it will be me the one that cried.

In Time⏳ same as now we struggle to complete what we set out to do. Can't wait to see where I end up. "I think that I will be alright."
Making things right making life come to light.  Putting up that fight, just get a delight.
Got me mistaken for Ben Franklin I do have a key not to that kite. My mind and heart has been in the dark tell your consistently of inconsistency came to my site.
Stupid thing is I didn't want that sparked here they came anyway, just like Lewis and Clark. The crazy things they call feelings, making it all bright.
Pulling me left and right, up and down all the **** around. I am on a plane at a different height like the Wrights.

What can I say?
I didn't know I could see you in this way, now your all I think about all **** day.
What can I say?
I really hope that you will stay, your still all I think about all **** day.
What can I say?
WELL...... I don't want you to go away , because with one word, look, touch, and message you made my day.

Honestly, why would you want to hurt the one, that loves you the most.
Trying to believe in your devotion crazy thing you can't second that notion.
Deep inside me, I'm really wishing for a love potion.  Silly me, I'm silly trying to make a motion for your heart. Like a fool you had mine at the **** start.
I really wish that I didn't care, and there you just out here all unaware. I don't think that you are prepared, for the amount of love that I have to share. Baby you're like my air, so much easier to breathe when  when we are a pair really wish that I didn't care.

You can lie or should I say you can try, not with me, for I can see on the inside. I'm like the ******* spy for the FBI, as always I'll end up the one to cry. What's so bad you don't even know you made me so sad.  Really thought you would prove me wrong, nope, you said so long. Going to give it up for your fairweathers, I'd rather be your Forever. You will see in the end, who is still standing by your side. The one that truly wants to be your ride or die. So here's your cue, no amount of making up to, do you have already shown me that you couldn't even wait a half a moon. That's the thing we will see soon.