The closer I feel, the further I am
I had to give up on all my plans
I let go and accepted my fate
I already knew it was too late

They say it’s no big deal
Being lost inside this world
I would do near anything
Just to find me once again
So say that it’s no big deal
But that isn’t what’s real

Im all locked away inside
I’m only awake in the night
When it is dark outside
That’s when I come alive

They say it’s no big deal
Being lost inside this world
I would do near anything
Just to find me once again
So say that it’s no big deal
But that isn’t what’s real

So I’ll just sit here and gaze
I already gave up
I know it’s too late

They say it’s no big deal
Being lost inside this world
I would do near anything
Just to find me once again
So say that it’s no big deal
But that isn’t what’s real

You couldn’t wait and stay
Now I feel we’re worlds away
How can I change our fate?
It shouldn’t have gone this way
But now there you are, here I am

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard

It didn’t end the way I wanted it to
Now I feel like I have been a fool
Seems life threw us a curve
And sent you and me on a swerve
But now there you are, here I am

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard

I want to be where you lay
I can’t stand things this way

I don’t like to gaze at the stars
Cause no matter where you are
We are watching them apart
Knowing that makes it so hard

Dissipating, aggravated
Feel I can no longer take it
Far from an emancipation  

Everything goes grey
As I keep withering away
Scattered in the wind
Like a fraying dandelion

Intangible, invisible
That is this girl
In this big, lonely world

Everything goes grey
As I keep withering away
Scattered in the wind
Like a fraying dandelion

So delicate, yet strong
So imaginative, yet lost

Everything goes grey
As I keep withering away
Scattered in the wind
Like a fraying dandelion

I got used to you being there
Now I expect you to be here
Losing you was one of my fears

I still cry over losing you
It burns no matter what I do
Until my eyes are dried out
And I can no longer shout
With inside of my head
Where I could wake the dead
Because I’m lost without you

Don’t know what you had until
Life comes to a halt all still
Then it sets in that it’s real

I still cry over losing you
It burns no matter what I do
Until my eyes are dried out
And I can no longer shout
With inside of my head
Where I could wake the dead
Because I’m lost without you

I just wanna hold you again
Can we play pretend

I still cry over losing you
It burns no matter what I do
Until my eyes are dried out
And I can no longer shout
With inside of my head
Where I could wake the dead
Because I’m lost without you

I hope it hurts bad when you fall
Off that pedestal you put yourself on
I hope you choke on your lies
And they finally see it in your eyes

This time you went too far
Be ready for the war that starts
Inside of your own heart

All the pain you put me in
I hope you feel it times a million
And you can drown inside
All of the tears I already cried

This time you went too far
Be ready for the war that starts
Inside of your own heart

Things are clear now
Go ahead and ask me how

This time you went too far
Be ready for the war that starts
Inside of your own heart

I was so lost and cold inside
A feeling I can’t really describe
Didn’t know what to always do
But then I just listen to you

You saved me from drowning too deep
And you gave me hope to believe
Deserve even more love than you receive
Thank you everyday for completing me
God gave us you here on earth to happily be

Your strength gave me an advantage
Rubbed off on me, you’ll never vanish
You always say what I need to manage
No matter day or night, awake or asleep

You saved me from drowning too deep
And you gave me hope to believe
Deserve even more love than you receive
Thank you everyday for completing me
God gave us you here on earth to happily be

I promise to never take you for granted
You make this place a better planet

You saved me from drowning too deep
And you gave me hope to believe
Deserve even more love than you receive
Thank you everyday for completing me
God gave us you here on earth to happily be

You don’t want to see
What you’ve done to me
So you sit and pretend
Not even listening

I could cry you an ocean
Drown you in the commotion
Take the life right out of you
Like you made me do, too
I would feel better then
But I’d be letting you win
I’ll sit back and let karma weigh in

It was never meant to be I see
It was never supposed to be me
I gave you total control
I guess I should have known

I could cry you an ocean
Drown you in the commotion
Take the life right out of you
Like you made me do, too
I would feel better then
But I’d be letting you win
I’ll sit back and let karma weigh in

So many times I have refused
To see the truth and I’m through

I could cry you an ocean
Drown you in the commotion
Take the life right out of you
Like you made me do, too
I would feel better then
But I’d be letting you win
I’ll sit back and let karma weigh in

I can’t do this anymore
Locked away behind this door
I’m ashamed of who I’ve become
I just need to run and run

It will all be okay
Promised that each day
Who gives a ****, anyway

Moving faster through the day
Can’t find a way to escape
Maybe I’m where I belong
Maybe that’s how far I’ve fallen

It will all be okay
Promised that each day
Who gives a ****, anyway

No matter what
Gotta keep being tough

It will all be okay
Promised that each day
Who gives a ****, anyway
Well I do ...

Destruction to form creation
Beauty out from chaos
That’s nature’s way of life
Starting again for newness
Never forgetting the memories
Now loving what was hated
No longer feeling jaded
Sacrifice has been beautiful
It has cleansed everything anew
Undeniable is the admittance
Strength is the commitment
Admirable after the struggle
Better this time than the other

Catching the breeze was easy
I want to have your attention
I want to have your everything
From beginning to forever’s end
The good, the bad, and
The seemingly unimportant

Hugs and kisses
These are my wishes
I love with all my heart
Right from the very start

I feel it would all be worth it
With a sign you’re ready
To stop and join this
Forever is in my plans
Along with making
You my last man

Hugs and kisses
These are my wishes
I love with all my heart
Right from the very start

It’s all going to work out right
Because I should be there
Or you should be here

Hugs and kisses
These are my wishes
I love with all my heart
Right from the very start

There’s always been a side
One that’s not so pretty
She’s not in the mirror or here
This is not your definition case
She’s deep in the eyes, hiding idle
You won’t see her, unless you truly look in
Underneath the facade she wants you to believe in

It’s unexplainable, cold, dark, lonely, and shattered heart
Lost broke with an image that’s distort
More than a drug of natural pain killers
It’s past her mind and into her soul
She sees her blood to feel and know she’s more
The control is there is else, nowhere
The pain is a rush, like a bad relationship

Crimson red brings satisfaction to light
She deserves it, it was worth it, all the disguise
Her best friend is now a shiny, sharp object
It’s too difficult to explain to outsiders
Please, secretly want it and know nothing different
Break any addiction or bad habit combined
Along with feeling closed in at desperate times

Alone here with the girl in the mirror
I can’t help but to have a growing fear
She’s familiar but ...
We are known to see different truths and lies
I can’t trust anything through her eyes
I couldn’t even tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

So which would they choose
I admit, too, I’m rather confused
Would they want me?
Or is she their dream that they’d rather I be
I believe I need to know if it is her or me
Since I couldn’t even tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

I feel her trying to control us both
I try and try to hold on to my hope
Are we both lost?
I am screaming inside but she looks so quite
Maybe she’s already got it figured out
And still, I couldn’t tell you, which one of us is the real deal
Which way is the truth, beyond the mirror

A soul as pure as snow
Lips as red as a fresh rose
Body language that’s not cold

Mysterious and beautiful
No one seems to know
Where she comes from
Just like a real Cinderella

Hair like sunlight beams
Laugh so intoxicating
Smile causing trouble

Mysterious and beautiful
No one seems to know
Where she comes from
Just like a real Cinderella

The rarest one will know
Rushed out the door

Just like a real Cinderella

Mysterious and beautiful
No one seems to know
Where she comes from
Just like a real Cinderella

Lies
Straight to my face
Can strike like a knife
To my weakest point

Cheat
Hurts my soul
It cuts really deep
To my heart, too

Then I realize that
I’m better off without you
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more being fake

Sneak
Around on me
It goes noticed
Hurts my ego

Anger
Scares my being
Bruises me whole
Gets out of control

Then I realize that
I’m better off without you
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more being fake

All the tears I cried
They end tonight

Because I realized that
I’m better off without you
They’re your mistakes
Live with them, honey
No more being fake

There is a rain cloud, just above
Fogging up all my judgement
I need an umbrella until the sun
Breaks through this weather
And the colors are more bright
Than my dark side is tonight

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur

Rain falls unexpected and you hide away
Or get wet starting anew life this way
With or without, closed or open eyes
You can not escape the sight
Change hurt you and yet it’s true
It’s what you need to do to continue

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur

Grew out of the dirt and into the light
She blossomed so heavenly and scented so nice
Nothing could stop her, or so she thought
She withered and wilted away one day
Petal by petal blew in to the wind
Her strongest part wasn’t her beauty
But it was her roots and stem

A grain of sand can turn into a pearl
A butterfly forms from a caterpillar
Diamonds are a possibility from coal
Changes happening, petals by petals fall
Rainbows appears in the sky from rainstorms
With patience, the right pressure,
And perseverance creating transformations
Beauty from plainness can surely occur

It all goes dark, in a matter of time
You’ll waste more, the harder you try
To fight, what nothing can escape
Not even millions of light years away

A flame can’t last for eternity
While burning resources constantly
A spark can switch on and off
All depending, on the odds
Even the stars, far in the sky
Eventually, they burn out and die
So wisely use your time
On worthiness in your eyes

Lightening wakes up the night
A fire burns warm and bright
Forever is only a comforting lie
Changes are in the universe
And death apart of each life

The more energy you put in
You’ll not receive back
You’ll just burn away the wax
Quicker and miss out on living
So smartly use what you’re given

A flame can’t last for eternity
While burning resources constantly
A spark can switch on and off
All depending, on the odds
Even the stars, far in the sky
Eventually, they burn out and die
So wisely use your time
On worthiness in your eyes

We take it all for granted
Wanting what we don’t have
Life always seems more bright
Dreaming up the future you idolize
Not dealing with what’s in sight

It’s easier to run, to lie, alright
Hide and play pretend tonight
It won’t stop the morning lights
Once there is only darkness left
You haven’t left the cycle yet

In time and space, even stars die
It’s never goodbye, just goodnight

As the breeze passes, I close my eyes
Tighten up my grasp, as I really start to fly
Lean back and swing, into a fantasy
Images in my head, swaying
Daydreaming, no where else to be

Free from doubt, free from insecurity
Like your love, like handcuffs
Holding down my spirit
Free from you, free from me

Too elusive to catch, yet try if you must
You’ll get near and think that you’ve won
But don’t joy in haste, as soon as you think
You’ve won, I’ll be gone in a different pace
If I comes by my own lot, you got me caught

Until then, I will swing away
Free from life, free from everything
And the demons, like the untamed
Like the crashing waves, free from society

As the breeze passes, I close my eyes
Tighten up my grasp, as I really start to fly
Lean back and swing, into a fantasy
Images in my head, swaying
Daydreaming, no where else to be

Red dirt roads, blue grass
Floating bubbles pass
Underneath a purple sky
Green lilies arise, for miles

You’re apart of something bigger
Make sure to appreciate that picture

Floating on a cloud
At the end of a rainbow
Peaceful, clear water flows
Down the yellow rocks

You’re apart of something bigger
Make sure to appreciate that picture

Butterflies stop by
Unicorns are always near
Pink stars at night
I’m happy away here

Crimson red, runs down again
Taking away temporary pain
That’s distorted inside the head
Worrying about being more and more thin
While covered in scars, all over the skin

We are both on the edge, ready to jump
Telling the other person, it’s not the answer
We just can’t ever listen to ourselves
And see what makes us, worthy as well
Instead, despair becomes our lair
But we don’t want to see, anyone else there

It’s never good enough to stop
Because the problem isn’t in the mirror
As it’s hard to end, once you begin
You found a lifestyle, more than addiction
Controlling something, in the friction

We are both on the edge, ready to jump
Telling the other person, it’s not the answer
We just can’t ever listen to ourselves
And see what makes us, worthy as well
Instead, despair becomes our lair
But we don’t want to see, anyone else there

It feels high, each and every time
The guilt then sets in, hiding again
The baggy sweaters commend
You question perfection

We are both on the edge, ready to jump
Telling the other person, it’s not the answer
We just can’t ever listen to ourselves
And see what makes us, worthy as well
Instead, despair becomes our lair
But we don’t want to see, anyone else there

Her eyes are all dried out
From crying inside
Battling the thoughts
Of becoming distraught

Hug the stars and kiss the moon
Don’t give up any time soon
Yours will come, you are due

Love became a mirage
As she became a facade
Now she sits in silence
As calm as a statue

Hug the stars and kiss the moon
Don’t give up any time soon
Yours will come, you are due

Her emotions are drained
There’s nothing to say

Hug the stars and kiss the moon
Don’t give up any time soon
Yours will come, you are due

Complicated is what makes us
Individuality s what teaches us
Ignorance and what’s not known
Drives us to hate to be thrown

Like a rose, a beauty in disguise
Pretty but something deeper hides
Drawn in by her fragrance
You will get pricked by her thorns
If you’re not gentle ...
Like the others who scorned before

Communication and acceptance
Can build more bridges
If you hang on by the hinges
You must just see the truth

Like a rose, a beauty in disguise
Pretty but something deeper hides
Drawn in by her fragrance
You will get pricked by her thorns
If you’re not gentle ...
Like the others who scorned before

Open your eyes to eyes to just see
Uniqueness is the true beauty in we

Like a rose, a beauty in disguise
Pretty but something deeper hides
Drawn in by her fragrance
You will get pricked by her thorns
If you’re not gentle ...
Like the others who scorned before

Fill one with tears and let them float
Away in the ocean with the Earth
Fill one with love and keep it close
For that day you feel you just
Can’t make it through the worst
Fill a third with laughter
And never forget It exists
Lastly, leave one open for
That “just in case” wish

I hear the blue, I feel the red
The yellow smells so sweetly
Purple feels soft against my skin
Green fulfills my needs
As pink and orange sets down the world
Even then, in the black
The colors sing out, awaiting to comeback

Poured your feelings all into a jar
Trapped until they’re overflowing
And you can’t make it stop
It all catches up, but let it go now
Harmony may still come
Learn to walk away that
Which is not your part
Nurture the soul
And kiss the heart

I hear the blue, I feel the red
The yellow smells so sweetly
Purple feels soft against my skin
Green fulfills my needs
As pink and orange sets down the world
Even then, in the black
The colors sing out, awaiting to comeback

Don’t lose yourself in their selfishness
Don’t run from what’s already done
They do, start anew, just for you
Accept what is gone
But turn around and gain what is now
Pull the cord and sail on your own
Into the rain clouds unknown

I hear the blue, I feel the red
The yellow smells so sweetly
Purple feels soft against my skin
Green fulfills my needs
As pink and orange sets down the world
Even then, in the black
The colors sing out, awaiting to comeback

It may make you scream in heat and rage
Plot revenge in evil ways
Do things to those you loved dearest
That you couldn’t imagine capable
You may say and do things most regrettable

Shout your lie, I’ll chant the truth
Not asked your insight
Opinions are that of fools
Everyone has something to say
But it means nothing to whom
Doesn’t want to listen or care
Save it for yourself and look smart
Lies do not ever echo
Opinions come and they go
But what is actual, will still be
Regardless the shovel gone deep

Use ammunition once kept
From hurting others
You may never be known
To them as whom you were again
The never known lurked

Shout your lie, I’ll chant the truth
Not asked your insight
Opinions are that of fools
Everyone has something to say
But it means nothing to whom
Doesn’t want to listen or care
Save it for yourself and look smart
Lies do not ever echo
Opinions come and they go
But what is actual, will still be
Regardless the shovel gone deep

In your deepest thoughts
Feeling possessed by your loss
Anger can make the worst
monster come out

Shout your lie, I’ll chant the truth
Not asked your insight
Opinions are that of fools
Opinions come and they go
But what is actual, will still be
Regardless the shovel gone deep

Reputation like Marilyn Monroe
I’m known as the girl next door
I’ve been the classic blonde bombshell
Even the most innocent angel

I’ve caused my share of trouble
Leaving damage along the way
I’ve been too naive and easy
Desperate for one love for me

I didn’t mean to do it at all, baby
Wasn’t supposed to turn to this way
My crime is trying too hard to win
Something that I needed from within
And I didn’t mean to pave my way
To hell, lost in amazement, and no
Beauty can’t change it; the forsaken

Spent a life at fighting in my head
So many tears behind the curtains
Smile and pretend to have it all
By reflection, who is the girl I saw?

Be the best at everything; a queen
Manners, appearance are everything
But they all want me now, my baby
I can dress up and make it *****

I didn’t mean to do it, at all
Learned the hard way with her
Miss Monroe, you had to fall
They won’t let you win in society
You can’t be the ***** and lady
No way to tease and be classy
I didn’t mean to do it; to do either

Legacy and memory will support
No matter the judgements; distorts
There are love, truths, and non-users
Only too late, for some lost females

I didn’t mean to do it at all, baby
Wasn’t supposed to turn to this way
Beauty had forsaken and taken me
What I wanted, was my crime spree
And I didn’t mean to pave my way
To hell, lost in amazement, and no
Us girls, Miss Monroe, didn’t mean it

Fascination grows, history repeats it

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed and I’d grow past your
Negativity because I believed in me
I am so over you, sweetie

I must be insane, doing things
Expecting something else
Thinking it’ll all go well, this time
Just maybe it will all be fine
Said you would always be there
But now I see that you don’t care

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed and I’d grow past your
Negativity because I believed in me
I am so over you, sweetie

Sick and tired of being tired and sick
You never understood what I struggle with
Right next to you, I am all alone
And I gave up on you long ago
You did not think I’d be okay
But I’m better without you, anyway

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed and I’d grow past your
Negativity because I believed in me
I am so over you, sweetie

It is time for the harvest
You see, I got passed it

You never thought when you buried me
I was a seed and I’d grow past your
Negativity because I believed in me
I am so over you, sweetie

I would give it up real quick
Even more, all of the riches
If I could only, please, get
My body to just benefit
Even if just a little bit

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

I see all the things I’m missing
Through others is how I’m living
I stay locked away in my cave
Both night and day, I do not play
In bed is usually where I stay

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

There are many things I miss
I need to pull through this

I want to be apart of the world
Even if it’s not even near perfect
I want to go enjoy being a girl

I miss being a little girl
Expecting life to be fair
You grow up and realize
Nothing is organized right
But you must keep trying
All day long and at night

But difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just must make the journey

I miss simplicity, because obviously
Then we’d get along and all agree
Everything would work out eventually
I grew up and did not realize in life
Attachments could be cut aside
Strongly now, everyone has pride

But difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just must make the journey

Can’t go back, complicated is where it’s at
Can’t let go, have to remember to grow

But difficult roads can lead
To beautiful destinations, please
You just must make the journey

You make me feel special
Without gifts or even words
All just with our body language
No three letters getting you confused

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

It starts with the way you look into my eyes
You seeing just what is on my mind
The way you gently touch my skin
And know just what I am feeling

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

Suspense feeling so high
I don’t wanna come down

Tonight is our night, this is our ride
Join me on this lovely rollercoaster
It goes round and round and over

I am still a lady
I don’t need saving
I just needed you to see
See me and stand by me
Through all the chaos
I am no helpless damsel
I just need your stance
So go ahead be my man

You are the world to this one girl
But believe me, I’m not all fragile
If you mess up and make a hassle
I’ll reason you were last season

I get lost in deep thoughts
All about what we ought to be
There’s no need to run from me
I would help you feel complete
Aren’t you even curious to see
If so, then come on, let’s flee
I just need your stance
So go ahead be my man

You are the world to this one girl
But believe me, I’m not all fragile
If you mess up and make a hassle
I’ll reason you were last season

I just need your stance
So go ahead be my man

You are the world to this one girl
But believe me, I’m not all fragile
If you mess up and make a hassle
I’ll reason you were last season

How do you live with all
The lies, lies, lies, lies, lies
With so much desperation as
You try, try, try, try, and try
To pretend that you are so very
Right, right, right, right, right
But honey, you are just a joke
And if I care, I hold the truth
But you aren’t worth more words
We are only laughing hard at you
You’ve only proved what we knew
Trash like you all is beneath me, so
Never again would I get ****** in
Because I’m better and don’t need it

Twist what you want around
I know who I am and it’s sound
I’m honest with all those around
Maybe to a fault but it is real
No lies here, not perfect, but trill
I’m responsible, taking things slow
You’re living off the government
While acting like a ***, ***, ***
Alien face, flat, too thin, craters
Do you really want to go there?
Edit out the face in every picture
No one would recognize ya in person
I never cheated and never used
Seeing a guilty conscious is in you

So turn it all around onto me
I know I did the right thing
I hope you get psychiatric help
Take your momma right along
As she can lie all she wants
How she begged me to be involved
Trash like you all only just spawns
And now I am much better off
You never knew right from wrong
That is how you were taught
Some of us learn and grow
While you go back and forth
But go ahead and call it independent
Your own mom admitted different

Trash, trash, trash, how I laugh
Enablers are only simple kinda crap
Enjoy your drama because, baby
Mine is all in fun or either done
Trash like you will only stay down
Yes, time is showing my progress
I fought hard instead of spreading legs
And your continuous nasty demeanor
Will keep you being a terrible mother
I went there, the truth, I don’t care
Selfish people will never be happy
Good luck struggling now to forever
Trash like you just goes in circles
While I only continue to do better

Your words, they can not hurt
When they are not even true
So now I say, POW, bye-bye!
As it’s time to live my own life
With now more and more smiles!

I've had the Vision Of Love, but I'm afraid to find The One; thanks to the Side Effects that the others have left. I Don’t Wanna Cry, but I'm tired of Looking In at life from the Outside. Before it's too late, I Wanna Know What Love Is.

I Wish You Knew how I have Got A Thing 4 You. My Vulnerability scares me, I Cry terribly, but you are so Irresistible. So I believe I Know What You Want and you'd be mesmerized like me, from the start. I know you Make It Look Good and I do Want You, so destiny Lead The Way and Don’t Stop, just Help Me Make It until dreaming is reality. Baby, I just Don't Know What To Do for your attention. I'm Faded and I'm waiting.

I'll count Petals; find the end of a Rainbow just to know how you feel, because (Boy) I Need You, #Beautiful. Write you a Lullaby, exchange Candy Bling and become More Than Just Friends. Since Long Ago I've wanted this. I'm Sprung over this Secret Love. We'd be as bright as Sunflowers. It's factual, we are Supernatural.

If you pass, You Had Your Chance to make me Yours with my Subtle Invitation. I'll learn The Art of Letting Go. But you can't go and Bringin’ On The Heartbreak when You’re So Cold and confusing too. Don't get to the point where I H.A.T.E.U.; just tell me the truth. Lay down the Camouflage and let's give this One More Try.

Can I Get Your Number because I want to be Your Girl, your One & Only. Don't take me in Circles, it's time to Say Somethin’ and continue this. We can take this To The Floor and if I said I Didn’t Mean To Turn You On, it'd be a lie. Later I may even Stay The Night for a Joy Ride. We will be Makin’ It Last All Night and I'll look back at how Last Night A DJ Saved My Life. I’m more than Thirsty for ya, I'm Dedicated to ya.

Get rid of the X-Girlfriend dramas and we can be at Bliss. Once I fall, I Stay In Love, so this won't be our Last Kiss. I just want To Be Around You now ‘Till The End Of Time. I don't want to put on Cruise Control, I have a Right To Dream of our Endless Love and I want to go on and speed.

You Got Me, this is Heavenly; I'm Yours, it's not just another Fantasy. So Thank God I Found You, you're my Hero for sure. That means you'll Always Be My Baby, until that One Sweet Day, where I'll Close My Eyes. You can say Bye-Bye to your little Butterfly. As Everything Fades Away, but I'll be patient Just To Hold You Once Again in heaven.

I Melt Away in my Daydream thinking about us Underneath The Stars. And For The Record, I want this Forever. I’ll Be Lovin’ U Long Time even After Tonight, because you're my Sweetheart ever since When I Saw You the first time. I'm like a Meteorite coming at you. Infinity is what I have planned, too. I don't care about the superficial like Money, I need your lovin'.

I don't see living Without You, so There’s Got To Be A Way to show How Much you want me to stay. If we're Languishing then the Angels Cry, you see. But When You Believe, and I Still Believe, that The Impossible can occur then I'll be betting on Do You Think Of Me; answer carefully. We know how to wind each other up like a Music Box and make each other in Heat. Can't keep my cool, because you cause me to be O.O.C.

Took too much of your love
Overdosed in a short period
Got caught up in all the fun
Now it’s like a hallucination

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

Things are not very clear
You’re no longer really here
I take a step back to reality
Only to be withdrawing

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

I’m sick without your drug
I can’t get quite enough
Because I’m on too much
Then turned and cut me off

I’ve become a fiend for it
And I know I must quit

Patience is a survival tactic
Without it, you jump too quick
Only to fall and just end up
Destroying precisely yourself

Watch the choices that you make
Be wise when you decide to take
Action on all of your assumptions
Without the proper knowledge

If you are wrong, then you end up
Trusting not at all, pushing too hard
Coming off like the only troubled one
Deemed unable to handle things at all

Patience is a virtue in a person
Without it, goodness is lessened
Then a higher quality seems lost
Destroying you the most of all

If your gut was right to begin
Then there’s time to dive in
But first you must think clear
Not out of pity or from fear

It’s the hardest thing for anyone
Sit back and wait for absolution
But there are better outcomes
As trying to avoid destruction

Patience is a type of lesson
Practiced and not just given
It may take time and cries
But it could better your life

I’m either fantasying about us
Or thinking about you in disgust
There is no middle ground though
It's one way or the other, so

I'm going to poison our love
Say you're just another one
I'll let it go, like Elsa
Stop caring about ya
Because I can't have you
And you don't deserve me
Just wait and you'll see

I gave it my everything
I thought you did too
Didn't know you were a magician
It was all about you, so

I'm going to poison our love
Say you're just another one
I'll let it go, like Elsa
Stop caring about ya
Because I can't have you
And you don't deserve me
Just wait and you'll see

Oh boy, you ******* up big time
No more time to talk, goodbye

I'm going to poison our love
Say you're just another one
I'll let it go, like Elsa
Stop caring about ya
Because I can't have you
And you don't deserve me
Just wait and you'll see
There is no middle ground though
It's one way or the other, so

I see so much you love life
I dream to see it through your eyes
You don’t let it ever pass you by
You’re not sitting at home to cry

Big heart and golden dreams
But no second chances are given
I may be down for the count
But don’t yet count me out

I cry at night so no one knows
To spare you of what you don’t know
Hide the worst, make sure to though
I try my best daily not to let go

We go in circles, we go unnoticed
We fight the invisible forces
Unknown each day is our course
Your wviews need broaden more for sure

Big heart and golden dreams
But no second chances are given
I may be down for the count
But don’t yet count me out

I’ll be a warrior, but don’t play the fool
I promise you don’t know what I go through
Take a chance and learn for yourself
It’s health and maybe I need your help

Believe me, I don’t want to die
I crave to live the fullest life
However, I’m tired of the lie
I try, but I’m not that alright
I’m tired of watching life pass by

I hold on to strength
Except for that one day
And for that, I am sorry
I try to be complete, even fake
So I don’t burden your brain

I do what needs to be done
But I’m not as strong as I once was
I suppose one more thing was too much
It has already been so much stuff
I pray all day with much love

I hold on to strength
Except for that one day
And for that, I am sorry
I try to be complete, even fake
So I don’t burden your brain

They say thing will get better
Therefore, I’ll keep fighting the weather
But some days, it seems like never

I hold on to strength
Except for that one day
And for that, I am sorry
I try to be complete, even fake
So I don’t burden your brain

I just wanted to escape
All the pain and misery
Made it through the rain
But lost myself that day, anyway
Years come and go but I stay

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
Soon enough, I’m going to be okay

I fell from my pedestal all the way
It all came crashing down onto me  
All that was left; darkness surrounding
I could no longer make it through days
But that time is starting to be passing

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
Soon enough, I’m going to be okay

I stay the same, lost in anxiety
Loneliness is putting it mildly

You took all you could from me away
But I won’t sit here and let it define me
I have glitter running through my veins
Soon enough, I’m going to be okay

I want you to know I love you all the way
Don’t always show it, but it’ll never change
I know you don’t always understand
But you’re always there hand-in-hand
Thank you for also being my friend

As a girl, you took me to all the doctors
As a child, you were there for field trip offers
I enjoy our time spent, so glad we have it
We’ve bonded over a lot and I’m grateful
I feel we’re closer now more than ever

To this day I still lean on you
I know financially it isn’t easy
So thank you for spending
Your hard earned money on me
I’d be lost without you helping my needs

You’ve taught me a lot and helped me grow
For that respect I can never fully show
I just hope deep down inside you know
You are a very wonderful father for sure
One of the best persons on this Earth

You’ve been through so much
Yet you’re still everyone’s crutch
You always hold things together
Know you’re the best mother

You have the biggest heart
And you have people smarts
You’d do anything for anyone
And you do it with a lot of love

You’ve been through so much
Yet you’re still everyone’s crutch
You always hold things together
Know you’re the best mother

Where there’s a will, there’s a way
You put up with a lot day to day
You don’t get the credit deserved
Know I appreciate even just your words

You’ve been through so much
Yet you’re still everyone’s crutch
You always hold things together
Know you’re the best mother

No, you’re not perfect
But you’re perfect to me
You know how to handle things

I thought you were the sun and moon
Thought I was everything to you
Now I realize
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

I took too much time sit and to wallow
Looking back you were tough to swallow
Said you fell so fast
And I shouldn’t have followed
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

Had it all, was managing fine
This was a first in my life
As a matter of fact then
You were the only to make me cry
You were just a side effect of a happy time
The misunderstanding I take as mine
But I’m finally ready for my goodbye
No more doses of you in my sight

Lord I’ve tried, to be alright
An endless battle, every time
I feel I’m always in a fight

Its just like I’m in prison
Shackled up, handcuffed
Oh my gosh, time is up

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

Another work in progress
And I always try so hard
Feels like I have to go far

Just more misery, fix me
Why is that a hard need?
I need to finally be free

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

This time, I hope it’s right
This time, I hope it’s my time

I’ve seen that hourglass, running fast
As I wait and watch as goes by my past
I just need to find something that’ll last
I really wanna be me again and fast

I’m choking on your lies
Flying at me like bullets
And your mouths the gun
It’s time for goodbyes
I can not control it

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

I guess this round you won
You kept pulling the trigger
Now you regret it, it figures
But get the hell out now
Because I’m done feeling down

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

Bang, bang I’m gone
It’s time to say so long

When I reach out
You’re not there
You don’t care
So what’s the point here?

I didn’t want to give it all up
But it was all just too much
And now I can’t get enough

I was physically falling apart
Losing it all just one-by-one
Then he had to break my heart

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

I never wanted any goodbyes
But it was too much drama and lies
It all nearly cost me my life

Letting go is pretty hard to do
When so many had left you *******
But everyone’s life’s go on too

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

Always getting too close, too soon
Always expecting to reach the moon

Made a lot of mistakes
And caught some breaks
We all have an expiration date
I hope my dreams aren’t that far away

Things sure did do a one-eighty
I’m worse off, this is crazy
And all I hear is maybe
I learned who was shady
And who to throw away

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

Getting my feet on the ground
I was so lost but now I’m found
Not sure how to get it done
But I’ll make sure I have won
Tell them they’ll see me when I’m done

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

It’s time to organize
And finally live my life

I took myself for granted
Now I’m left empty handed
Don’t know where to turn
But I sure have learned

When I lie down in bed
You’re never in my head
No, not anymore dread
I’m better off in the end
I just sit back and watch you

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
Does that mean it could be the end?

Finally got what you deserved
Thought you had it figured out at first
Now you seem to be out for the thirst
So I’m glad I’m gone from your curse
I just sit back and watch you

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
Does that mean it could be the end?

Stuck in a corner under a rock
You just didn’t know when to stop
So now I just sit and watch as you’re

Choking on your own medicine
You just committed another sin
Does that mean it could be the end?

People shopping at the mall
Stockings are hung for all
Christmas trees done up
Lights strung and hung up

But none of this matter to me
I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

Children laughing all the way
Reindeer hooked up to the sleigh
Eggnog all ready to go
With the mistletoe aglow

But none of this matter to me
I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

I enjoy all the spirit that lifts
But I would like Santa
To give that one special gift

I just want myself one thing
You to be here for Christmas
The one very thing I want
You can’t get it from an elf
I need you here for Christmas

Thought my chances for love
Were already gone and done
Then you came along so quickly
And changed everything for me

I finally knew without a doubt
What all the fuss was about
I had everything I could need
Until the day you left me

Someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, it will be all too late

Some people never experience
Such an amazing connection
Like loving each others quirks
Fitting in your arms just perfect

And enjoying the same interests
Sharing compassion and patience
Feeling comfortable; amazing ***
But you just pushed it away forever

Someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, it will be all too late

I would have stood by your side
Through anything and give you time
But you chose to run away and hide
While ripping apart my whole life

So, someday your choice you’ll regret
And realize what damage you did
Someday you’ll wish you yelled “stay”
And wish you didn’t let me walk away
Only by then, I know, you’ll be too late

I can’t remember my name
Or my place, where I stand
I appreciate all I’ve been given
But it does not solve anything

If you compare it all in contrast
It could be worse, it’s not so bad
It is far from being good, either
Seems I’m just stuck in limbo here
Can’t pick sides; caught half alive
Since I drifted long ago, in between
I am forever stuck inside limbo

Trapped away, I’m feeling crazy
Because that’s what they want
For you to sink down and believe in
Because that is so just much easier

If you compare it all in contrast
It could be worse, it’s not so bad
It is far from being good, either
Seems I’m just stuck in limbo here
Can’t pick sides; caught half alive
Since I drifted long ago, in between
I am forever stuck inside limbo

I certainly know that it is you
Who can set me free from this
Misery; feeling so constrained
Half alive, but I am just as dead
Somebody wake me up and just
Free me from this draining of!

If you compare it all in contrast
It could be worse, it’s not so bad
It is far from being good, either
Seems I’m just stuck in limbo here
Can’t pick sides; caught half alive
Since I drifted long ago, in between
I am forever stuck inside limbo

I cannot be stuck, cannot be chained
I will fight my way, all the way up
Without your consent, because…
I refuse to choose secluded limbo

Stuck inside confinement
In limbo and I will break free
Free, me, finally, find peace

A goddess in any shape or size
The human body was made divine
Not shameful to fear and hide
Skin is not what is distasteful
Actions make good and bad people
Not pride in your natural appearance

She tries to hide her natural gifts
Her beauty, including her imperfections
Even if those qualities make her
The person she is compared to others
Standing out from being just anybody
So, making everybody a somebody

Pressure is suffocating on our looks
Women can be enemies of the worst
Tearing away at each others looks first
But a naked being is how we’re created
And appreciation should be encouraged
Yours to share as you see fit in society

Learning to love the body you’re in
And feeling comfortable in your skin
Knowing who you are inside to out
Is not a disgrace, but simply amazing
Acceptance, class, and much dignity
A goddess is inside of every lady

You left me alone with a gun
I could have had all sorts of fun
That pain was horrific but I lasted
I nearly cracked but I got passed it

No thanks to you, you’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this

Now everything seemed perfect
Should have known it was worthless
One day I do hope it was all worth it
But what happens now, you deserve it

No thanks to you, I’m not okay
You’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this

I’d say thank you for the good times
But you drove me absolutely insane

No thanks to you, you’re heartless
Had me thinking I must be worthless
Until I woke up, I never deserved this