All along you knew but kept
The secret buried deep
Inside your heart
Its cold hard walls
Making an icy prison
For that selfish horrible truth

She took the rap and did the time
You took the cash every time
Because you needed **** and *****
Your happiness the most important fact

Hell mend you and I hope you can
Forgive yourself for letting
Others do your crime
And put it all in place
For you to live your princely life
Without a backwards thought or glance
Towards the ones in your merry dance

You utter swine
You selfish oaf
I will never run out
Of vocabulary
I will run out of your life
Shrieking and yelling
And telling the world
How you have evil
Residing in your sordid
Tainted pointless life

Stark hills and deep valleys
Career past as the road
Wends it's way from
Coast to coast

Anger announced
Loud and shrill
Left behind
On the auburn hills

The road winds on
Stop for scone
And coffee cup
But don't look back, look up

Onward onward
Halfway there
A painful memory
Leave it lying there

Among the broom,
The heather and the pines
Now you're free to see
What new joy your life defines

Purity, love, sobriety
Welcome them in
To your new society
Sordidness and pain
Are things left there
High up in the hills
Melting in the mountain rain

The strength within
Will shine all through
The darkest days ahead of you
Be strong, have faith
You are where only
Growth and love take place

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Why do I bother
Always right
You know best
******

Why
Do I
Bother
What
Was
The use
Of my
Education

***
***
***
Shut your effin gob

Not very kind
You are blind
Always right

Talking *****

Somewhere deep within me
Lies a strength I never knew
It's dormant power
Cooking up its hearty brew

One day a tantrum wakes it up
A what? You say
That's right, a grown man
Throwing food around
Leaving me aghast
With no appetite

No appetite for this nice meal
Nor for his drunken sorry
I have no words
My mind is frozen
Leave me be, do not come near me
Your touch and your approach are
Dead to me. It's over
Finally

Excitement building
Forbidden pleasures awaiting
Them as they find the place
Where others chase
A perfect culmination
Of secret conjugation

They sit at table
Opposite strangers
Not much longer
Until the realisation
Of his imagination
A fantasy long held

That 'kangaroo', that safe word reaches up
Through her throat
And into her mouth
But fear of rejection
Of being a disappointment
Halts its outward spill

Say it! Say it!
Don't let it slip away
You hate this
It's his wild dream
That's turning into
Your recurring nightmare

It's over at last
And once again she recoils
From all the pain
The hurt, the shame
Please no more! Silently
Cries the reluctant *****

Years of memories
Of those dark days
His touch is tainted
By the touch of others
Love, never the same
For them, for her

Excitement destroyed
Their loving trusting
Passionate world
Reality failed to meet
Its fantastic goal
Only pain and shame survive

Friends? I tried but hate
And hurt and pain
Remain in the ashes of our life
That life we had!

I cannot have you in my life
You have her, the itch.
Moving on from us
For me needs total split

Yes I've blocked you
On all media
I need that space
Can't see your face
Leaping out from
Every nook of cyberspace

I was in danger of doing
Something really stupid
I messaged her
Then deleted

Stalking is not the best
Leave them be
Give them space
Back off, give it a rest

What now for me?
Who knows, but I can say
For sure it will be
Better being far away

Good luck you two
I'm sure that passion
and *****
Will see you through
Life's vicious turmoil

Silver hair coloured with light gold
Streaks across her face
Brightly patterned top
Cup of coffee poised in her hand
Suddenly the other bottled auburn
Howls a laugh that is infectious
They all start now

Laughing smiling reminiscing
How they enjoy their morning coffee
catch up in the store
Who cares who's looking on
They're friends from the 60s
How they enjoy their morning giggle
In the store

One goes to ***
They laugh again at middle age's
Hilarious outcomes
All are the same no judgements here

Enjoy your morning coffee
Catch up giggle
What a tonic to witness
All of your diversity
And fun