Body's tired, deformed sitting in a couch.
Restless like a hungry wolf
Thoughts fly high like a kite
Embodied in a night so dull.

Ideas swarming all over
Like a fork slicing a chocolate cake.
Mind murdered in a state of coma
Bigger and bolder risks are at stake.

When you're drowned in your own mind
you gasp your mouth, you suffocate;
Life as it is, it happens
You choose what you make or break.

Just as when you've thought you're done
You did what is expected of you;
All reverts back to the starting line,
Another set of gazillion challenges to do.

It's been a long and lonely daylight.
There was nothing but the sun
Then you came and lit my sadness apart
With your bubbly smile.

Darling you don't have to tell me,
Just a signal and it's done.
I don't really know the reason you exist,
But tell me it's worth your while.

But tell me it's worth your while.
I never really know
if we can get a conversation
but every bit of you makes me high

It's been a long and fruitful friendship
I'm heading north, you're going east.
But you know that I will never forget,
that our times have got you high.

A thing of the graved past
Is not relevant at all.
But things you did not disclose
Is a deep dark nightmare call.

There was this noble boy
Who you've said have courted you.
You said he's a good friend
And he liked you.

I see he loves cars and travel
More often than you do,
A noble inheritor of a family firm
With an atlethic frame and hue.

But,  the way you describe him
Sounded like he has no mere value.
And me: I believed in the light
Of your tongues' sweet fondue.

Of all this precious time,
My mind have held your stories
Grasped and chained
Optimistic and unworried

Of all this time, doubts.
Yes doubting was never an option
Nor an attempt to juice
Even the slightest blood potion

Until Unexpectedly time came,
Yes on your twentieth birthday,
Expectant was not in the thoughts
Of positivism I've had for years.

Unaware and extremely honest
Smiling with a chance to navigate
Your smart phone's veins
Having a funny faith.

Until someone peeped and popped
From the large screen landscape.
And I never knew
That it was the pivot of my life
Nor a wrist sliding through a knife.

The SMS said, "I love you".
Then blah blah, "missed you"
And all of the mumbled I've seen,
Numbed my soul and ego.

I got wounded. Deeply wounded.
Every word, there's a stab
In my heart, cutting every veins
Feeling the friction and I rub

My eye, it has water I see flowing,
You loved him more than the sun
And I see the young persona of you
Blinkering infront the gun

Like a gun, Pointed at my temples
I've found my self humbly destroyed,
As I knew you missed the guy,
And how you were overjoyed.

Devasted in every word
Knees are trembling with grief
I never knew that I could,
Incorporate you with disbelief.

And as you came in the room
I immediately handed your phone,
And pulled the "surprise" curtain
And greeted you with a nice tone.

"Happy birthday, Darling"
I love you so much. With tears,
Streaming, spine shivering,
Caught off guard by the latch.

Then I stayed. Yes I'm invinsible
And strong as a boxer in the ring.
I've faced your family
Despite of the heavy sting.

Then the lights activated
And someone whispered me
And said "hey sweetie"
"The breakfast is ready"

I quickly jumped up out the bed,
And sip my good coffee
As I think of memories
Escaping the reality.

Looking at the kids
My heart beats faster than the bullet
As I look at your picture
In my treasure box's closet.

Then my wife whispered to me,
"Hunny, who is she?"
I said she is an ex giflfriend
Who cheated me nasty

As my wife and I are alone
She asked me, "why?"
I wrote this poem,
And I almost died.

Then I woke up again
Realizing it was just another dream;
I've found my 26 year old self
Decided to empty this bin

A bin full of trash
From memories who hurted my home
My heart and my brain woke up
Feeling pained and all alone.

When Some logic,
does not make sense
and there's a disconnect
when you close your minds.

and this is the time,
where you do not care;
even a single notice
is washed away to the oceans

and you've reached your point,
your previously endless limit.
where you care for nothing.
you've hit the road for nothing

and some false ill-gotten headlines
you know cannot bring any good.
but it is alright.
if that will feed you, your brain food.

and I came in to a point,
where no thing is given
and I  have realized the main reason
that attitude I have seen


is the main villain
that we're fighting.
is the main enemy,
when you start dropping.

and this time,
I will not be the same man.
who always seek to please your brilliant minds,
I am banned.

and when judgement
creeps in your tight veins.
those dark vibes blocking your nerves
are all winning

when you let those dark forces,
whispering in your ear does not speak balance.
and the other side is in the woods,
seeking trance.

this time
I will give nothing.
if I am the reason then I will go.
despite of the sober things that gives me blows

and they are all gone,
then I guess this is a goodbye bid.
hats off people
now I  will live my life free

I will live my life alone inside a walled castle,
if you don't mind.
I am the center of the universe and I see only me,
who cares at nothing.

Who knows the way to success
who knows how to hurt less
Who can prove your boss's lies
Who can stop your friends'vice

who wrote on your pastor's book,
who instructed not to look.
who gives you smile when you frown,
who helds you up when your down

who woke this so called democracy
who started this hypocrasy
who ignited these petty battles,
Who made our country dismantled?

who can say your problematic
who can read you 1 second automatic.
Who stole your most innocent chimes,
Who can read this worthless rhymes?

Clash of heads
in a fierce discussion
Brilliant minds,
"needs no introduction"

sitting in this room,
makes me think,
How can we finish
If no one will blink?

Seeing the other side,
A crowd of ego's
Looking behind,
A bunch of so-called Geekos

Contradicting sides,
Both wanting to be heroes,
refusing the shame tide,
Can't move on from zero!

Compromise is impossible,
with this mental battle,
Both points are feasible,
if one has to throw the towel

Side by side,
sizzling comment --
No Compromise,
Equals no agreements.

Once there was master, who lives and reigns,
feared by the people, straight and tamed.
He's intelligent, wise by the name,
Started from nothing, to the top he came.

In the beginning his words are true,
his men forced-believed in his so-called virtue.
but who would have know, who got a clue?
evolving directions as days have flew

Day by day, true colors appeared,
arrogant commands,floated in fear
A toxic leader was born and geared,
***** tactics had strucked the spear.

Spear as I say, stabbed the people's heart.
heartless ruler, gets all the gold in the cart!
deceptive as is, with all the deadly sins,
hard working people is the lose, he got all the wins!

All the merit came from extreme corruption,
worked his way through ever greedy deception!
how far can you take, what can be your stand?
how can we live in this sinking quicksand!

Tell me how passive we are. do you know him?
when was the time we dedicated half dimmed?
He's the one who ladders his way to the top,
Big boss by the word, not by the act.

All you know is relationship,
you are a demi god fairytale narrator,
a love doctor, a friend story teller
You know nothing but boys,
conclusion on acts are fixed.
get a task, come on get busy.
Think before you click!
you know it is not easy.
got a new friend within same shoes?
It was a penny-sake cheap shot.
but you broadcasted the news.
It was ill-advised, and everything's publicized.
anyway, it's your own image-glitch,
maturity's essential,  *****.

I will never stand,
in your spotlight again,
attitude is the villain
you and me cannot blend.

passed the wicked road,
you are trying to route.
Gave you things freely
reached as far as I could

but nothing has changed,
you did nothing did you?
time flew so fast
it left us down and horribly blue.

Please do not consider me
in your vision most likely,
I am dead and sinful,
I will look for better opportunities.

Grinded with feelings
that is nurtured to slide a *****.
never a positive outing.
ideas you promote

Killed my inner soul
Knowing I've stereotyped your kind.
Who would love to prolong this,
Stop this, You're Undoubtedly blind.

As long as you're here with me,
Rest in my arms, and I'll be free.
Vanity, will never be tangled,
In cases that you cannot see.

Love that have raised bars,
I* am much deeply honored.
Love is what you've offered
Overflowing and such a reward!

Victory is with me,
Every moments seized.
You and me is a dagger
On each one's kiss.

Unified by love, for real, Happiness.

..And i saw it coming near
that one leap of unfortunate fear
yes, fear is the sound in my ear,
knowing this could turn into tear.

Napkins are unrolled in a sheer,
prepared until the end of the year.
without a whisper, nor a cheer,
nor handicap from every peer.

they grab a cup, pour coffee and stir,
"why everybody is mingling here?"
yes it's crazy, ridicule and jeer,
All is pain, in this life support gear.

All of these! what for my dear?
It made my lips very dry and sear.
Everything's reversed, i saw my mere,
holding on hopes, all their prayers I'll  hear

Believe in your self, young gun,
you are built to survive.
You have the skills to get through
the guts to take the dive.

Questions have been present,
from day one 'them thrown.
your mind is your arsenal,
and body is the dome.

Trust your instincts my friend
though history is a dark world,
fluxes you can seek
Fear is for the weak.

You are a warrior of your own
Never surrender your faith.
Enemies are just lurking
Blend, sublimate.

Time heals and build,
sharpens your knife;
Fill your cup of wisdom
as tomorrow ticks another life.

As bullets have been dodged,
as you heal your worst wounds,
come you shy sunrise
and let thy fruits bloom.

Maybe we're lost.
without a trace,
in the woods;
seeking light.
Looking for comfort,
hungry for inner hope.
You and me
together;
finding the right,
keenly out of sight;
despite of the odds.
still making flight.
Maybe;
We are strangers.
Maybe we are
lost.
maybe you wanted some,
maybe I don't.

Welcome dearest critique,
You are free as a bird!
look me from head to foot,
then say I am a ****.

you can pull my rusty strings,
and give me an evil grin.
me, no worry man,
jerky dimples as vividly seen

you no worry,
I am fine and much okay.
if hitting me is your pleasure,
then enjoy it your way,

Keep striking me low,
yah see does everyone care?
you're giving me low blows,
oh I see, you're way down there.

I'll let yah talk at my back,
for your pleasure, I'll be playing blind.
I'll never hide and dock,
because it's obvious that you're behind.

your way is your decision,
a sarcastic approach,
as confused with your intuitions,
Identity crisis at it's worst!

I will let you be my friend,
give your best shot,
you have your own views,
to please your cravings, or not.

You are the inspiration I am thankful for.
The energy that flows in my blood,
A good positive ambiance,
Whenever you're inside the room.

The reason why I stay late.
Whenever good glimpse sets the tone,
your smile removes inhibitions,
I am in to you, and I'm in a mission

to take you, and give you
all the loving and caring.
to fetch you and keep you,
to living and dying.

I love you,
until the favor turns the red tide to blue
I am wishing to all the gods
hoping you will love me too

I am a minister
with a wicked faith.
at night,
so wide awake.
sober and high,
accepting blows
I might can't take.
release me from this shadow
for life's sake.
for the first time
I've tried
to lit this fire.
I am bewildered
how to brace this uncertain desire.
for I am a loser
life and death in a wire,
as I cross on the other side.
no more traces nor guides.
I am unclean
as they guide my lost soul.
I scamper for your presence
as this dark vapor took its toll.
stayed in this pavement,
without anything at hand,
drowned with your writings,
I'm flying but I don't know where to land

I am looking,
For an outlet,
I am wasted,
I am down,
I was abused,
by your Ignorance,
I was misused,
I am in frown.
How would you cure,
a stab in your heart,
Feels like an Alien,
Striving with mankind,
Feels like you don't belong,
where everything's wrong,
you can't keep phase,
How'd you wish you were strong.

Right now still I am missing
all the things that circles in you
each time I thought I could be on my own
I'll step back, I'm longing for you.
As I sit here, thinking those moments
all these words came crashing through.
I know it translated but somehow, It is you.

I am alone in this cold freezing night
feels like, I'm out of sight.
I'm with you; It's true.

Lost feels like I'm lost,
Since you've been gone, my love.
Lost feels like I'm lost,
Since you've been gone, my love.

Right now, still I am searching
for that sweet serenity.
each time I thought I can be on my own
I'll step back, Longing for you.
as I sit here, Thinking those times
I know that the glory is mine.
I know it translated but somehow, it's you.

I am alone in this cold freezing night
feels like, I'm out of sight.
I'm with you; It's true.

Lost feels like I'm lost,
Since you've been gone, my love.
Lost feels like I'm lost,
Since you've been gone, my love.

Thank you for showing and giving much concern
even though we are not in the same world anymore.
though we have changed for the better and the good,
We have passed the test and walked pass the woods.

I saw your mystic spirits and it's very mutual.
An old friend who's always there until my funeral.
the aura have been felt, shooting beams on heavy clouds.
still the light have stayed inspite of our bounds.

Yesterday's always in my heart and will be treasured,
despite of the distance and the gates closed.
Despite of the major changes in the scenario and happenings,
Rest assured I'm always here, memories' for keeping.

As we faced the war,
Made ourselves great.
it felt good deep inside,
we held grip on our faith,

As we walk with blood,
on our tired bodies,
As we felt like trash,
to those on top and greedy.

As we saw our peers wounded,
in shame and dying,
we walk pass them,
in regret without looking

As we felt discriminated,
to those undeserving one's.
we dream we're in their places,
but it's all in the plan.

As we are haunted by memories,
we are deeply shocked.
by happenings we saw,
by the time we're hacked.

As we constantly seek,
the life's hidden quests.
we struggle for fairness,
to solve every tests

as we came from this hostile,
we grieve for their souls,
cheers to the unsung,
who had taken the toll.

As we fill the gaps,
of the holes they created,
without a recognition,
yet we have initated.

As we pray and move on,
and set our minds free,
as we accept the facts,
on what we cannot be.

As we struggle and die,
for our ideas and beliefs.
hoping for a small change,
even when we're buried deep.

Death invests in your lungs
in every cold blooded puff,
while you were ignoring
through calm antedotes
as advertisements aren't enough.
As you watch vehicles come and go,
thinking endlessly;
not minding those vicious
vibrations attempting to get in.
as you divert yourself
from negativism
within the inner creases grasps
in to your brain,
as you puff your fuse
until the pain is gone.
as your mantra and your smoke
become united as one.

Disgusted by choice I've made
Why I've spent time on you all,
You've squeeze the giver in me
And juiced my mistakes to fall.

Your minds are troubled
Stinking with drama and negativism
Gossipers of the universe
Narcissists of your own realms

And you did not see the benefits
The takes you have tooked,
As you circle you own galaxies
Far too righteous flukes.

Self centered tendencies
Never dwelled on the company,
Because you all are selfish
Self centered tyrannies.

four forty five and it was chilling cold,
drank a cup of coffee, two eggs in a row.
eyes have been dizzy I’ve reaped what i sowed
yesterdays midnight still up in a glow.

waiting for a ride, check the stereos inside,
pollutants in my way, they have turned the tide.
30 minutes away, u-huh the crowd,
everyone greeted each other too loud.

jump start the engine , and switch the keys
I’ll work hard  to pay the fees
am i on the shore, yeah i think you got it
all the way until the dawn puts on it.

its almost time yeah roll out outside,
traffic jam-headache, bringing the dark side.
thinking of her, thinkin’ of dinner,
thinking for tomorrow, i need a fake healer.

messaged someone, yeah I’m home,
it pours on my shoulder, i got heavy bones.
rest is a must-have, the day’s on a fin,
i hope to see you in my dreams.

The bright sun sets dawn,
waving goodbye to green fields.
covered by mountains.

cattle's in gestures;
Stars shone making its harsh bid.
hiding in velvet.

when clouds made its way.
murmuring thunder at side.
Waiting, heavy rain.

no one wanted
to burst your bubble,
wheels have turned,
but never was your tide.

but you've never abide,
nor follow the guide.
attitude is a big whip,
No one wants to hear your side

Adios to your attitude,
get blissed by your fire
Soak into your own blood,
get killed by your lasting desire.

Don't hesitate, just operate!
Do not stagnant, let us cooperate!
Do your thing, and it's a start,
It's a pledge, your loving heart.

No more time for those petty fights,
I know you have your point of rights!
Pride can stab and self detonate,
stop the grind, For Team's sake!

We are a team, more than brothers!
educate! like we are warriors!
if we lose, get up fast!
Ninety-nine-gazillion tasks!

Let's go.

Have you seen the tremble of the gust?
that blows the land without any mercy,
Putting the damage on the lives of lonely people,
Uncontrolled acts that made the wind whistle.

Have you seen the earth shatter,
Mad rumbled and roared like a monster beast,
shivering with extreme grin and violence,
Lands torned apart caring on no one's presence.

Have you seen the water flowing from heaven,
on heavy volumes and unexpected occurence,
killing the lives of the stabled occupations
stumbled upon floods of the dying nation

Have you seen the giant waves of the coast?
or the fatal mud flows from volcanoes,
Can we know the point or we are so blind not to fear
that we are paying our tolls and the apocalypse is getting near.

As rain dripped the gutters
fluidly poured over roofs
and plants and flowers
nourishing the soils
of busy boulevards
and it washes out smoke
from cars and cigars and filled cups.

killing time, waiting for you at the bus stop.

As I observed over a million buses,
go swanky in a zap,
passengers, bystanders,
vendors going loco
as the rain blew harder
it made their heads nod.

As I still wait for you here at the bus stop.

As the rain toned down
as it trembled to whispers
like gushing bits of sprinkles
and droplets but so soon they are gone,
daydreamed the possibilities,
my head's deaf and stuffed.


As I still wait for you here at the bus stop.

As the sun shined its rays,
crisp yellow diamonds
penetrate my retina nerves
telling me to wear my sunglasses
along with traffic submerged
along with a reason that it is the same plot,
and everything has changed.

As I wait for you here at the bus stop

Am I too tight,
for my grips all around.
Don't worry my friend,
bubbles won't be bursting a sound.

An open eye
is here for keeps.
protecting deeply,
but hidden under your sleeves.

I'll save you
when the roads too bumpy,
I'll be looking at you
like a spy, a calm acid.

I am looking at you
under my invincible cloak.
I'll guide you in silence,
Assured that the bad is caught.

How many times
I have saved you.
through my sarcasm
that you've seen as true

How many times
I am thankful,
for the lucky breaks,
that made the glass half full

How many times,
I have drowned myself to sacrifice,
just to know you have swayed,
and have easily let others decide.

Down goes my ego again,
Feeling blank by the window.
Killing myself with thoughts
Trapped in this sick vision.

Reaching out on something
I've thought I've grasp on;
Mumbling myself on this heartache
Tears I really could not held on.

I wanted to hold your hand,
Despite of questions I can't decipher,
No luck to reach you
Signals you can't provide a clue.

I'm down in this pedestal
Burned out, please don't let me be?
Leaving it all to good heavens,
Until this chained heart is free.

I have nothing to hold on,
Waited long to draw this dreaded line,
Don't mind, for sure this wound will recover
I just need this alone time.

I invited you for dinner,
but you got me down.
told me you have a trip tomorrow,
with your friends at downtown,

Seemingly convinced,
walked away heads down,
teared the mighty plans,
Head filled with frown.

I told myself, It's not my day,
As I kick some stones along my way.
As my mind flee, out of sadness,
I gave my last look and then I witnessed:

1. Your hand's holding a some guy's hand
2. Walking fast, left where you stand
3. In to your house, Silhouette's on window
4. A tight hug, with the man that's beard-o.

In my mind, again I counted,
turned my back, my mind was haunted.
thinking; You and that macho man looks weird.
I am now thinking.. of growing my own beard.

So you're with the finest?
You are with the best?
You stood out the test,
out shined from the rest!

said you know every situation,
you gave a lot of contributions!
cannot be stepped in this institution,
by playing safe in this nation

Are you perfect?
is it the image you protect?
or the network you collect,
or the personalities you dissect?

Yesterday you showed them I am nothing,
just a free-man hustling and walking.
but now I am surpassing,
what yesterday..was your pretending!!

Do you see the sun now
My dearest joy.
gazing at those chinese eyes
mysterious as if never told.

Pure love you offered
is silenced by this vague situation,
yet honest as the birds,
flying towards undying affection.

Kindness flowing like river,
pours into your pure heart,
words as keen and hand picked
gentle from the start.

Beauty as everyone sees,
untouched but educated.
I hope the best of things
kindness returns uncompensated.

As you believe in me
Now our ways could be parted.
but your memories will always remain
your values that is heart felted.

Answer the questions,
establish the shield.
publish the ever heard news
strengthen our build

For this is a done deal
a ticket that is closed.
welcome this new chapter
with fireworks and a good toast.

May they know
what they should ought to know
with pure respect
to run this show

demystified hear-says
let's walk hand in hand
together we build this wall united
Forever we will stand.

Your ego is just an illusion.

pain; just let it pass by.

live by the moment

and savor your time.

critics walls your maze

so be it, seize, get by.

regrets could pull you off

momentum backfires;

just when you reached success,

you face your  bid of decline.

and when we give in to pleasure

reality check is sublimed.

Your ego is just an illusion

wake up establish your stable.

It's the years that will reveal.

truth's harsh, and is inevitable.

Through the stars and sun
I am looking at you.
Everyday when I open my eyes,
I'm hoping that you'll get through

your day should be good,
no worries should I get?
Wishing you all the best
in this life you can bet.

I hope you beat all this sickness
all this jungle are to offer.
**** the bad vibrations,
all of your problems will be over.

For I am nowhere
and all I want is your true victor.
in all your endeavors
I will be with you, I am your mentor.

Please stay happy.
I am just here a call away.
all I need is a happy you
to complete my busy day.

Don't mind my scope and territories
I can manage to pull out my pawns.
all that matters to me is your outlook,
positivity will bring charm.

Please take my heart with you,
whenever we are away.
I wish my soul would look up to you
to keep you good and okay.

Get well.

I am the big loser,
and you are a God,
say,  lost a precious jewel,
And shall feel sorry and sad.

You got an army,
and you got also mine,
your got captured a subset,
an intentional sublime.

All the grief is yours,
and all I am is a suspect,
hurting the clean,
in almost every aspect.

hurting myself,
for every script unlocked.
all eyes on me,
all your ears are blocked.

For I am the sinner,
you are a saint,
you have no shortcomings,
So you can't be blamed,

So I am the ****,
all is reversed,
I'm just a piece of stone,
and you're the center of the universe

I was Numb on the first shot of your admiration
As the scar was fresh,  the trauma was there.
As I am lost, and I was going nowhere.
But the honest approach had bitten my inner self
So infectious that it ripped my beliefs,
Crossed the bounds of established myths.
Your care, The feeling I am raised,
Placed, hesitations aside to waste,
And the case was reversed and beautifully bared.
How I am honored, to feel a love like yours,
Heavenly and mystically redeemed,
A feeling that grows, Love that leaps and soars.
Should you ask me will this feeling understand and grow,
I don't know,  but I want to bind our paths crossed.
Should you care asking, would you stay in your place?
I'll let it be you, stay here,**for Always.

dwell inside our visions
like a black velvet night.
Shining upon me,
A pleasant sight.

Head filled with imagery,
circling upon delusions,
seeing you makes me sink,
in a soft cuddly cushion.

can you feel the spirit
knots our charisma intertwined.
When you realized
that true love is blind.

Shattered my beliefs
until you're in my arms,
Undying care
without bounds.

without any limits,
we have grown.
I Found my house,
I Rediscovered home.

You are the missing fragment,
that made myself complete,
The main reason
I smile, I breathe.

Werewolves lurking
following that brown jacket,
sniffing, wandering stare,
how incredible that sight is.

low keyed, yet, admirable
humming hymns you ought to hear.
dancing stars and planets,
Can I dig on you and see?

through your ****** soils,
I want to mark my footprints,
Your desert I'll travel,
I will hike to your greens

Keen and soft cuddles,
I whisper to your ear,
Dwelling peacefully
without tied knots and mugs of beer.

A place of crossed roads
and pedestrian lanes,
and our primary transportation
is riding a train.

Midnight occasions
we used to spend.
transforms into sightings
That smile you bend.

You lend, carelessly,
when hearts are broken.
sing something good,
a sign of relief, mend.

Gaze at my artwork,
you free me from this cage,
my sanctuary and home
Living free, without a wage.

Let me stay for a while,
Ah, Resource bounty,
healthy ambiance and fields.
Now you can't see me, worthy?

She does not weep
From the sadness she bares
In her eyes you will see
What she's made of.

When she spanked all her fears
From the day that she knew
All the pleasure she seeked
Was unreal.

Can you take me again
To the place that we met
Where a good company
Is what you're needing

All the rules that you broke
Was all gone with the wind
All that left was a joke
In our memories

Til' the last drop of wine
Slipping inside your throat
Then you'll realize this love
Fades never.

When you've thought it's the end,
And you're ready to leave.
You'll be finding yourself
Back to the start.

Your punches slipping into my shoulders
bold and emotions filled, ******,
as I am craving for your soul
longing for your honesty
that smile you give me
fuels my compassion
Oh, good sight of art.
a shimmering light,
now I'm in a flight.
your fair warmth,
I need, tonight.