She looks at me
Like a wandering maverick
Exploring my soul
Through the stems of my retina.

Travelling to my body
Through the feel of my pulse,
As she grasped my hand
Lingering on bold emotions

Baffled with blurred questions;
Peceptions nor judgement
Was never clear and printed
Vague intentions.

Softly spoken words
On a gloomy bipolar weather
With a cup of brewed happiness,
Yes, we are strangers.

She hits the dancefloor
Like an immortal demigod
Shining from the mob,
Like an oil from the blood

Her moves got something
Or is it the whisky's blink?
She stares and get conservative
Downcast eyed she links.


While I am observing
From two seats a far.
I saw the light, the rainbows end,
*** of gold in a jar.

She still dwells in me
In all the songs I sing
The melodies I hum
Brings joy from within.

The feeling she gave me
Never fade, nor left me.
In my darkest hours
In months and years.

Distance is taking its toll
Daily I seek for her light,
drinking a cup of coffee
While our shoulders are aligned

Inside of me there's a part of her
That never fades away.
A short but fruitful company,
Incomparable I must say

Staying up late again,
Time flies in a snap.
I found myself again
Looking at your photograph.

Drenched in grief
I know you and I is just a dream
Holding and kissing her lips
Is a sanctuary I cannot redeem.

Things that you usually commend,
are slowly changing directions
like the opposed northern winds,
brewed coffee beans.
are all gone.
gone, all, with the gust.
In this storm you now resist,
in which we use to face,
the poison together we taste,
were all mere memories from the past
lingering in the back of your head,
like a bomb waiting to explode
and it corrodes,
Ill advised road,
you took not to defend,
but to have resistance you bend
this thing we have established,
through the long years.
we stood together,
deteriorating through indecisions,
you put your rules to mission
the walls we have long built
are now struggling to stand still,
as we crawl, and save this
watched by your apprentice,
until all of these are flashed back,
as I think of our last kiss.

I need an antedote
To cure my desire
A need to be accepted
A metal to the fire.
To refine and sharpen,
A sword that is once mighty.
Aligning my bearings
Debts that was once empty.
Yes, I am empty.
I realized I am a lost man,
Striving badly in a jungle,
Of misery and expectations,
Actualizations,
Theories i suppose to give
Than to choke
And I am fed
By my own pride
While wandering
And seeking for the light
Half dead, struggling
Grasping. Enough.

It's been a long and lonely daylight.
There was nothing but the sun
Then you came and lit my sadness apart
With your bubbly smile.

Darling you don't have to tell me,
Just a signal and it's done.
I don't really know the reason you exist,
But tell me it's worth your while.

But tell me it's worth your while.
I never really know
if we can get a conversation
but every bit of you makes me high

It's been a long and fruitful friendship
I'm heading north, you're going east.
But you know that I will never forget,
that our times have got you high.

I dwell in the places,
Where I feel your presence.
the pages you've written
is still etched in transcendence.

Seeking for your aura
my ways are your equivalent.
bounds and gates are raised
despite of our perfect blend.

The way you stared into my soul
sweeps away the dark clouds in heaven.
I badly want to know you more
time spent with you is what I am needing.

Despite of the dark clouds forming
your hands waved them all apart,
I am screaming from the inside waiting
for our time to shine and leave our mark.

And I just told my own self
That I never get tired writing about you,
Despite of the distance and cold air
You are still the one I'm coming back to.

Even 'though there is nothing I would get
I am still seeking for your light
and deceive my self that I am still in this,
waiting to see our time take its bite.