Each moment for me is
A moment of clarity
Finding myself growing ever more tired
Searching for a fact
Or a reason
To explain why I should not cast off this
Earthly form
Why bring the air
Why bring the bread
Or the water
To these lips
Why do I prolong this
Misadventure into being
My body belongs to the earth
The very atoms of my carbon based reality
Once slept in the belly of a star
All of this Big Bang talk has got me thinking
Why should I press on further into my fragile existance
When all beauty- belonging in temples
Is not worshiped as a king

a daring mountaineer
ran out of lonely peaks
and women he could brag to

he met a wild woman
just as tired
of her narcissistic journey

they attached
and hoped
they were in love

this projection
became their Everest
with no summit

they ate crackers and soup
listened to talk radio
fell asleep wondering

they sighed in unison
quit dreaming
of mountaintops

the biggest piece of *******
is that i can't move on
with my life, until this is settled.
I can't wait to
be over you.
I can't wait for
the point in time
when I
can see you
and not feel
as angry as
I do.


I am angry

at how you

Built a wall
around yourself, keeping me out

and I tore mine down,
          

                        brick; by brick

coaxing you into feeling something

when ALL of this ****


was your idea to begin with.


Well, next time you're lonely

find another girl to stick your **** into.

find another girl to make you feel special.





*find another girl to break

I want you to be
as ****** up as me

Child sleeping in my arms
I think
'Don't become me.'