My stomach is really upset with me
It wants me to spend some quality time with my one and only true love
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Food

Lost in oblivion, devoid of emotions
Sadness inexplicable and feelings senseless
Dreams shattered and people left
A sense of apathy persists
Self realization has took it's toll
The vision is blank and future looks bleak
So cold and desolate, a superficial robot
That cries out for help inside
No guilt, No conscience, No worries
Nothing, but nothingness remains

Once there was a boy who lived in his lonely world
He was so alone, he filled up his world with dreams and fantasies
And all the thrilling creatures and characters from fairy tales and movies
He believed in magic, miracles,  and pretty much anything incredible
Though life reminded him that reality is somewhat different
He dreamed and dreamed and the chose the path which is less traveled
On his way the boy stumbled and fumbled, his whole world crumbled
In a world built up of lies and deception
He made the biggest mistakes, Learned the greatest lessons
Realized his castle of dreams were built on sand
His wounds turned him in to something he was not
So scared, fazed, and insecure he stood all alone
caught up in a whirlwind of questions and doubts
Self realization came late, but it got too dark by then
It was too late to turn back, too late for anything
His ship got succumbed to the violent storm
And the boy went down along with his ship

I think karma is in love with me
I tried to explain the **** that led her to me
But she won't listen and finds me attractive, obviously
Clinging on like an over obsessive girl friend
She makes love to me in a sadomasochistic way
Experimenting in a lot of ways
Quite often literally taking my breath away
But She never lets me die and gives me all her love
It's a "complicated" relationship what else can I say?
She likes to **** me all the time
With a different style every time
It's a happily "*******" ever after since she came in to my life
She told I am best lover she ever had
I ask GOD "how the **** did I get so lucky?"
But now I realize You are not the one for me
So I gotta let you go
And It's not you ; It's me
I am leaving you for your own good
So You can **** me for one last time
And give me everything You got
Cause come tomorrow I' ll be gone
And You will just have to go **** yourself, *****!!

Yes,  the time has come, not to begin or to end anything
But for me to fall, fall from a blinding height in to the depths of darkness and fear
Looking over my shoulders, I realize how much things have changed
A boy who lost his way or tried to find a way while growing up
Truth made me realize the things that i can hold and what I've been sold
And the things that were sold to me are far more than what i can hold now
Deluded before, enlightened now, but nothing has changed
I find myself at the same place where it all began
A place where there is nothing, but emptiness that ***** the life out of me
So cold and alone, wounded and scarred, fighting a battle that was already lost
Something inside me is waiting to die or is already dead
May be it's the dreams, the joy and all that makes me "me"
I no longer feel anything,just going through the motions, a dead man walking
Wearing a mask made up of pride, lies and deception
Time for me to drown in to the ocean of uncertainty and hope I will be saved
This dreaded journey I must take to slay my demons and to make peace with my past
It's time for me to fall as the sky crumbles and everything falls apart
This is the end.

You are the one that I lost, then loved
Now you are gone forever
And I miss you more than I can bear
There isn't a moment I don't think about you
Your face so sweet and your heart so gentle
You kept me together when I went mental
Told me you love me
And was there for me
Even when I wasn't there for you
Now everything reminds me of you
I miss "us" and everything we had
You said if you go away,you will never come back
But I didn't listen and pushed you away
Losing you was my biggest mistake
Something I can never Indemnify
I was blinded and in the dark
Unaware of the ways of the world
Deluded, confused and lost
Never knew what I wanted
Never realized what I had
Now I'm left with a broken heart
All the memories and mistakes comes back to me
Only to make my eyes wet as rain
The silence is so loud
And there is a hole in my heart
Every time I breathe It feels like drowning
But I don't want you to see this
Now you are happy without me
I don't want to do anymore harm
I curse My fate and hate My life
And the finger points only to myself
No one can love me like you did
And i know no one ever will
I didn't mean to ***** up
But i did and you went away
You only get hurt by the ones you love
But you know how much you love
Only after getting heart
And now am so lost without you
So alone and sad
I have the strength to hold on
But not to let you go
Not to let you go

Eat Food
Look Good

eating mangoes
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going bananas!!!

I witnessed a death today
It was strange and silent
There was no pain or screams
No illness or disease
The stillness of the body
And the calmness of the mind
Dimness of the light
And the coolness of the breeze
A stranger kept smiling at me
He came close, so close
The light became brighter
My soul stopped burning
It became so cold
I witnessed a death today

"Sail forth-
Steer for the deep waters only,
Reckless soul, exploring,
I with thee, and thou with me,
For we are bound where no mariner
Has yet dared to go"
-Walt Whitman

All the ****** things I gotta do for a living
And not to live

When I was a kid
I made my dog do a trick
How to play dead
Now I'm trying to do it myself

The Fire Is  Doused
But The Wounds Still Burn

........Sail away with me
Though little time left
                   I promise
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The best is yet to be.......