How do I let go of the anger that’s eating me alive?

“You know when you’re drowning you don’t actually inhale until right before you’re about to blackout”

But I’m always drowning,
Can I just blackout already?

‘You hear a siren,
Look outside,
You hear a bang,
Just drop and hide’

life isn’t as perfect as it seems,
Through your house on the hill,
You have no idea,
What it takes to live here,
Trapped,
Not knowing,
Is today the day I’ll leave,
If so through a body bag or a bag in my hand?

Everyone says it’s gonna be a good day,
But what about those who aren’t here?
The ones I wanna be celebrating with,
Their gone,
And I’m here,
stuck,
Celebrating another year with people who don’t actually care,
All I hear is,
If only’s and maybe’s,
But really it if you were good enough and no,
So I’ll be another year older,
But who can I really celebrate it with?