I want out
I left my path
Six feet long
And six feet In depth
The only bargain I have
Is with grim for death
What way when and where
All I got was loads of stares
But no one cared
They laughed and they pointed
To show that I was the weakest component
I was nothing
I meant no thing
I was lost
But i was free
Cut me down
The rope from a tree.

It's been a rough three years.
Tough as nails I've been.
I counted every second that I breathed.
And every minute that I've lived.
All the hours spent on you.
And all the days that I stressed.
But it's been years past two
And a little under three
I've learned that nothing was the same
My past was only meant for me
So I'll untie the knot
And step away from the seat
The seat that left me hear to hang
I've taught my ears to only hear
The truth that came out of me
Until you Came into my life
And forever
Saved me.

I don't know what the **** it's called
Or if it's a phobia or not
But I know that everyday that I lay at night
I ******* fall apart
Afraid of my thoughts
And scared of who I am
I'm afraid of being alone
I shake and I quiver again
And I ******* hate who I am
And who I've become
A left behind
Misunderstood son
I seem to not give a **** anymore
Not six feet deep
But laying on my floor
Not by choice
But gravity falls
I'll be sure to destroy mine
Before I ruin everyone else's lives
Cause what comes first
Always seems to die
I've served my life in hell
But never left my home
Sometimes I wish death upon myself
That life would end
And no one would help
They'd stop and stare
But not say a word
Lead in my throat
And blood on my curb
I just sit and wonder why
Everything that I touch dies

This hole in my head has finally been filled
From the distraught and all that i've been through
The lies
The betrayal
The dishonor
I missed this feeling for a long time
Its been two years
And I have not felt this way in a long time
I wont mess up
and I wont lose you.
I hope for the best
*and expect the worst