Why were you the first thing I saw in a crowd?
Maybe I subconsciously knew you were around.
Maybe I went toward the magnetic pull of your existence.
Nonetheless, my heart raced and i was ready to be amazed again.
When someone says “Your smile is brighter than the sun”.
Thats an understatement.
Because as soon as I turned that corner
I saw millions of stars inside one.

They say i walk among
The children of the devil
Just cause i listen to metal
But lets be frank, there’s a devil in all of us
Some hearts are darker than the black shirts i wear
Some voices speak the only parts of english that hurts
My music taste does not define me
I am my own being
I express my own thoughts, ideas, and feelings
I don’t mind being the outcast of the norm
Ill scream out of my soul and release a storm
Just to show you, no matter you say
I won’t change for your convenience
Have a nice day.

Let your thoughts echo
On the pianos keys
Listen to the soft symphony
And take in the vibes
That puts your heart at ease

My heart is in a jail cell
And my mind is the warden
Whenever my heart feels something
My mind says you cant afford it
As if the price was too high
But my heart says ill take a loan,**** it
you can keep me in debt till i die
Its worth the stress and regret
If it ends the way i want
ill take that bet
I rather be shackled by one lover
Than know so many women with an artificial cover
I will at least know its real
Rather, i get a paranoid thought saying its just too good of a deal
Its a constant battle honestly
It seems like my mind is always right
And i see myself walk away from my heart
Because i feel the betrayal and dishonesty
Is my heart delusion or is it a guide?

Back in time, bullying me was a trend
Isolation was my friend
I was an alien in my home world
But the structure of the student embodiment made me wanna hurl
I was tired though
Tired of the hidden bruises
Tired of which one chooses whom to roast me next
Tired of being persecuted
One day i snapped and fought back
I didn’t care if the next ******* was skinny or fat
All i wanted to do was hear someones bones snap
The bad crowd became my friend
Me bullying became a trend
For some reason i thought i had something to prove
Looking towards the bullies to see if they approve
I could of just said *******
But it would just be back to square one too
I had a broken halo showing my morals
I had devilish decisions in most of my quarrels
One day i stood in front of someone
I thought it was just gonna be another one-on-one
But when he looked at me
All he could see was the monster inside of me
He got on his knees and cried
It was like looking at a mirror
What I’ve been doing never been clearer
I saw myself
What i thought kept me strong
Was just something morally wrong

Its been a very long time
But i finally feel like I’m actually fine
A chapter of my life has finally ended
Though, it took longer than i expected
I can finally scream its over
My dreams have never been closer
My future has never been brighter
The weight i carried became so much lighter
Im finally free to see what life can offer me
I can be happy in my own mind
The amount of love that surrounds me is just too kind
The only thing i can say is thank you
If it wasn’t for you
i probably wouldn’t have changed my point of view