I bite my nails.
Just a bad habit.
Im too stubborn to admit I’m wrong most of the time.
Just a bad habit.
I easily fall in love with a girl even though every sign in life says...Don’t
Just a bad habit.
I over think about simple things, thinking i need a map with specific instructions when i can just do “the simple thing”.
Just a bad habit.
I unintentionally harm the people i love.
Why is that a bad habit?

I cant keep it to myself
I love the way you smile and how your mouth curves
I love the way your hair flips elegantly every time your head turns
I feel like i cant have you but i have the strongest crush on you
Its definitely not what i planned or expected
The spread of love may have finally gotten me infected
Am i right to pursue these feelings or
Am i wrong because I’m too scared to share what i feel, it might not be enough for your heart that i want to steal.
Maybe its not the right time
But i feel like it will take a lifetime
At the end of the day when my thoughts have emptied
Its just pure feelings and it seems so right to me to just say....
I like you...

I always had these two sides of me.
One that everyone sees with a smile and positivity but for every battery there is always negativity.
I never show that side of me because I do not want people to worry nor see that person that is the lonely side of me.
The thoughts that i keep to myself, the secret wishes that I try to grant myself.
To be honest, I don't truly love myself.
I may be human and that's no fault of my own but I can't help but take jabs at myself for every flaw and mistake, I have and have done.
Maybe I can bob and weave every now and again because I find the strength to but it was not because of me.
I wrap myself with consistent positivity that i pretend that there is nothing wrong with me and hoping to god that someone does not see through my facade and start to unwrap me like a kid on Christmas morning.
Eventually they see a person who's scared of being alone and
depressed that it might actually be true.
Feelings that just sit on my soul, waiting for someone to claim them but for anyone who digs deep and take that huge leap for me, might not see a huge trophy saying victory but a small one for participation.

Love can be shaped in many ways
It can leave you blind, deaf and silent
You can fight with it, for it, or against it
It can be a weapon of mass resentment
It can be a key to contentment  
Its hard for me to decipher the differences
Who gets to decide what type of love goes the distances?
Who gets to decide how far that love can go?
Your mind starts to wonder what is morally right
life can be so f*ed up
The fact that everything isn’t always black and white.
You choose to use love anyway
You light the fire in a heart or you put it out on an ashtray
Whether good or bad
Whether it makes you happy or sad
When you take the time to find the love in you....
You realize love can be used right by a few...