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2.7k · Nov 2013
Our Catalyst
Jenna B Nov 2013
I learnt a new word today
Catalyst
A person or event or chemical, that causes a reactions and change without undergoing any change itself
So, was it you? Or him? Maybe this new place was our catalyst, or that fight one night.

*A horrible sneering voice in my head says it was me.
2.5k · Mar 2014
Pirates
Jenna B Mar 2014
Pirates he said
I love pirates
so I suggested to him that we be
accident-prone together
whispering meaningless words
in the dark for eternities
told me he doesn't have time for sweet nothings
Obviously, I replied
we could just share stolen conversations
teach me your science
and I'll paint our world red
all the fiery colors of Autumn coming
Show you mine and show me yours
a book- diary of hand written notes
bind us in temporary bliss
Children playing in an adults world
Young adults pretending to be kids
look at us-
caught in this insomnia
it won't last forever
We can sleep in the warmth of the rising sun
but for now we'll be immortal and rebel
against our drooping eyelids
as though it is so  romantic -
to do nothing and give it all our meaning
1.2k · Nov 2013
Malleable Minds
Jenna B Nov 2013
small malleable minds
with an infinity of creativity
awesome fallible thoughts and yet no fear of failure
Just a confidence, a contentment to be themselves
tiny soft hands
no scars yet, only lines of destiny
Big thoughts and simple words
portraying their world in colors unknown
1.2k · Oct 2013
The Lies
Jenna B Oct 2013
The Lies were better
The gossip  was sweeter
I'm slamming my fists against his chest
I never appreciated the effort all that pretense took
I didn't see how much simpler it was
Not to know

I don't want to know

When the rumors began to unravel
I was the one who tore them apart
It was as sadistic as ripping a flowers' petals away  
to see inside
I saw all I needed to see and more
I saw it all before my time
I couldn't stop the Lies from falling at my feet
I tried to patch them together again, gently,
but they fell apart
and unraveled
some more.

Now I will always know
And I will always remember how the Lies
crashed into my mind
Like the rough waves of the sea
that leaves violent indentations on the sand before they leave again
silently

I never really knew him
Until the Lies began to unravel
I heard the rumors and he fell a little further
When I put my face to close to the fire
I was hungry for answers, but I didn't know
That I don't want to know
and they
burnt his memory ever so slightly
Then the truth escaped
and he was set on fire.

The night was better
The Lies were easier
living in darkness makes it easy to put out the flames
Living in this daylight is too bright, too real.
I loved the subtle distortions
but now they've become ugly truths
1.0k · Oct 2013
illuminate hope
Jenna B Oct 2013
The power this little girl holds illuminates her, and projects her strength further than her physical being

She stands above the rest, and her bare feet sink into the soil of the mountain she is standing upon
She has climbed for a lifetime to reach this sanctuary. She overcome the sheer rock faces with nothing but her nimble hands and supple feet, although you would think she had had help from the wind- almost like it had picked her up and gently placed her on higher ground.
Nobody can reach her, or touch her. No- she has conquered the common ground and now she is playing in the clouds.

Except she won't play long, for she can see an army on the horizon. It is coming for her and marching to the rythym of her beating heart. She is frightened for herself, and her beautiful place in the world. Mediocrity is coming to quell the magic she's created.
They March on,consuming the mountain and covering it like thousands of ants.

Still she stands strong, even though the army coming for her have no hearts, only armour and shields. She has only her weak flesh to protect the heart she has nurtured so carefully. They're so close now...but not quite near.
They cannot reach her for she is too high. They cannot attack her or pierce her skin.

Maybe she'll be safe

The army however, have a weapon much more dangerous. They let their voices snake up to her, like coils of smoke. She hears what they think and she knows the hate in their heads is all for her. The words ******* her, worse than any wound could. She does not know how to attack what she cannot see so instead she listens, trying to detect where it whispers from. She doesn't know, and the voices of hatred penetrate her world. Her power is crippled and her heart is left broken.

She still has power, but it isn't put on display. She keeps it to herself so that jealous minds can't come after it. Because every whisper is yet another crack, another chip off her shoulder.
She isn't innocent and trusting any longer, her edges have become a little rough. She fell down from her sanctuary, down the rock face of her mountain. The words of the soldiers hurt her so badly that she joined them just to get away, to blend in.

But she remembers. She remembers the freedom she had from her vantage point, and the beauty she saw there. She is climbing her mountain again, starting from scratch. It's harder, there's more weight pulling her down.
But don't worry- she'll get there.  
She was a girl that illuminated hope, and now she's cracked.
We broke her, but now we have the opportunity to help her back up.

And from there, she'll go far.
She still illuminates hope.
972 · Nov 2013
I'm MINE
Jenna B Nov 2013
Who am I?*
To you-
I'm the pin cushion for all the weak fumbling shots
I'm a bundle of nerves from all your panic
Your panic
Your pin cushion
Your mannequin, shaping  as you please
Up and down over and over
Late and hard
Your cupboard of insecurities
All your words too big for everyone else to hear
the ones you save for me,  
'cause you always knew I wouldn't fight back
All your fists and bruises that you echo
onto me
my skin
my hurt
ME
*******

I'm my own being and this isn't yours
I'm the darkness in my head, and the sunshine in the day
I know because the clouds never reach my hands
only ever brushing my thoughts and leaving them cold
I'm my own worst enemy, and my only best friend
Confidant and abuser, I know how to keep myself awake
Nocturnal and alive- you made me love the night
and the darkness to cover up the secrets
Now I'm living in MY day, MY life
dancing in the sunshine, letting the world know
let them see your ugly secrets

I know me more than you ever will
I'm the lock on my door and you aren't invited
I'm the key to my heart and I know how I work
You won't pick this lock again,
I'm saving my love and life for something else
not to be chained to somebody like you
I'm connecting now to people who know me
and allow me to work through myself before they push themselves in
Unlike you- who tore into my life with such a vengeance that it  broke my ability to trust all together
Until I met people who helped mend me, without even knowing it
Who smile and laugh with me
They seem to like me for me, and appear
to genuinely want me to be better tomorrow
Friends who believe that I can shine instead of stamping me to ashes

It's like clockwork in my head now, and I know how this will end
a crazy messy kind of order that you will never understand
I'm the noose around my neck,
but I know how to untie
the pretty bow you keep me trapped with
I'm my own cartographer, creating my mountains and climbing them
I'm mine
and you claim to be my creator but those are only words
I am a child of this Earth, and a mind of my own
designed by the elements and a God more powerful than your blows
given to you, entrusted to you
to take care of, not kick down  
I'M MINE
not yours to play with
I won't be your punch bag, *** toy, secret or
******* victim anymore
I'm me,
My thoughts are mine to treasure
my body is mine to nurture
and maybe I don't know
'who I am' yet
I just know that I am definitely
not yours.
914 · Oct 2013
imaginary reality
Jenna B Oct 2013
Let's get drunk again
when we realize we're loosing our identities
and can't think as an individual

Let's make love again
when we remember we don't know where we're going
and we see that we're living in the past

Let's ignore all the consequences*
when it occurs to us that everything is simply coincidence
and destiny is only man made

Let's lie together tonight, your legs tangled into mine
and laugh until out cheeks are damp with tears
Let's talk about nothing and let our words go

And if we are creating our own reality to escape another
is that so wrong?
907 · Oct 2013
stunningly flawed
Jenna B Oct 2013
I don't understand you, although I desperately want to.
when I first met you, I was completely intrigued
by your words and your voice
you gorgeous voice that has the ability to make me melt
your beautiful words, that are so raw and true they make me shudder,
(although they are laced with just the right amount of confusion and wonder)
those were the parts of you that first caught my attention
I looked at you, and you seemed to be an open book
I went over to read you but it was simply a mirage
you have this illusion of simplicity but you are so deeply complex that sometimes,
I marvel and wonder if you could ever understand yourself...
I try to see past your walls, to what drives you
and sure, you've given me a glimpse once or twice
but it only made me urge to see more

Now- this is the part I don't know if you'll appreciate
See, I zoomed in on you so hard and concentrated on you so intensely,
trying to get you and capture your aura
that the rest of the world began to look a little...inadequate
and I think that you puzzled me to the point that
I started falling for you.  

In fact I fell so hard that I went a little crazy
I must have hit my head
I was crazy to live like you, and be with you
Maybe it was that little hue of ridiculousness that allowed me to see you more clearly
and oh WOW
I realize now that the more I think about you, the less I will ever understand
I know that you are such an intricate and vast soul that it could never be described
much less expressed verbally or stuffed into your body
You are truly the most stunning and flawed human being I have ever had the privilege of witnessing
I really think I love you now
and I just thought that you should know
So that you could understand a little bit of me.
898 · Nov 2013
#1.
Jenna B Nov 2013
#1.
I did something I haven't done in forever today
It was so simple that I can't believe it hasn't occurred to me before
I went and lay down in the garden, on the grass
under the sky and beneath the wreath of tree's
I know- I'm proud of me too
It made a lot of sense in my head
mainly because for the first time ever I managed
to clear my thoughts
have you ever tried?
I turned it all off for a split second of naturalistic bliss
and it was like a reboot and revival
of all the conundrums I have been trying to figure out for so long
it was like a little sprinkle of clarity over my day
I lay there and felt my own body, twitching on the itchy grass
I felt the wind blowing harmlessly on my skin
and I felt the goosebumps rise
it all felt so good
I put my hands up, and stretched out
appreciating my size
I placed my hands on my hips and delighted in feeling
my bones beneath my skin
I delighted in squeezing my own fleshy thighs and knowing they were mine
I pulled my legs up and set them down
just to know how I move
it was more powerful than a reflection in a mirror, because I really
knew, and felt myself for the first time in a long time
I have grown out of touch but I want to be back so badly  

I wondered with new found clarity, and not a single fear of
judgement of sensibility
I felt connected to something much bigger than me
bigger than you, and even bigger than the sky
I can't describe what it was,
but it seemed to love easily and forgive quickly
it had a serenity that I haven't know before
and a wisdom beyond all the years of time
I have very suddenly found ...what?
This God, Goddess, Deity?
an agnostic power, force of nature?
Maybe it's just the liveliness of outside
I don't know but I don't think anybody could put a name on it
I can't even begin to explore it's entirety
so with all that said and done
I think I had better go back tomorrow
761 · Nov 2013
fault lines
Jenna B Nov 2013
New start, you said, We can try again
Opened my curtains and showed me the light
of a brand new day, with hope and power
I want to stay asleep, but even in my half aware state I am wondering
how you are here after last night?
When I said all those words, flung them at you violently
showed you my scars, and opened your eyes to what I'm doing
Why are you back?

I have never believed in unconditional love
I can't understand it
never questioning what slams it down
always  rising above life and flaws
I can't believe in an eternity of caring
a permanent residency in your head and heart
And it's only a fraction of eternity, 16 tiny years
but that's a a lifetime to us and
a long time to keep proving me wrong
Because when I push you away and lock you out
hurting me, hurting you
with harsh words and angry screams
hospital visits and cold sweats
I think you're gone
and I fall against my wall (that keeps you out) in relief
I can breathe
I am free of ties to this earth, constricting me
and if in a moment of blind stupidity
I cease to exist- then you can't be pulled down with me

But you just won't let it go- let me go
You keep arriving back on my doorstep, with a new plan
new opportunities to keep me going
more tactics to keep my 'issues' under control
Every time I abuse this relationship it chips at some of my ***** soul
but I really want you to be alright, absolved of me
I don't have the energy to keep shoving you away
or keep up this facade so please, could you at least
build your own brick wall?
stop me from relying on your immovable presence
and your rock solid love
stop me from feeding off your hope
please
because I have these ugly raging
fault lines far beneath my exterior
Quakes I am no longer in control of
and if these cracks begin to surface
I'm scared you will bear the brunt of my storm
and I will hurt you more than 'i ever have before
676 · Oct 2013
What this is
Jenna B Oct 2013
I love you, but it sounds so primitive to say.
Because it's so much more than that.
I don't love you just for you, I adore your aura and your vitality
I want to melt into you whenever I see you
You make me happy, but at the same time my heart is breaking.
I want to ask you to stop the hurt
but I can't.

I want to live in your head,
and be the love in your life
I want to  know what you are thinking.
So I can learn all your dynamics
I want to have a comfortable, boring human interaction with you
because even that would make my world explode

But I Can't.

I can't wait to be closer to you
and I can't wait to know more about you
but I don't want to make it obvious
I don't want you to know

YOU CAN'T EVER KNOW

We're the same,
you and I,
me and you

I don't know what's happening, and I don't think you would either
So I won't say anything
I won't act on the fireworks on my skin when I see you
I will keep quiet and stay away
nonchalant and cold, even though my blood is roaring
I won't try to get closer to you, to try and understand you
At least not until I understand
myself
And what this is.
651 · Nov 2013
Soul case's
Jenna B Nov 2013
You said that you liked yourself
Love your body
You said that you loved your thighs
and your curves and the flaws
You love your soul's case
because it reflects your vibrancy
You said you love yourself
because you're you
You said
"Do you understand?"
and I said that I did
even though it had never ever occurred to me
to love myself unconditionally
ever before
580 · Sep 2014
Dirty laundry
Jenna B Sep 2014
I won't lie.
After you left last night, I pressed play
On the TV
And carried on like nothing had happened
This morning I stepped over your ***** laundry
And ***** secrets
like it still
Wasn't happening.
544 · Oct 2013
Before the fire
Jenna B Oct 2013
Like fire you make me burn
until I can't hear myself above the roar in my head
Like water you drown me out
leaving this washed out, burnt up shell of me
there's no space for you in my life
I hate you
so go away
now

*"but... I am you."
518 · Oct 2013
No matter the size
Jenna B Oct 2013
I want you to know that I had no right to judge your scars by their size
Nobody has the right to decide how
d
e
e
p
is deep enough to be real
nobody can put an amount on how much blood is enough to prove your worth
because if you are so full of raw emotion inside
and breaking your skin is the only way to let it all out
then the evidence becomes entirely peripheral
and I need to remember that a scar, no matter what measure,
is a scar all the same
and is the tip of something much bigger
the external size
doesn't matter
517 · Oct 2013
Well Darling
Jenna B Oct 2013
Well, Darling

I guess this is it.
Here we are, with an expanse of history and an uncertain future
I can't imagine what you must be thinking
Of course, there was a time when I knew
Once upon a time I knew every thought you had before you did
I knew every emotion by the subtle, almost invisible, flashes on your face
I knew your face, so beautiful and in love
I could make you smile just by smiling at you
and, Darling, how I loved that smile
I loved the smile and the way it lit you up
You're whole body, waking up in anticipation for life
I knew every curve and edge of you
and I loved you
So much that it became my biggest weakness.
There was love, and I can't forget it
Even though, Darling, there isn't any love now.

You let me in once, and we were vulnerable to each other.
But it only made us stronger
Darling, we only broke when you closed the door

So I don't know what you're thinking, and I'm about to walk away
I won't hurt you any longer
But I won't pretend to forget
Because Darling, you and I both know
There was love once
Until we both let go
475 · Oct 2013
Tears smell a lot like rain
Jenna B Oct 2013
She looks at me and asks if it's true
What will hurt more, I think in a panic
The Lies to continue to comfort her
or the cold, hard truth?

What must I do?
What can I say?
I don't ******* know

She's still looking at me, with those big, sad eyes
I'm meant to protect her from all this
but I don't know how to anymore, and maybe, in the back of my mind,
I was hurting too and needed a comrade to help me through
no...I can't bear to think about that for too long
So, in a moment of blind faith that it will all be OK
I tell her the truth, the core of the problem
and as I watch her face crumple
her beautiful face which is now plagued by the hurt
Her eyes spill over and her mouth makes the perfect shape of an 'o'
It smells a little like rain, but it's only her tears
I have to ask myself if it was the right decision
but I cannot reach a conclusion
when I see my baby sister
take the world on her shoulders
and knowing I put it there.
This is  a continuation of 'The Lies'- my first poem. Or rather, the same subject matter.
467 · Nov 2013
Can't shake you
Jenna B Nov 2013
Your hands pushing mine away
Hello, How are you?
Hug my friends- pull away
feel the familiar and uncomfortable twist of my stomach
remembering you and your hands
hugging me, holding me down
Your mouth pressed onto mine
Getting to close
infiltrating my mind
Stop- leave
I push the good people away
because I couldn't get rid of you
and you left an after taste that I can't shake
433 · Aug 2014
The puzzle of being
Jenna B Aug 2014
Do you realise the power you have?
No. I don't suppose you do.
If you told me that I shouldn't exist, I would will myself back 16 years
And 9 months
And I would cease to be me.
But then I would have never met you
And I wouldn't have this feeling that we are linked
Like a puzzle I can't figure out
Are we the two pieces shoved together, wrongly, by an unassuming child?
Or are we perfectly designed to fit
I won't ever know now I guess
I don't exist, not any more.
433 · Oct 2013
the boy
Jenna B Oct 2013
The boy flew once  
Up and above all the mediocre minds that tugged at his heart insistently
He danced and grew and spun around in the darkness of the sky, letting it weave in and out of his soul like ribbons
He fell into the air and bounced off it, catapulting himself higher into nothingness.
Soon his physical form became weightless, impossible for it to rise any higher
But still his mind flew to the ends of the earth
It danced in the depths of the sea and sang into the expanse of the land
He laced his voice into the wind, manipulating it so it could travel through every city
He threw his thoughts to the fire, watching as they sparked a reaction and burnt to ashes
He gave his soul to the earth, and all that was left for you and me to see
Was a boy who flew once
429 · Mar 2014
afflictions
Jenna B Mar 2014
Walking slowly through your house
***** cars in old plastic
Heavy with rain
She warned me about you
And your
Afflictions
Not your warmth and fierce protection
Over your little sister
And me
(I didn't mention us)
She pointed to the cracks in the walls  imperfect'
may be violent and ******
Like your fists
That are actually beautiful hands unclenched
That hold me and our world together
I just walked on
Kicked up some dust and marched
Past her house of cards
And paper thin memories
Of another time
Another you
For Dylan, Miranda and their future.
427 · Oct 2013
Please come back
Jenna B Oct 2013
When are you coming back?
By all means you're here, and 'aren't we lucky'
that you survived the fall
Technically, physically you're here
lying in front of me with your eyes closed and your fists unclenched
You look peaceful, like yourself, for the first time in a long time

But a long time isn't forever, and so I know you were here once  
Wasn't I enough to keep you going?
Even if I'm not your whole world
was I not a big enough portion
to make you see that there are people who love you
and reasons to stay?
But you still left

You left with all your kindness and soul
It's like you packed up everything that made you real
Your smiles and tears
Anxieties and ambitions
love and laughter
and just...
left.

You left behind this robot in your place
It didn't care about me
Or consequences
It didn't appreciate life
and tried to throw everything away

Please come back and claim what's  yours
Please tell me you love me
and loose the lifeless look in your eyes

Maybe then I'll tell you what it was like when you were gone
And maybe then you won't go again
I'll tell you everything
Like the time I asked you if you loved me and waited for a reply
and waited for a very long time
I'll tell you about the monster that you became
And maybe you won't let it in again
But first  YOU  have to come back!

Dad, I don't know who is after you, or what they did to your humanity
But I'm scared because they're after me too.
They enter our minds and steal our hearts
When you were gone they were the only thing left in your place
And I was scared

I'm scared now, for you and me
Which is why I'm repeating myself so desperately

Dad...Please come back.
I could edit this now and try to fix some of it, or edit it a little but I really don't have the heart! I wrote this when I was 10, and The words kind of feel like an old friend,and I couldn't 'fix' them if I tried- even if it's a little amateur in it's current state.
424 · Nov 2013
all it takes
Jenna B Nov 2013
****** and calm
deficit inside of me
showing it's ugly teeth when it wants too
ripping me up suddenly
growling and fierce
wild and rabid
how could I possibly tame this demon?
I did, with a bit of simple convention
I could, if I follow a few rules
I will, one day
but right now I'm still a rebel
allowing this thing to feed off my anger
384 · Oct 2013
go
Jenna B Oct 2013
go
He looks at her as she reads
calmly
she is subtle and calm, turning each page
slowly
he feels his stomach begin to churn
faintly
he watches her as her hair falls in her face
softly
she feels his eyes on her, and looks up
just like that
and the moment is gone
Jenna B Dec 2013
I've been missing out on something
for a really long time now
it's starting to (finally) to make sense
and I'm beginning to (finally) understand our fascination
with each other

Maybe my past has been preventing me from experiencing it
Or perhaps it's my current state of body and mind
the two are so closely linked that I can't properly pry them apart.

Maybe that's why I love children
so nonthreatening and uncaring  
so small and close, without a care of convention

Maybe that's why I don't know a whole lot of vital information
about myself- that apparently I SHOULD know
that apparently everybody else on this ******* planet knows

But last night I saw it
in that old hole in the wall  
I saw the way she looked at him and how he looked back
I saw how couples were holding hands, getting closer
I saw friends all dancing together
and I realized that I am really bad at all this connection
I can connect to you with words, not touches
I realized that when he put his arm around my waist
and I froze and pulled away
I just couldn't, even though it might have been nice

Maybe it will be someday- maybe I will be able to let go
but for now I am aware, and that's enough
Wrote this at 1 in the morning after a night out. Haven't come up with ANYTHING (good or bad) for a while now, so I'm going to take the plunge and post this. Even though I don't think I like it? Although it may just be the subject matter I don't like :p
365 · Aug 2014
Phantom words
Jenna B Aug 2014
Your fingers in my hair
Your poetry in my head
Why can't I stop this?
It's imaginary and
delicate
Like my own phantom words
Which die on my lips
Every time I try to tell you
About us and who we could be.
354 · Mar 2014
Lost in my bad poetry
Jenna B Mar 2014
I'm just here
Sitting
Being
Music playing louder than my thoughts
Am I aware of it all?
I'm aware that of what I should be doing
crying, yelling
but luckily noisy messy tears aren't for me tonight
I'm just gonna sit here and forget
Remember to forget what's happening outside my door
I don't want to tell you
Or to talk
Thinking it through won't help
I want to loose myself in art and poetry
I want to turn my imaginary tears into something beautiful
Beautiful and angry
I want to create and design and yet here I sit
Still.

Move and hurt and space
Hating me
Feel emotion surging through my chest
Is it the music or my beating heart?
I've reached a blissful nirvana when I don't even know anymore
Listening to Fall Out Boy, Sisters of Mercy
Singing along and writing
Not thinking
Lyrics go in, a jumble of words tumbling out of my pen
I'm not making sense
None of me is
But I'm quite
Happy
Happy to be lost

This is really bad poetry
I can't think of words when I can't even get Hippie Sabotage out of my head
(my playlist has move onto indie rock)
But I'm enjoying my bad poetry
Pretending it's art.
Ranting a lot about nothing silently
I could get to the point
Or I'll just ramble on about nothing forever

Neon girls and baggy jeans
Worn to the knees on hot days
Like icicles in our hearts
I'm so sad

I have no more nothing so here goes
They're fighting again
I'm so calm
And it's all falling down
I feared for my fathers life for the first time today
Properly. The thought crept into my head before I could stop it. Instinct. So I knew it was real.
I feared for his dead eyes and his angry hands and his fragile heart

I'm scared for my mom and her burden of past mistakes
I'm scared for her happiness

I'm not worried for me.  
I don't think my heart is fragile,
and my past mistakes are just teenage dreams
after all, I come alive in change and dramatic situations.
I will deal, when it comes.
I just wish I knew when
And what, exactly

Perhaps eavesdropping wasn't the best plan
But I want to know about what will happen
She wanted to know if it was any of my business.
Well yes, Mom.

I'm fine. I want everything else to be fine, but it's broken.
I'm fine though.
Just fine
Lost in my own bad poetry.
352 · Mar 2014
Warped life
Jenna B Mar 2014
She will never be enough
and it will keep her alive
in a warped sense of prolonging that we all call
life.
We all store experiences in our future,
hoping to meet them one day
we all have expectations for ourselves
and whatever we do, they will always be replaced
by the next thrill, the next goal
These pieces of life will keep us alive
and so even though we may hate them,
they are worth it.

Because they will keep our hearts beating
And occupy our minds
So that we don't waste away into blank lifeless spaces
We'll always be real and raw
Passionate, messy and hopeful
Of the future.
349 · Jan 2014
Infinite Blue
Jenna B Jan 2014
Together they will always yearn
for the rush of sea
for the salt on her tongue
freedom pulsing through his veins
always searching for an infinite blue
and dancing to the moons tide's
Jenna B Mar 2014
My heart is beating hard and I can feel it against the skin of my chest
it seems to rise up into my throat and block off all air
I can't breathe and my face changes drastically into
a burning sensation
hands are shaking, feet are numb
my cheeks are clammy and warm
I want to die, or curl up and leave
this ugly place
I want to get out of my body and only take my thoughts with me
the good ones, obviously
I don't want to be connected to this body that betrays me
I'm coming down, and this is all it takes is
to miss
and this becomes my reality

— The End —