Words I wish I could say
To you

It's seems we've come at a crossroad

The hell we've brought and more

You have your safe space
We have ours

We rids our train into the open world
And we think

You sit
And you wait for things that won't come

We wait for you to realize we want more than what you gave

We have our right to be here
To protect you
Still

You waste your time

Crying about how she acts
Instead of letting us help

And all we wanna do
Is help

-🧨

As tears stream down my face
I don’t know who she is
But I hope you’ll be happy
Because that’s all I want for you
Is to be happy
Even if it isn’t me who makes you that
I don’t even know if you’ll read this
Or if you are ignoring me
If I did something wrong
I’m sorry
I can’t talk to you in person
And it hurts
I don’t know why
It just does
Maybe because I poured my heart out
Just to find out you had someone else
The letters may have had more meaning
To me then they did you
I just want to talk to you again
Because if we’re honest
I never stopped thinking of you
All summer
I waited and hoped that I would see you
So I could tell you face to face how I felt
But that changed with time
Because at first I thought that maybe
You hated me
I don’t need anyone to love me
Besides myself
But I can’t even say I love myself
Because I don’t
But I guess that’s us
Right?

I can actually say
Im happy
Because of you
Im glad you and I started to talk again
Because now there is an Us
Someone i can look forward to talking to
And I love you
<3

Today is a lonely day
A soft breeze drifting them away
With chocolates and candy hearts
Teddy bears and cards
I wont get any of that
but thats okay

Rain dripping
As my heart sinks
I try to stay quiet
I want to scream out for help
But nobodys there
One is
I can see them in
the distance
We stay together
And im less of a mess
:}

Lets be the bad guys
Villains running around
Causing trouble
A hasty mess
Of Love and Lore
We are the villains
In someone elses story
Do we care?
No
We do as we please
I dont have to please anyone
Ill be who I am
Even if Im the so called
"Villain"

Last night he snuck out
Hit my mom
I dont know how to react
I tried to fall back asleep
but I couldnt
Now I lock my doors
Scared of him

I just want them to stop
I want them to go away
But they can’t
I’m stuck with them
And I don’t want it anymore
I want reality to go away
I want to forget
Everything
Everyone
I want to feel something again
Something besides fear
And sadness
That she brings me everyday
I want them to stop pretending
That they care for me
Because they are just
Voices

pretend im not here
that im lost in the vast darkness
that im never going to be important
but ill still stay
because im worried if i go

i wont come back

Clearly im not wanted
Or needed
just for now
only to them
They dont ask me
Questions
To see how im doing
If they did
They would know
How im breaking

I wasted my time
Trying to reconnect with you but
I realized you didn't want to talk to me
So I'm done trying
If you don't want to talk then fine

I feel wasted not drunk
Just sad
I miss you
And it hurts
Because when im alone
I think of how we cant talk
Or text
or do anything
Because im wasted
From the loneliness
And the sadness
I cant explain
But
I just feel
Tired
Drowning
In my sorrows..

Right now Im so scared
Because I dont understand the feelings im having
I wasted my time trying with him
Because in the end he was just a narcissist
But that isnt what made him bad
He caused pain towards us
He made sure I would never forget his face
But lately
His image has been clouded with thoughts of you
Good thoughts
Sweet thoughts
But I feel Wasted
My butterfly

I dont know what im really doing on here

When she finds out

Im gonna die XD

Soft secrets we keep
About the people we see
Looking through someone else's eyes
Seeing how they are
Our love keeping us here
Our head fuzzy and ****** up
A light trickle of whispering winds
Not winds
But people
Telling me what to do
Guiding me through life
Because I can't handle it on my own
Sleeping my days away
As we suffocate in the snow
It's Cold out here
Unsafe
Unreal
Like maybe our world is just a tiny marble in a big jar of tiny stars
It keeps moving around and around
And spinning
Making us dizzy
Not sure of what to do
Our hearts hungry
For things we want to get through

Maybe it’s something wrong with me?
That nobody really likes me?
That I’m completely alone?
Am I too clingy?
Too obsessive?
Maybe
I can’t fix that
Or maybe I can?
I’ve given up trying
She doesn’t talk to me
I have to stop chasing after her
That’s okay though
I can smile through the tears
And sooner or later I’ll be okay

everything feels like a wrong doing
Like i cant do anything right
Anything to help