Alex - Hello Poetry

Alex Oct 2020

I cant

I can’t control myself

I can’t understand things

                                          So easily

Not anymore

                       You scare me

And you have no idea

                                             I can’t keep crying

Because you put me down

                              I cant keep pretending

That you actually care

                                  About me

About them

                 Cause all you want

Are

                   The “I cants”

Alex Oct 2020

Honest

I try not to lie
Most of the time
I wanna be honest
Especially with them
Because I like them
And I know I shouldnt
But i guess I cant control
My feelings

Alex Oct 2020

Rose

Prickly thorns
pierce the skin
Scars that never leave
A fiction
Of whats left of my imagination
Is it going to be love
Or just another rose
Without its thorns

Alex Oct 2020

Lifeboat

You were my life source
For a short while
I thought you felt the same
And now I know the truth
I’m glad that you’re happy again though
I’m floating on the water
Alone
On a little lifeboat

Alex Oct 2020

Giving up

I’m not gonna be on for a while
It’s nobody’s fault but mine
I can’t sit here and stay calm
And pretend things are alright
She isn’t mine
And that’s fine
I’ll find someone
Who’s gonna stay by my side
Not just flirt for a bit
And then leave again

I won’t be on for real though maybe every once in a while but rn isn’t a good time for me

Alex Oct 2020

Fight

I caused it
And im sorry
I didn’t mean for it to happen
And now I feel terrible

Alex Oct 2020

Hurting

You never know how bad it hurts
Till you lose the person you thought you loved
Most