I fell from grace
When i burnt it
all to the ground.
You told me to never
Contact you again;
Ripping me from your life
like I was your biggest sin.

But the thing
with unspoken fears,
They’re fueled by betrayal,
And burn for years.

someone once told me
before you **** yourself,
**** your life.

so I slit that ******* throat
and watched it die.

I was never able
To call you mine.
But for six months
Everyday,
At a quarter to noon,
I got a voice text
From you.

Hey bronze boy,
come take a seat.
Have a cup of ayahuasca
I’m all out of tea.

I can’t stop,
I’ll never let it be
until I have you crawling
Back on your knees.

Begging for forgiveness,
begging me please
Let’s talk
Let’s take it easy

Too late.
It’s gonna be a wild ride.
Your momma never taught you
there’s danger in too much pride?

You worked hard,
got the degrees
doesn’t make you more of a man
when it’s women you can’t please.

You know reading, writing, arithmetic
but you never learned the skills to be a man.
Just a little *****
playing dress-up,
telling women to get on their hands.

You like control.
You like power.
You’re a high society type of man.

I’ll teach you life lessons
I learned on the streets:
anyone can fall on their ***,
And everyone can be beat.

You’re a scholar,
you’re a baller,
you’re a tiny little man.
Will you ever get the courage
to pop your head out of the sand?

Call it for what it was.
Put a name on my hurt.
Honor my last breath,
before you cover me in dirt.

I like to think
maybe it wasn’t meant
to be goodbye just then.
Maybe we were meant
to have our lives,
to one day meet again.

Maybe on a hot summer’s day,
Under the Utah sun,
We’ll both have salt and pepper hair,
And lock eyes on the horizon.

Our hearts would stop,
and so would our paths.
Fate giving us
A second shot
to reconcile
our past.

If you wanted to tear my life apart,
tell me you always thought the future would be ours,
too.

And you did.