Suddenly you were in my life
You make me feel more alive
Everyday and night
I think of you

I wasn't in love
Until I suddenly was
Long distance
Late night face time talks

We're so close even when we're so far apart
When you smile I feel warmness in my heart
I wasn't in love with you
But now you're all I can think about

I thought you'd miss me more
Your own flesh and bone
Moved out, all gone
You told me 'Dont come home'

I'm still a kid, not 18 yet
Alone in the city
Chasing dreams
Only to be broken under your unkind hand

I want to come home
Even if it drains me
Draining me of all energy
Energy that you consume on my expence

I miss you
And I wish you missed me more

I want to scream
Shout
Be loud
But not a single sound leaves my mouth

I cant speak a word
My mouth glued shut
At least I dont get told to shut the **** up
But is it better to be the weird quiet girl?

I dont want to be quiet
But I just cant seem to speak
There is so much I want to say
Just waiting to someday be spoken

I guess I'll just stay away forever
Everytime I'm with you I remember
Remember why I let home
Remeber why I chose to stay gone

I like it better when we just talk on the phone
I get aggitated when I have to come home
You say you love me
Then why cant I feel it?

As a person I dont want to see you
But as your kid I know I have to
Your my parents but I wish you weren't
But you cant change who are your parents

I will grow wings someday
I'll fly far, far away
All my life I've waited
Waiting still

Almost grown
Adult in the flesh
My wings never came
They got taken before they got claimed

On my first step into adulthood
The needle with ink will touch my skin
A reminder that I can still fly without growing any real wings

I'd rather pass out in the hallway
At least then the guilt would go away
Being home from school when sick
Makes the guilt come quick

Guilty for taking care of my own well-being
I dont understand the guilt I'm feeling
A day off to get back on track

Puking and fainting
Staying home
Feeling guilty
All alone

Feeling guilty for taking care of my health and safety
Is this how it feels to live in this society?
I just want to be sick without the guilt killing me