IsabellaVE

IsabellaVE 7h

Street lights
Morning and nights
Back and forth from school
Minding my own buisness like I always do
Then there is you
Walking past
My peace wont last
Disgusting liquid from your mouth
This all makes me want to shout
But i'm scared that if I do
I know there are much worse things you'll do
So I let you
I ignore it
Then i wash it off from whereever it hit
I just want to be able to walk in peace
Now I have to watch out for you spitting at me

Just a few weeks after moving to the city there were men that started spitting on me when I walked to or from school. They would either try to spit on me when walking past me or slow down their cars and roll down their window just to spit on me and drive away. Yes, It was and is scary and disgusting.

IsabellaVE 14h

Backseat of the car

I'm in the backseat of the car
Watching my life pass by in the windows
The car is on autopilot
I dont know how to stop it
But I know it can end anytime
It almost ended today
On the crosswalk
In someways I wanted it to end
I wanted to feel free
No more backseat in the car
No more car at all
Just nothingness

IsabellaVE 1d

Not my fault

Its not my fault
Yet every accusing finger points my way
I did what I could
It wasn't enough to stop the monster
The monsters hands
Down goes my pants
I couldn't scream
My voice lost as I try escaping the horror
Now you make me carry it
The darkness in my stomach growing
I never wanted this
Now everytime I look at this thing
All I see is him
The monster
The truama
This thing was not made by love
But society would blame me
Make me the monster
While the real monster is still walking free
Doing unspeakable things

IsabellaVE 2d

Powerful is the voice

Scream
Scream
Scream
Scream until they listen
We cant stay silent now
There is no use in normal conversation
They dont listen
They dont want to listen
So our only choice is to make them
Scream until your throath is sore
Scream until they listen
Dont you ever let them take away your voice
Your voice is powerful
Its time you use it

IsabellaVE 2d

An end.

Drown in the darkness
Let it wrap its cold hands around you
Its warmer than any hug from this world
I'm not afraid of the darkness anymore
Because this time I know I'm alone
Alone with me, myself and I
Drowning in my own thoughts
The air leaving my lungs
One last breath
Feeling my heart beat slowly come to an end

IsabellaVE 2d

Eyes open

Chaos and disaster
Right on front of our eyes
They dont want you to see it
They dont want us to defeat it
This is all in their favour
Not for ours
Keep your eyes open
We have to see the problem to change it
Keep your eyes open

IsabellaVE 4d

Selfish

If its selfish of me to leave
Then its selfish to make me stay
The person in pain continues to carry it
Just so that you wont have to
How is that any less selfish?
Everyday you see them
Half a ghost walking around
You want them to stay
Yet you do nothing to help
Guilt and dilemmas
Pain and gain
Day in and day out
You cant make someone stay
if they dont want to
You can try
But there is no garantee it works