When my soul has become useless
and panic knocks on the door
thoughts become chaos
I can't take no more
still hearing voices
from front, from behind
I run towards your cries
and I nevermind
your sounds give me comfort
deep down inside
I wither and fade but
your still my guide
what ever happened
to the inner glow
the one I thought I knew
but not the me I used to know
my life is a nightmare
no dream in sight
so painful and tragic
I'm far from alright..!!..

I hate myself today
a little more than yesterday
there is nothing to debate
I just want to escape
happy is far away
gone with the parade
it just gets to hard to stay
I know this sounds cliche
my life in disarray
I can say I'm not Okay
the end is underway
just waiting to decay.....

When i feel i have had enough
there seems to be more to endure
you cause me grief
i get no relief
you beg,you take
your actions a disgrace
you forge and lie
deceive and deny

yet you blame me?

why do you strive
continue to lie
you must hate yourself
are you dead inside?

your a fraud and a fake
say you make no mistakes
I'll put an end to you
whatever it takes!!!!

As I fight the enemy within
a cynical and jaded grin
is what this face emits
find the me that lies beneath
as you crawl inside to be
you work within my skin
maker of every sin
black and blue and cold
why wont you let go??
reactions are unknown
to be uncontrolled!!!
we are chaotic as can be
thoughts become carefree
what will happen next
are we able to foresee
with my will denied
why won't you resign
please let go of me
I'm the one you left behind.....

Every scar I try to hide
you are the fake that breaks me
I am forever changing
you are the fate that shapes me
As I fall in
you burn out
I feel the pain is fading
I see your face erasing
I'm empty inside
happy denied
I bare the scars within
coat is wearing so thin
It feels so faded an violent
screams remain silent
as hopeless I fight for
whats in between
living without any relief
I'm falling out of place
lost and turned away
No better than before
Still broken and afraid......

Devilish kindness that
devours souls and
hi-jacks beliefs
gone like a ghost
never to return as your own
figments of falsehood and
coupled with fiction
flashes before eyes
as your flesh melts in the fire
your being is scorched and smoldered
as your spirit incinerates
you depart from  your form
as you exhale
everything you have ever known.....

As you walk on by
I stand still and wait
as I'm watching leave
obscured by your wake
I can not believe
why you want to flee
when you seem not to care
that I am left in despair
so just stroll on along
when I won't respond
because I must cease to exist
in your thoughts or your midst.....