I can't be by myself
I'll hide in the dark
In a room where there's nothing sharp
Until I become well
You told me you will hold my hand
When Im out here by myself
Help me do things that I can't do
Turning me into yellow when I am blue
Those sweet moments when we held hands
Now fades away like fire burnt out

I'm back in the dark
With you nowhere in sight.

I still remember the days when I met you

So beautiful in white
Like Angel in disguise

A smile that I will always remember
Hoping it will last forever

I may not see it again

But some other person will

It will break me knowing it
The only thing I can do is endure it
Hide my pain of losing you so I can fake my smile

Stopping for a second and thinking that

I can only see your smile in the shadows of someone

In this dark room a big light shines upon us
We didn't care for it was only the two of us

As I slowly touch you I see you smile
We did it with such grace

I said to myself  "God I will never leave her"
But then you left me after


What we did was indecent
But it's a memory I can't replace

Girl like you feel so sweet
You force your hug but i let it
But you hug me from behind while I'm always not looking
Because I don't like seeing it

Do I hate it or love it
Part of me wants to lose you
Part of me wants to keep you

So I'm putting the wheel on the middle
And will never spin it
Until I get bored while looking at it

Distress and Woes chokes my lungs
It seems I have my fill

This face of hope is turning into wry
How I wish it just went by

It stayed

Forever tainted by dark skies

It's so loud
Like a static
A banging on the walls of my skulls

It's all over the place
I can't make it stop

It's deafening
Screaming

I can't help but cry