You think magic is seeing a wand emit sparks and spells
But I see it in the brilliance of a light bulb
The flowering of a bud.
You see wonder in the world's you see in your mind
I see it in the realitys I have not yet visited.
You see miracles as a single light, shone from the heavens
I see in it in every act, every day.

I see misery in every life.
I see sadness around every corner.
I see greed in every hand full of money.
And I see lifelessness in everyone I see.

But despite that
I found a way to live.
Not by wishing on a star
But by the beauty around me.
The city lights at night
The flowers by moonlight
The wispering winds in my ear.

I see such heinous act in the light of day
But at night I see my fantasy world come alive.
You don't need the glass promise of a world unseen
You just need to find it in your surroundings.
Because at night
That is where the unique come out to play.

So many emotions will flood you
Just looking at a grave.

The only thing stopping me from achieving sleep
Is the pumping of my blood
As I lay on my wrist
And wondering when it will stop
When will it flow without the effort of my heart.

I want to walk.
I want to walk to LA
I want to see it as the sun hides behind the horizon.
I want to walk to Greece
And see the ancient city
I know I must have lived there once.
I live on an island.
I want to walk across the water and escape
From this unbearable roller costar feeling.
But I only walk for an hour.
I let the music fill me
And then I think about how to rid myself of this hunger that doesn't alow me to eat.
Then, later
I walk home.
That growing pain.
But I feel easy.
I may not have walked to my hearts destination.
But I walked so the wind blows through my head
And takes some fears away.
I walked away from these walls I'm scared of.
Now I walk back.

If you were about to be crucified
And it was certain you'd die
Would you deal with the pain
And the certainty
That was going to be your last earthly feeling
Or would you give that feeling to someone else?
Knowing that they would live
But they would live with that pain
And the memory of it.
Would you save yourself the torture
As a dying man doesn't deserve it.
He should have a painless send off.
Or would you endure it
To save that unknowing man
The pain he will have to live with
But that you will never have to feel again.

When I rule the world
You will not be by my side.
You will be unknown
Because someone will always try to overthrow the ruler.
And they will do that by breaking your heart
And taking the people most closed to you.
I will be with you as much as I can,
with our true friends.
I don't need you by my side every second to rule the world.
I need you here in the streets
To be with me.
To love me.
Because I don't need the world to know our love.
I just need you know that I love you.
I need you to know that I will rule the world
With your love in my heart at all times
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And I will fall with the knowledge
that you will hold me up.
Because if you were to rule, I
I shall do the same.

Im sick
Of people thinking I'm a "bad" girl.
I'm a girl.
I've kissed the wrong guy
At the wrong time
Not because I loved them
Or even liked
Because it was expected of me.
That's as far as I dared to go.
That was when I was scared
To show them I wasn't straight
I was bent 180°
And of course I was labelled
Never to my face
Well, once
And it was said by someone who I knew could hurt me.
But I'm not a bad girl.
I ******* up.
Not big but enough.
Bur I've stopped acting
Because I was expected to.
And now I've been judged again
By someone who I thought could trust me.
They can hurt me
Because they think they know my past.
And I don't want to leave them.
But I don't want to stay.
I'm sick.
But am I sick to stay
Or to leave?
I need help.
I'm not a bad girl.
I know.
I hope.