After all the things happen to me
I'm so glad that I've met you
Maybe I lose him
But now, I have you.
A simple hello from you
Suddenly gave a color to my back and white world.
Late night conversation is the best
Not seeing each other  is not a problem
Even though we're busy in some stuffs
Yet we still end up giving each other a time.
After from what happened to us in the past
Suddenly disappeared and forgotten.
'Coz all we know for today
Is we're both happy with each other.
But sometimes, what if's is still there
And still I always ask myself.
What if you're only bored?
What if you'll also leave me?
What of this is just a "here we go again?"
What if one day will come,
And you'll be able to see my flaws,
Then suddenly you gave up to me?
What if you find also someone better than me?
What if all of these things
Are just a temporary?
Though I have this kind of fear
I still forgive you
I still believe you're different
But I'm preparing for myself
If one day, these what ifs will happen.
So that it won't be hurt too much
So that I wont cry again.
After all, I'm still thankful to you
For being a part of my life
For helping to fix myself
For making me feel I'm loved
For healing these wounds.
All you have to do is stay
And I promise, I will be the same.

It's almost 5:30 in the afternoon,

And I'm staring again to this sunset

The yellow-orange light that reflects to the water

Which makes the water in the sea shining and shimmering.

I felt happy, relaxed and calm

But somehow, it makes me sad and lonely.

I remember the last time I watch sunset

There was nobody else but only you.

Your beautiful eyes staring at mine,

While holding my hand

Saying "I love you

And I'll never leave you alone."

I thought it was the start of forever

But now, it was only a dream.

A dream that I never wanted to wake up from.

A dream and a memory I can't escape.

Now, I'm holding a letter from you.

I let it slip off from my hand;

and let it sink and gone in the water.

How I wish forgetting you

Was easy as that.

That I could burn every single memory of you

And let it disappear from my mind.

I love the way you speak

I love the way you tease me

I love the way you make jokes

I love the way you answer math problems

I love the way you care about others more than yourself

I love the way you share about your beliefs

I love the way how intelligent you are

I love the way how you respect women

and I love every single idea of you.

But also I hate myself

For loving you with all of these things

I know, you didn't feel the same

I know, you didn't like me as much as I like you.

I hate the fact that I'm getting too attached again

With someone I can't have.

I hate myself that I still didn't learn

From what happened in the past.

This is how powerful love is

That you are "secretly" loving someone,

But hating yourself at the same time.

But after all, I'm starting to accept the reality

And I have to stop all of these stupid things,

Because you're still in the idea of

"We are just friends."

It was raining,

Tears falling as the raindrops fall

You left me without telling the reason at all.

From your words, I'm drowning

That's why I didn't stop you from leaving

I'm standing there,

Watching you walk away and go somewhere

All I did was to cry

And ask myself why.

How can you end us like this?

And that's the start of flashback of memories.

Seeing you happy and laughing,

While my heart is breaking.

Isn't it unfair?

I can see all of these like a nightmare.

Pretending I'm fine

Pretending you're still mine

Hoping one day,

Someday.

At my door, you will knock

And you will come back.

But honey, it's too late

And maybe that's our fate.

You're happy and in love with somebody

Someone, better than me.

I have to stop holding on,

And let myself move on.

I'm tired of this situation,

And I wanted to be alone.

I have you to let go,

And let ourselves to grow.

Those memories-- I have to forget

Meeting you is not a regret

But you taught me a lot of things,

That's the best thing I gained,

Even though it gave me a lot of pain.

Goodbye to you, my man.

And this is how our story end.

Don't you ever dare to message me,

if you're only bored.

Don't you ever say you miss me,

Just because you need something.

Don't say you need me,

If you don't know how to stay.

Don't you ever let me fall with your words,

If you'll never catch me.

Don't you ever dare to promise something,

If you don't know how to fulfill it.

Don't you ever dare to talk with me,

like nothing happens.

Don't you ever say you love me,

If it's just a lie.

Don't you ever dare to say these things to me,

If you don't mean it.

Maybe I'm already tired,

Tired of hoping that everything will go back

the way we used to be.

Tired of wasting my tears while thinking of you.

Tired of listening to your beautiful lies

that comes from your beautiful mouth.

Tired of believing to your eyes,

the way they look at mine.

Tired of being stupid.

Tired of drowning.

Tired of being hurt.

Tired of being blame at the end.

I just wanted to be happy.

Nothing more, nothing less.

If you love me, tell me.

If you don't, then leave.

Stop making it complicated

When we both know

that this will lead to nothing.