I don’t want to share my body
With you
I want to be with somebody
Instead of sharing
Every naked bit of
Myself
To someone who probably
Won’t fall in love with me

I don’t want to share my body
With you
Unless you want to get
That close to me
Without destroying me
Through the process
Of touching me,

Can’t we just kiss
Instead ?
I’ll learn about
The little things inside your head


I don’t want to share my body
With you
Until you want to be with me
For things other than,
Other than exploring
My naked skin
Against your small hands
Touching every part of me.
I want to learn about you,
Instead.

What do I think
About that?
I do not think
At all
I just sit
In the quiet spaces
Trying to not think at all

If I could sink
Into nothingness
I would probably
Learn about the stillness
Around me
And then I would get
Told that I have no
Mental illness

What do you think about that?
I am not thinking
I am just sinking into nothingness

If I told you
I wanted to die
Right now
Would it be a lie ?
Because I would
Probably cry

I’m sick of
Feeling like
I’m going to die
Everyday
The thought
Of wanting to die feels
Peaceful within this numbness
Of my anxiety drowning me in
Everyday

If I told you
I wanted to die
Right now would it be a lie ?