and now, all my thoughts are reaching as far as the rainbows

and here, all my love pours out of these same holes

and then, all i want is for you to know

after all of this, the pain is slowed

i am not doing well
at finding a balance;

    let me know if you'll wait for me,  
and ill let you know when im ready.

was i talking to myself?
are you filled with malice?

the silence is breaking me,
weighing on my soul heavy.

i dont want your forced love or your torture,
in the end im just a lost boy screaming for closure.

Brave warrior I am, screaming indian,

Buy my culture on sale at a costume store,

Bury my heart and the traditions I am rooted in,

Take my dancing regalia and give me my uniform.

i hope you're still looking

if you're even anyone



im missing whatever it was

if it was ever anything