Jackson

Jackson Nov 2019

silence

tell me and look in my eyes
are we living, or just passing by?

i dont really know whats inside,
but it keeps me lying awake at night

look at me and tell your lies,
someone tell me i'm alright.

Jackson Nov 2019

failure

speak and never say what you mean,
let me only catch what i can dream.

love comes bursting at my seams,
fades before i can get a release.

Jackson Nov 2019

retread

3AM and a head full of thoughts,
mind is racing,
weighting all the costs -
- do i leave or stay in?

3AM and a chest full of indecision,
smash my heart against the wall til it hurts,
it's like my ******* life is missing,
why stay when it only gets worse?

Jackson Feb 2018

unbalanced

i hope you're still looking

if you're even anyone

im missing whatever it was

if it was ever anything

Jackson Jan 2018

SCREAMING INDIAN

Brave warrior I am, screaming indian,

Buy my culture on sale at a costume store,

Bury my heart and the traditions I am rooted in,

Take my dancing regalia and give me my uniform.

Jackson Dec 2017

bliss

and now, all my thoughts are reaching as far as the rainbows

and here, all my love pours out of these same holes

and then, all i want is for you to know

after all of this, the pain is slowed

Jackson Dec 2017

dead by christmas

only thing on my wishlist
a life i havent had
alone with no witness
for this, i am glad

charred arms and sunken eyes
markings of hidden trouble
scarred hearts give no surprise
sparking fires inside a plastic bubble

bubbles and bottles
leaving a stain of distrust forever
a ruckus will follow
breathing insane, freezing weather

is this the heart i want?
the weight, the height, the face?
must i be scarred and flawed?
my way, my life, my mates?

what more can a man desire?
unfulfilled desires and an incomplete wishlist,
will you say you knew of my ire,
when im dead by christmas?