"Help !! " help me!!
The voice of my soul scream out loud
Everything seem so broken
Worst feeling is
Not been able to fix it.
. The more you give it your shot
It seems u haven't  done enough...

Feels like I'm gonna drown
Trapped in BTW two close windows
A shadow of myself I have seen
Reflecting on a broken pieces of mirror...
How best could I explain this?
Words can't be enough
Even if I mumble them up...
"help me! "I cried.
Not heard but felt...
Still
No help came close by ...

Vampires hovers round my shadow
Seeking for blood... as if it were
A bottle of *****
More like a cognac...

Painting my walls with my blood,
But,
guess I already did...

History would keep popping up...
In a merry
We all go round
When d face of horrors
Keeps haunting us
Bet our last shot
Is to hold still...
Cos at the end of every dark tunnel
comes light...
Hope
.

An entwined thread in tangled pieces
A guided solo with low tone chorus
A sudden happening turning the course of the heart.

Could this be love? Or a deep mirage


The comfort felt at the sight of him,
the heart that race in tones accord
And my aching legs trembling like its fifty blocks apart

Could this be love or a blunt illusion


The warmth we felt at a tight embrace
The urges that flows from the tangled hugs
And this jolt that melt my *****
When we finger lock

Could this be love or a temporary trance?

The urges his cupid lips filled me with
The stares that set my soul ablaze
His breathe that interlock with mine
Could this be love? Or a deep mirage

The warnings that keeps echoing
that warning that yells silently
and the intense fear that saddles me
Riding me solo like a night folk tale.

Yet the willingness to try out
The risk we re willing to take
yet the warnings strike out loud

Could this be love or an adopted chemistry


The lone breeze filled with turned passion
My guided moments enriched with profound ecstasies
His gentle beast like rides, that transcend me to the giant gate of heavens floor
Reaching my deepest depth but in a rapture.


And now,
He calls it love making,
Even as much as I wish it so
The question still ponders on

Could this be love?or a deep mirage.

None was an accident
Neither re any a fortuitous being.
Thy Father,
The potter,
He planned and made it all
For his purpose
All for a purpose
Nothing in your life is arbitrary
but on d contrary
Selfish act against him
Will bring nothing
Absolutely nothing
But a disastrous end
For you re shaped
And made
For a purpose
And you re saved
Only to serve Him
You're on an assignment
An important mission
That must not be neglected
It is for His mission
A great ambition

Therefore, never settle for your own impulsive desire
Nor for irrelevance,
But strive and work
Towards eternal fulfillments
Settle for d BETTER LIFE
and not d GOOD LIFE

The Hustle, the bustle
In a jungle
Called LIFE

The  companies we had
The memories we cherish
The solemn tears we shed
The few moments we enjoyed
The falling apart
With an impending life major crisis
Called DEATH

The Love we shared

The happiness we feel when the sun rises on our heart
Or,
The jilt that follows
The trust we misplaced
That cuts our heart
Or stomp on it

The moments of clarity
The hours of uncertainty
The doubt we have
About ever been the real deal

The trying to fit in
The mistakes made we can't undo
The time lost we would do a lot to have again
The hope of turning back the hands of time

The disappointment we feel
The strengths we discover after a mile thrill
The best part of living with scars
The diaries we stuck our past into
And the plans to write a new future
At the end
We only realizes one thing

That there is nothing to be afraid of
Cos its just..... LIFE...

******* in soul,loose in mind
Hopin on my toe,into a fairy smile
I could lay all night
Measuring the length nd breath of the ceiling
Cos right nw,sleep seems like a taboo to my bulge eyeball
My appetite rattle in pieces
At the thought of losing him
Feeling I could go miles
To make him just mine
Though, all seem blossom
Yet,my tears saddles on the gurp of my throat
Cold shield my heart
With the fear of losing him

He completes me
Without him,life won't be awe
With him,well
I can go towards a roaring lion
Shove off a live crocodile
Break the teeth of a tiger
Cuddle a snake till it becomes *****
Yes!
I can move what seems bigger than a mountain
Jump off a tall cliff
Cos I know he's got my back
I can fight to survive and yet survive
Even under the depth of oceans
I can break through whatever life calls challenges
Cos I know I have him...

Take me in...
Brooklyn.. Take me in...
Though the front door is shut
Smuggle me through d basement window..
The lilies singing rhymes with the breeze..
While midnight queens playing chess...
Defending their kings... From a harm near our reach

Brooklyn,the city horns all day
Hails the night
Darkness seems a history...
A mystery I can't tell...
Surely,the fountain speaks...
Take me in.... Brooklyn... I'm all yours...

We grudge in pains
Tears soaks our pillows
We mourn and groan
Nightmares stomp on our hearts
Tearing deep into the soul
While sorrow captivates the heart... leaving the spirit to battle with grieves ...

We battle to be freed from the tangled cobs of madness
but the more we try, the less we gain..

The more our pain increases, the heart looses its grip

But surely, we try but fail....
In all our attempts to be loosen
We omit the path...
The path of certainty that break all chains
Our only path to unexplainable peace
We fail to commune with our Creator
Who was,Who is and will still be
We give prayer an exception...
But get ourselves encumber with frivolous pleasures...
Which only last a moment or less... leaving us feel more depressed
the soul often oppressed
the spirit... entangled with torments
And Alas!
we aim for suicides....
Oh!
What peace we often forfeit
oh!
What joy we often lose
All because we fail to carry
Everything to God..
In Prayer....

Times are
When losting in your arms
Is all I crave
Times are
When d sparks in ur eye
Reflects my complexion
Time are
When d taste from your cupid lips
Cures my urges
Times are
When your touch rides me to Ecstasy
Times are like this
When d chat of about our future
Stimulates my anxiety
Times are
When all you could hold on to
Re fainted memories
Cos d hard nut of distance
Came crumbling
On our sweet nurtured memories
Times re
When all I do is hope
For d hands of time to turn
And d moments I cheered have
Comes back to me....

He who wakes up and find himself successful
Has not been asleep
Do not snore off your time to excel
For he who kills time injures eternity
Rather
Take time to think- it is the source of power
Take time to give-it is too short a day to be selfish
For when you invest in your self inspired zeal
You give and get replenished
Do not be like so many people
Who think they re dreamers
But re just deep sleepers
"Reach high" ,an author once said
"For stars lie hidden in your soul.
Dream deep,for every dream
Precedes the goal.

I've been to the chapel
Not only to see the priest
Or to hear the choir sing
not at all
To watch the candle burn on the chapel's altar
Or to watch the 7lamps
Radiates all through d priests chamber

But ve been there
To make my wishes known
To him who knows
I need you most

The cloud thicken with distorted hope
Our flesh rapidly ****** out
In *******
In sicken rag with stinking scents
The odour of poverty
Repels Her souls

At the corner of Her broken world
Sat still with melted chains
Her tears
Driving a hole on her tattered skin
As Her backbone seems crippled
By hoarders

She yells in a low whisper
Claiming for empathy
Her voice also seems broken
And so, none luck up to her corner

While she sat in Her emptied shell
Stretching forth for a fight of faith
She watches her future lights outraged in darkness
As Her only Hopes re traded like betrothed Goats

With aching pain
Her silk in ***** lace
She strive hard for a starling bridge
Give Him a book "
Build up Her pride"
She moans with a strain of wreaking hope

Raise your head high"
A whisper then said
"Its called the good fight",because Faith is a fight..

I could make a stream
With the tears that saddles
Down on my plain chest
I could create a well
From the hole dugged round my heart
If life were as rosy as it seems
And love were as sweet as happily ever after
Like movies depict
Then this tears dat rolls out uncontrollably
Should be that of joy

Dunno what this is
For the pain I feel
Is washed off with my tears
But my heart taste salt
As my tears taste sour

If I deserve to be shown to the world
If ve earn that much
Do not hesitate to flaunt it

But,if not
Then let me cuddle myself
And raise my heads high

Cos,I believe life continues
Even if the world says otherwise

Its my usual quote,that its us against the world
Though,our world re different in uniqueness
Yet,it matches together as one
I really need your arms to fight alongside with mine
Cause mine,tho designed to bear the weight of the world
And gentle enough to give comfort
I still need your arms to catch me when I fall
And your love to fill my empty shell

Still need your shoulder to cry on
When the weigh is dragging  me down
And your stares to raise my soul as it sees through me
I still need your touch to forget that
The world is frowning at our love
And I need your love to silence side talks
And the murmurs of doom the world is foreseeing
I need you to make us count

Walking down the lane
Footsteps wouldn't hurt
Even if I hit a rock
I giggled often
But to myself
Chuckling loud enough
To earn passerby gaze
Do I even care?

As I rush down the lane
Playing safe while crossing the polls
And
At the sight of McNeil route
my gaze brighten
My steps hastened
My thoughts got clouded
..
Swiftly I thread
Along the part with caution
Bet I almost ran...
But that will wash off my face ups...

The thought of seeing my beloved
Overshadowed me...
The warmed hug I'll give
The pleasant kiss that will follow..
our lips entwined in day light dreams
Of shut eye..
Stirs me nervously..
The joy of been together
After distance made a tiny bridge
makes me feel a warm jolt

At the gate of my thought
..
With the haste I dive through the stairs..
Up and up I flip through it...
But at the door... guess what happened?

A sharp pinch gave me a twitch,
As I was awoken to day consciousness...
Oops, I then realized..
I had slept on my imaginations...

Worrying is like a rocking chair
It gives you something to do
But doesn't lead you
Anywhere...


Born with no sliver spoon
Lives heading itchy in a ghetto cafe
Taunted by wars at every corner
Wars, masses fought daily
To survive...
"You don't know a thing about me"
Some would say..
"You  don't ve the right to judge"
Others would be blunt..

Sometimes, I feel I dunno myself
the way I thought I do..
Sometimes, I ve these uncomfortable feelings
That I was born earlier than it should ve been
And I don't belong in this world..

Sometimes, I take a deep look at myself in the mirror,
and something in me
Feels I can do more if I let myself to
I feel my fingerprints needs to be felt in these world..

At times, I take a deep breathe,
Facing my potentials,
Wondering if I won't disappoint those who place me so high...
Ve got a life
That, I must live
So, I'll just make myself believe in ME
cos that's all I need to do
Believing in my dreams, vision, potentials
And chasing em ..
Right?

I dunno if I'm sad, happy, depressed
Stressed, gloomy, ill, healthy, pale.. weak
Or strong...
All I know is that
Today, I don't feel like doing anything...
And so,
I wanna remain glued to my bed...

I urge the elements called "the Sons of the universe"
To spread there illuminating light of all radiance
To bestow upon our heart
The surge to love and hold
And,
As spear cast its prey upturned
And
As shining brink of daybreak falls  

As the blanket fog of dawn  
Is pierced and fades in a twinkle

May our love for each other give
Dead creatures spiritual awakening And our words dry our feeble tears of relishing pain
As it brings our slumbering love to life

Can the heart love two at once
can the feelings for two get intertwined
Can two different entity, set one soul on fire
Is the heart capable of loving two the same way
Can we feel hurt the same way when they re hurt

Can we feel cold just as it is with them
I ask again
Is this really possible?
Can we feel the same sensation for two
While our fingers interlock
Can we feel completely at peace with these?
          Is the butterflies that rushes down, our tommy the same for two
Does our heart that skips at the sight of one, skips at the sight of another
Is the heart really capable of loving two at once

Or is it that the heart lied about loving the first
and so,
When it met with the other
The chemistry matched appropriately
causing the heart an eruption of confused thoughts
Is it that the heart mistook lust for love
Or maybe the heart grew fonder of the other
Could it be that the distance BTW the two first heart is longer
And that out of sight is becoming out of mind
Is it that the heart is dominated by its impulse
and could not let go of the other
If so, to what treasure does the heart gain in "two timing".

Bruises healing
With no remedy placed
On the *******
Of my melting heart
The moment I could beg God
To take the time in hand
And make it still
If only
If only time wouldn't move
So dat I could feel the bliss of the moment
As I listen to the heartbeat
That calms mine


Each time I sprayed my love on his
Each moment I spend
Caving my name
On his sprayed chest
To remain driven in his
Soul till we live to part with death

I'm I still awake
                          Or maybe
Its my unconscious mind
Yawning
The crickets voice whispers in loud pitch
drop a pin, bet its bang will scare the Rats
I've seen the cloud right from the windows blade
No stars, no moon all dark and wiped out
I'm I still awake
       Or its a dream I can't edit
Feeling a pinch on my elbow
My eye twitching, more like a blink
The dark pales wears off
  

My thoughts streams ahead of me
we both floating towards a direction.
A piece of me flares up in bizarre
Fighting a tug of wars with my Emotions
At the worlds unruliness
The words ve had from the one
That matters
Couldn't hurt more
Though, I hate him less...
               But
A string of jealousy binds me..

Deep down,
I know Some mate in me feels completely at ease
With this words
Coming from him...
                           The respect I owe him
Weighs more.
The Love we share means more
The feelings I get, though a bit bruised
But its never changing

Cos, only my heart can really tell,
The trend at wish it speaks his name...

It breaks my Heart
To see you chose
The door over me...
It breaks my heart
to see you happier
after you dishes me

It breaks my heart
When I see you often in my dream
More like my nightmare...

It hurts more
cos I ask you to stay
But you choose to leave.
Guess you think you won
but No
I won ...
And you know why?

Not long when you realized
You made a mistake,
crawling back
Like my pet cat..
Who wants more milk

With loots wrapped with you tears

And now that I told you
To get lost...
You keep showing up at my door step.

The world is full of woes
Its path filled with thorns
I know of how much
You try
To put all thing together at times
Every time you face the odds
Please be conscious of this
In me you ve a mate
Who prays and cares for u
Always and forever