" am I dreaming?"
Or is this really my heart beating?
Does it really feel real?
Can this truly be it?

Does the world really stand still
When I feel his lips on mine?
Does my heart really gives this melody
I wanna dance to all day?

Do our heart truly beat as one?
Are we truly becoming telepathically in love?
Is this love a dream?
Am I really In this realm?
Does my world truly seem this perfect
Or is this just one of those "merry go rounding love"
That leaves me feeling hatchet?

Did he just add rhymes to this beat?
Or did I just get my first whip?
Is this my happily ever after?
Cos it feels like a Cinderella ending...

Have I just met the man of my dreams?
Or did I just dream it?

Are those moments shared real?
Can nature replay em back one time and one?

Did I just hear myself giggle?
Did I just hear myself laugh real?
Did I just feel this loved?
Has he really brought out the child in me?

Is this really my heart calling out for his?
Or is this just another  adopted chemistries
Waiting to perish
In the trial of times?

Is this love real?
Or did I just dream it?

"I'll declare to the world".
That I love you to the moon n back
I'll make a proclamation
That your name
laces the pulse of my heart
I'll tell those who care to listen
That you are that one star
That illuminates my world
I rode overwhelmingly
On your back
Drowning in the affection
You shower

Speechless,
That's how your flow makes me feel
Fearless,
Because you re my rock of Gibraltar
Hopeful,
Because wiv you in my future
I can picture a great world
With God's signature

I'm not lucky to have you
I'm blessed!!
Happy birthday sweetheart..

Cat*(signature)

206 times and still counting
The number of time I'd rolled in and ooutta bed
Shifting positions @ intervals
None seem good enough
Glad I could figure out
Why my tommy rumps
Why my heart skips
And my liver shrinks

If only I could answer all the "ifs"
The (If) my heart keeps pondering on
A thousand and one of em
Looking up for some answers that seems pending...
I love my life,yes!
But I love it with you
Truth be told
He give me strength to go on
He's my motivation
No future seems fulfilling
With him out of it

... Maybe I feel ds way
Cos I've not gone far
But don't we find love where we re
And now I know
That even with thousands of miles
Ways apart
True love ain't easily broken
It all requires patience
And off course,
Two people who really wanna be together
Right?

******* in soul,loose in mind
Hopin on my toe,into a fairy smile
I could lay all night
Measuring the length nd breath of the ceiling
Cos right nw,sleep seems like a taboo to my bulge eyeball
My appetite rattle in pieces
At the thought of losing him
Feeling I could go miles
To make him just mine
Though, all seem blossom
Yet,my tears saddles on the gurp of my throat
Cold shield my heart
With the fear of losing him

He completes me
Without him,life won't be awe
With him,well
I can go towards a roaring lion
Shove off a live crocodile
Break the teeth of a tiger
Cuddle a snake till it becomes *****
Yes!
I can move what seems bigger than a mountain
Jump off a tall cliff
Cos I know he's got my back
I can fight to survive and yet survive
Even under the depth of oceans
I can break through whatever life calls challenges
Cos I know I have him...

A piece of art and oral histories
Matched together to create a radiant attire.
A match of skins from animals bones
Made into robes and aprons
To dazzle our uniqueness.
Simplicity is said to be
"The keynote of all true elegance".
Elegance is indeed the word
That describes our fashion.
The beauty of ours cannot be over emphasized
For even with no trace of histories
Our styles describes who we are.
African fashion,
Inspired by "youth"
Not by age
But at heart
For the youthfulness of the heart
Is in no match with the frivolity of mankind.

Let me digress us off a bit
From styles to our world
For afri fashion is not something
That exist in dresses only,
It is in the sky,
It appears In the street,
Africa fashion speaks to us through individuals ideas
The way we live and what is happening..

Africa fashion..
An impeccable,outstanding and flawless art
I call it "art" because it endorse creativity
For an author once said"dress shabbily and the world remember the dress,dress impeccably and the world remembers you".

Africa fashion"our styles,our mood.

"Hmmm..."
A snipe of thought that sigh my heart
Breaking the cartilage in pieces
Letting the blood drip in torns
Striping me of my smile
Yet I force out one
That stray off in miles

The loose of her suckling child
Throw a hard blow
Right beneath the belt of labor
The look on her face
The ravishing hope
Her smile that lit up hers
All went out dark

Taste of pain saddles
At the right wreath of her teeth
She mourn in silence
Yet,in distress

When she lay to rest
Ewatomi agonizing scream
Tears her bleeding heart
Her dreams took a mare shape
Either night or day
She would yell out of sleep
Searching all corners and nooks
For the dead bear

Her sanity seems flashing out of her
The pain of labor stung too often
Once she murmurs to herself
Twice she gives out a loud sigh
"Ewatomi".. An inscription
That often ends each sigh

And as for me
Who watched her glow away in pain
And fed from her hurt
My heart filled with mournings
I could only repress mine
To help heal ours

For what indeed could be compared
To the agony of labor
And the wrecking pain attached
To not been able to withhold the bear you gave life
Cos the sailing of death's ship
Had visit with a loud bang...

I urge the elements called "the Sons of the universe"
To spread there illuminating light of all radiance
To bestow upon our heart
The surge to love and hold
And,
As spear cast its prey upturned
And
As shining brink of daybreak falls  

As the blanket fog of dawn  
Is pierced and fades in a twinkle

May our love for each other give
Dead creatures spiritual awakening And our words dry our feeble tears of relishing pain
As it brings our slumbering love to life

I remember
How we first met
I was at d door post
And you were approaching the same post
With your classic smile
That lifts the birth dot
At the right corner of your lips
I remember
Your first word to me
You greeted me
"Hey"with a smile
That melt my heart at once
I could also remember
That I adore you from the start
And my heart kept moving on a spot
As we speak on
I could remember I smiled back
But you look away not with a frown

I wouldn't forget moments after
That we became glued
As lovers
And I could remember
I'd wished silently
That if I were a boy
You would be my crush

I can't forget how your simplicity
Caught me tripping
And your accent
That flows
Like a spanish breed
I can't forget the first stories we shared together
It was in your self contain
Where you scooting with some duo
I could remember you came out first
Told me how your heart was burnt
With the sharp edges of thorns
And how you'd gone on a long vacation
Not wanting to love
I could remember it all
How can I forget
I wouldn't forget the secrets we shared
And the living cheer that told me
You've got a new news
Wouldn't use good
Cos memories of the news later turned sour
Its was like merrying go rounding the flames of doom
I remember when your smile turned down
And as though you yell inside
You could still force some
When distant friends would think its real
I remember I'd wish that I blow your pains away
How could I forget how your position bears weight
And at 19,you already 39
Cos the breadwinner loses the bread
And as the first
You bruised your kneels
To back your siblings
I can never forget how that turns out
The thorns of separation
Hastened your smile to fade
And you wouldn't know which one to choose
As the hullabaloo at home
Gave you grey hairs
How I wish I could cast a spell
Not to harm
But to smooth your pain at ease
As watching you glow into blue
Kept my heart red
And the heaviness of yours
That weighed mine down

I wouldn't forget when you let go
You claimed you met him at the door way
You exchanged numbers and became friends
When you told me I thought I saw a ray of smile
Yes,that it was and I knew you were alive again

But then I knew things seems all wrong
Our friendship sink while yours grew with his
You party hard and though forget your pains
And as it keeps up
We lost the touch of time
At first I thought we were still close
But this "him" drew you further away
With the help you need
He would wrapped you with care
Spoil you with things
You had left overs to share
Alas! My bestfriend became every elses friend
I no longer feel the hold of you
And as the glitters of life rally round your eyes
I could see that the sweet innocent girl
Dancing away....

Bruises healing
With no remedy placed
On the *******
Of my melting heart
The moment I could beg God
To take the time in hand
And make it still
If only
If only time wouldn't move
So dat I could feel the bliss of the moment
As I listen to the heartbeat
That calms mine


Each time I sprayed my love on his
Each moment I spend
Caving my name
On his sprayed chest
To remain driven in his
Soul till we live to part with death

Success often comes
from taking a misstep in the right direction.
It doesn't matter the size of your audience,
it doesn't matter if the world is counting how many times you've failed
It doesn't matter how often you've stay awake in days,
it doesn't matter if the world criticize your gifts as lame. Accept the challenges,
so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory.

He who wakes up and find himself successful
Has not been asleep
Do not snore off your time to excel
For he who kills time injures eternity
Rather
Take time to think- it is the source of power
Take time to give-it is too short a day to be selfish
For when you invest in your self inspired zeal
You give and get replenished
Do not be like so many people
Who think they re dreamers
But re just deep sleepers
"Reach high" ,an author once said
"For stars lie hidden in your soul.
Dream deep,for every dream
Precedes the goal.

Skedaddle" he said
Chasing my shadow off his tail
I ran as far as I could go
No destination,yet my legs wouldn't stop

90miles ahead of time
Gasping for breath that seems witheld
A taste of my sweat
Saddles on my lips
All salty and creamy
My tongue could tell
Long as I ran,like a deer hunted by predators
That my legs
Fails to stop shivering in an spring leave

At night
I recollect every detail
An ordeal I couldn't but relish
As you chase me off your trail
Yelling stalker as I ran

The tears that saddles my eyeball red
And ink in blood for the devils signature
With the owls feather or is it chickens
That write out the ordeal with much bitterness.

I could make a stream
With the tears that saddles
Down on my plain chest
I could create a well
From the hole dugged round my heart
If life were as rosy as it seems
And love were as sweet as happily ever after
Like movies depict
Then this tears dat rolls out uncontrollably
Should be that of joy

Dunno what this is
For the pain I feel
Is washed off with my tears
But my heart taste salt
As my tears taste sour

If I deserve to be shown to the world
If ve earn that much
Do not hesitate to flaunt it

But,if not
Then let me cuddle myself
And raise my heads high

Cos,I believe life continues
Even if the world says otherwise

A shift in thoughts  in a count of two
A world I've dreamt for ever long
That someday soon
I'll wear my classy gown
With our hand entwined
As we walk down the aisle
In your cream tux suit

At the exchange of vows
As we seal our love
With the priest blessings
From the holy stand
As our lips would glue
And wishers will gaze at us,wishing they were us.
As we rock the dancefloor
With our blissful cheer
And friends and friends
Comes rock with us
That at the end
I'll throw my bouquet
To maidens yet to be laid

A tap of finger
Gave me a twitch
I realized my arms were akimbo
Attached to my jaw

And all that had happened
Were my imaginations..

Its my usual quote,that its us against the world
Though,our world re different in uniqueness
Yet,it matches together as one
I really need your arms to fight alongside with mine
Cause mine,tho designed to bear the weight of the world
And gentle enough to give comfort
I still need your arms to catch me when I fall
And your love to fill my empty shell

Still need your shoulder to cry on
When the weigh is dragging  me down
And your stares to raise my soul as it sees through me
I still need your touch to forget that
The world is frowning at our love
And I need your love to silence side talks
And the murmurs of doom the world is foreseeing
I need you to make us count

I won't loud my guts to say you don't mean what you say about loving me. Because,the peace of mind you bring,no one has ever brought a piece of the whole you gave on a platter of moments. But,sometimes I'm a girl and even though my auditory lobes hears it every moment that you love me as much as I do... I'm a visual learner,I need it acted out as much as you say it.
If your loving me were so loud,snitches wouldn't dare to form cocky talks,******* would lay low when I walk with my head high. Dudes that acts like they know it all,won't point fingers at our love that its unrequited.
Now,
I'm not saying you should displease yourself to please me,
I'm not saying you should become someone else to earn me
I'm either not demanding too much
I just need you to show the world more  visual actions,so that the world will stop thinking I'm an obsessed ***** trying to make the acclaimed unrequited love,reciprocal.

It all seem like yesterday
When we all gathered round your bed
Kneeling for blessings,benedictions
And warnings to live as one

It all seems like yesterday
When you will rock me with folktales
Stories of how you won my mum
And the blessings attached to you as one

It seems like yesterday
When your advise cuddles me in my blues
Re inspiring my soul
With it streams words of gold

It all seems like yesterday
That the devil took your breathe away
Leaving us with a hole
Scars like tattoos
As we mourn in silence
And here,
we standing all in a dark shade of glass
Black gowns,black suits,black tie,in the rain
Spreading our ashes over you bossom rest
Blaming the devil for the theft of a good life

Though your pictures glaze our hearts
Furnishing it with your radiant smiles
The memory of you
We continue to cherish
As we hold today a remembrance of you.

An outcast ve become
                For loving you this much
        An outcast I've become
           Amidst my friends now foe
An outcast I've become
       With mockery eye that feeds on me
And criticizing fingers
             That poke my face
An outcast I've become
         For loving you that much

Though,I mind not to be an outcast
Amidst friends who gaze at me
With side eye
Their stares could lift me over the bridge of doom
If I'd been light weighted in heart for you
Or the strength your love gives me
Had not been willed from within
Maybe,just maybe
The hole they had dug
Would swallow me deep
As I surrender to their claims
Cos an outcast
I will be
       As long as we remain bond
An outcast is Me
For loving you much more...

An utter shame in a cloudy storm
Awaits the accursed crew
Of lustful men

Who prey in unison in search of whom to devour
They re like a loosed soul,wandering in a sphere
Cage of lunacy

Woe!
Unto that man of no little standard
For in the midst of his foes
At the center square of the market squad
A disgraceful rain awaits his stiffened spirit
His ends chained with the fabrics of sorrow

Listening to
   The lyrics of my heart
The solo starting with
A trending rhythm

A rhyme,
Only your name created
Reaching out for me
In my darkest blue

Turning me around
With the tenderness of
Your arms
My heart swells
High in aspiration
The lyrics that flows from yours
Awaken the dead mine
Cloning my scars
A sore that once hurt
Like a feet on broken glasses


Your love
Is my friendship
That we set to music
Your love
Is like a milk
Poured on my waffle

To you
I will my heart
To another
I wouldn't dare
Cos your love
Seek only the best of me
Pulling out the rarity of my soul

Nothing will matter more
In this world
And even in the next
In the third "next"
If it were

Because,only the melody my heart sings
Is the echoes of ur name lyrics.

A tale my heart can feel as I say
Its sweet savor heals me completely
The excitement that flowed through my vein
As I hurriedly filled in the highway bus
That Moved  swiftly with the  buzzling of the busy street
My heart flows in relief
Knowing that,
The star that makes it merrier
Is getting nearer


The day flows in
Like every other day"
People would say
But to me,
It taste a bit more different
The sun sets earlier
A sign of a brighter day
I predicted
Felt the laughter of
The tree
The whispers of the grass
The bird chirps were inaudible
All gave out their  autograph


As the young day grew older
The merrier my heart went further
The flows that beats my heart
Grew louder at the sight of him

A warm embrace,
A deep stare that lits him up
And the mouthing of his whispers
"You're beautiful*
Melt my cheek with a pink blush
Couldn't control the smile
That flows freely
Unable to end..

The fun we had
Can't be compared
To the merries that follows
The laughters,
The games that brought much giggling
Those moments
That buried my worries
And the love making
That felt all new...

All but all
Gave me
A happy Valentine

Its exactly 1095 days ago..
When the love I knew flee from my path
The sweet rhythm turned sour
As my heart bolt out through the door
Leaving no trail to follow

A miserable me turn apart
Laying helpless with no heart
The warmth of the weather
Felt freezingly cold
And the comfort of the night
No longer suits

I could remember my dreams turning into a wild mare
And even the cool siesta
Was all itchy
My smooching pillow grew thorns

In my miserable self
In all broken mirror
Picking up my pieces in no piece
Trying to plaster the remnant of me
Just 1095 days ago

It all seems like the world will end in no good time
But in my remembrance of this days
I'd found myself lost within
The tick of it tide

And now,
The love that is sure been replaced
Is back
Knocking at the same door it bolted out
Through
Just 1095 days ago

long to be with her ‎
She wants someone else
Her actions is different frm her wrds
Wen she's with me 
I find my haven in her
Re this all I wanted
Or dey're mirage
Wen she's with him
She becomes cold towards me
Get scared of calling cos her tone is scolding
She quickly wants to get  off d phone
Soft talk in pace 
Can I kip up in dis race
Crying becomes a routine
Can't find my rhythm 
Tot she's drifting away 
Didn't realise she's far gone
She came to say goodbye 
Nw I see d bye bye
Guess she's my rabbi
Cos I can see d byline
She made her hair going to see him
Me she didn't even flinch
Asked our normal question
Are u ok/cool‎
Her response shocked me
Why the question
Do I expect her not to be ok
Cold feet I had
Tank God I didn't get struck by a truck
Told her I had issues 
She didn't bother askin wat d issue was
I asked her to come on Friday 
She said it was too early
Today she went to see him early‎
Am I a fool
Or i'm being taken as a full fool
Well she's with her love
Why shouldn't she be hapi
I guess dat's wat she meant
Do I mean anytin to her anymore
Or i'm a tool being taken along‎
She once told me
Dat I shouldn't repeat d same mistake 
In my next relationship 
Oh my should've read the hand written on the wall
Is dis d voice of Jacob and d hand of esau
Forgetting her I can't
She wants me to move on
Move on to wat
Guess to my masters
After 4yrs tot it was worth the wait
Guess i'll neva. Be loved d way I want
Who knows may be i'm paying for the sins of my ancestors
They worshipped ifa 
Guess dey made some innocent peeps cried
And dose peeps are hunting me nw
‎Yet she said if I truly love her 
I wouldn't cry any
I found a place to cry in apapa
Was asked if anyone died
I said YES my love's feeling for me is
Dey all laughed
And said even in t,ears I still hav my sense of humour
Didn't want to try out loving again
Aina made me too
Do I regret
NO she's been awesome all d way
Even wen she leaves
Or has she has left
She'll hav her place unoccupied as long as I live
She wants She'll hav her place unoccupied as long as I live
She wants to stick around till I make it
As wat I ask
She has suffered with me 
She deserves to enjoy too
She said I should be ready for d worst
Guess she has made up her mind She'll hav her place unoccupied as long as I live
She wants to stick around till I make it
As wat I ask
She has suffered with me 
She deserves to enjoy too
She said I should be ready for d worst
Guess she has made up her mind long before now
Well i'm prepared for just one tin
Which is notin
All my readiness is to love her always
Whether she leaves or stay
If she leaves she can always come back
I long for no one else
Until she tells me to live without her
Even @ dat‎
I won't give up‎
This is not the end
It's just d beginning. ‎

Lying with her, placing my head between her breast, was like a crest being placed on my chest, if dere's anytin I can chest, i'll chest she's d best, she's d best and I can rest, I can rest cos i've found a place to nest, she has eggs in her nests, all i've to do is to warm d eggs in her nest, she's my queen and I must not rest, i'll keep her abreast of all the test, in order not to test her aggressiveness, she seeks my progress I must confess, I must confess cos i'm depressed, i'm depressed and I want redress, I want redress cos I want to be blessed, need to be blessed cos I want to progress, i've to progress cos my loved is pressed.

The cloud thicken with distorted hope
Our flesh rapidly ****** out
In *******
In sicken rag with stinking scents
The odour of poverty
Repels Her souls

At the corner of Her broken world
Sat still with melted chains
Her tears
Driving a hole on her tattered skin
As Her backbone seems crippled
By hoarders

She yells in a low whisper
Claiming for empathy
Her voice also seems broken
And so, none luck up to her corner

While she sat in Her emptied shell
Stretching forth for a fight of faith
She watches her future lights outraged in darkness
As Her only Hopes re traded like betrothed Goats

With aching pain
Her silk in ***** lace
She strive hard for a starling bridge
Give Him a book "
Build up Her pride"
She moans with a strain of wreaking hope

Raise your head high"
A whisper then said
"Its called the good fight",because Faith is a fight..

Bloomy as it seems the road to perdition
Hastening, excitingly
we match on in a Merry
Thought we toll in a roll to heaven
Little do we know that we sojourn down to
Hell.
     At sights we see tormenting pleasures
A glance or twice
couldn't quench our urges
Its succulent touch mount in deep to our soul
Little do we know
That we re riding down to hell
   The merry that flows through our vein in oneness
The lap dance that stir up intriguing moments
Driving our thoughts towards the gate of Hails
Little do we know that we head to an Halt

As time passes by,distance wails
Awaken me
And alas, it dawn on me
that those that we ride
Are but no more

The pleasure got cut with aching teeth gnashing in distress
The intrigue moments fades at I stare
At the gate of shadow
Locked with doom, agony and despair.

I'm I still awake
                          Or maybe
Its my unconscious mind
Yawning
The crickets voice whispers in loud pitch
drop a pin, bet its bang will scare the Rats
I've seen the cloud right from the windows blade
No stars, no moon all dark and wiped out
I'm I still awake
       Or its a dream I can't edit
Feeling a pinch on my elbow
My eye twitching, more like a blink
The dark pales wears off
  

My thoughts streams ahead of me
we both floating towards a direction.
A piece of me flares up in bizarre
Fighting a tug of wars with my Emotions
At the worlds unruliness
The words ve had from the one
That matters
Couldn't hurt more
Though, I hate him less...
               But
A string of jealousy binds me..

Deep down,
I know Some mate in me feels completely at ease
With this words
Coming from him...
                           The respect I owe him
Weighs more.
The Love we share means more
The feelings I get, though a bit bruised
But its never changing

Cos, only my heart can really tell,
The trend at wish it speaks his name...

Can the heart love two at once
can the feelings for two get intertwined
Can two different entity, set one soul on fire
Is the heart capable of loving two the same way
Can we feel hurt the same way when they re hurt

Can we feel cold just as it is with them
I ask again
Is this really possible?
Can we feel the same sensation for two
While our fingers interlock
Can we feel completely at peace with these?
          Is the butterflies that rushes down, our tommy the same for two
Does our heart that skips at the sight of one, skips at the sight of another
Is the heart really capable of loving two at once

Or is it that the heart lied about loving the first
and so,
When it met with the other
The chemistry matched appropriately
causing the heart an eruption of confused thoughts
Is it that the heart mistook lust for love
Or maybe the heart grew fonder of the other
Could it be that the distance BTW the two first heart is longer
And that out of sight is becoming out of mind
Is it that the heart is dominated by its impulse
and could not let go of the other
If so, to what treasure does the heart gain in "two timing".

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never finds the courage to let that person knows how you feel.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before we meet the right ones, so that when we finally meet the right person,we will know how to be grateful for that gift

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance in a relationship and finds out you still care for that person.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go .

When the door of happiness closes,another opens but often times, we look so long at the close door that we don't see the one which have been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can just be with, never say a word and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It is true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it
But its also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they love you back.
Don't expect Love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

There re things you would love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from the heart.

Love comes to those who still hope, although they've been disappointed
To those who believe, although they've been betrayed.
To those who still need to love, although they've been hurt before
And to those,
Who've the courage and faith to build trust again.
         It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone
An hour, to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks, they can be deceiving
don't go for wealth, even that fades away
Go for someone who makes you smile to make a dark day endurable.

Walking down the street of emptiness
my soul fries hot
Leaving my rusty body in blisters
As I wallow
In a confused state

No *** can wash my thirst
Not a match would I declare
Just in a frenzy but twinkle
It disappears
the glamour that binds my heart.


A deep sigh I perceive
While I hold and bolt my shoes
Though, its lace knotted so hard

An heavy knock on my chest
Placing a die hard burden on me
bet,this is really confusing
Even as I wrote
Can't help wag my head like a dogs curvy tail

I became assured that no superstition
Can hold me down
Or suppress my repressed thoughts
That burst so suddenly
leaving me shattered in my fears

An entwined thread in tangled pieces
A guided solo with low tone chorus
A sudden happening turning the course of the heart.

Could this be love? Or a deep mirage


The comfort felt at the sight of him,
the heart that race in tones accord
And my aching legs trembling like its fifty blocks apart

Could this be love or a blunt illusion


The warmth we felt at a tight embrace
The urges that flows from the tangled hugs
And this jolt that melt my *****
When we finger lock

Could this be love or a temporary trance?

The urges his cupid lips filled me with
The stares that set my soul ablaze
His breathe that interlock with mine
Could this be love? Or a deep mirage

The warnings that keeps echoing
that warning that yells silently
and the intense fear that saddles me
Riding me solo like a night folk tale.

Yet the willingness to try out
The risk we re willing to take
yet the warnings strike out loud

Could this be love or an adopted chemistry


The lone breeze filled with turned passion
My guided moments enriched with profound ecstasies
His gentle beast like rides, that transcend me to the giant gate of heavens floor
Reaching my deepest depth but in a rapture.


And now,
He calls it love making,
Even as much as I wish it so
The question still ponders on

Could this be love?or a deep mirage.

There is a time,
When we must firmly chose the course which we will follow.. Else a relentless drift of event will make the decision.
Choices could be easily made
But a wise man should give a lot of thought to a sudden decision.

The choices you make
Either makes you
Or mar you.
Your choice can either mantle you or dis mantle you..
I ask myself,"where do I fall?"

It all seems like yesterday
When I sat at the table of choices
Fiddling with which path will make a difference
I could ve been made..
.. But a greed flash of pleasure strikes me ..
I could ve been made,but I'm marred

I later realised,although a little too late,
That choice,not change determines human destiny
And that decisions and perservance re the noblest quality of man....
The truth indeed is that
No one learns how to make the right choice without been free of making the wrong ones...
I make mine... You make yours
But remember,choices MUST be made wisely.

Only my heart could tell
What my face could not express
Though,I smile as if at ease
But only my heart could tell
That truly I miss you so often

Often
As my heart beats,
It plays a blues encodes
With passion
Its rhymes you could hear
And slowly dance together with my heart
Although,
The lip expresses a happy face
But deep down my heart
I'm hanging..
Its like suicide....
Yet,I'm not dead...
This distance is becoming unbearable,
To see you becomes my dream
As long as my eyes re shut
And my fantasizes
Even when they re widely apart
I tell you again,
Only my heart can express this feeling,
The feelings the face can not tell

The light of my Hope seems burning out
My faith diminishing...
But with Love I believe
Its liquids will regenerate it
That long lost hope...
Will burn again
Ravishing us and tighting our bonds
And together I believe we will walk through this
Because,
All will share is true Love
And true love,I believe
Live happily ever after.....

{X2 -x}y{n-n2},t(10) 3.63,P<.05
Bodmas,standard deviation,variance,single mean,wilconxon,mann whitney t-test, standard error of mean,
ED/NED2-(ED)2/N-1,t= ~x-u/(sx)
L.c.m,H.c.m...
If y is 12 and z is 7 find x...

I wonder when I'll get to use  this calculations in real life practicals...

Asylum hole.. In mental state
Devour by dark entities
The ancient age emphasize
A beast of two inside one body
Showing a displayed of a punished soul
The astral bodies lay awake at its
pace
The sun at d noon day
While d night becomes encapsulated with d moon and stars... The world planets flourishes
In its glory...
Allay the fear of the tormented soul
For in guilt they lay with uttermost shame
With intense display of lunacy
A cry uttered loud
Freedom! Freedom!! Freedom!!!

Sitting under an apple  tree
This evening seeming quiet different

Unusual,but cool... Weird
But amazing...
The breeze calms my nerves
As I sit
On my fathers armchair...

Passerby murmurs..
Kids beam with excitment
Running helter skelter
In and out of the yard
Across the street,
This sights I can hold on to

"When is the sherperd coming to town?"
"Let's await Him at the golden temple"...
"With olive palms on his sheep to rode"

A little girl with no blouse on
But just her pant dangling on her thigh..  mutter out loud the scripted above..
Only then,did it dawn on me
Why the night seems different
Its Easter Eve.
2014

Take me in...
Brooklyn.. Take me in...
Though the front door is shut
Smuggle me through d basement window..
The lilies singing rhymes with the breeze..
While midnight queens playing chess...
Defending their kings... From a harm near our reach

Brooklyn,the city horns all day
Hails the night
Darkness seems a history...
A mystery I can't tell...
Surely,the fountain speaks...
Take me in.... Brooklyn... I'm all yours...

Killing my tulips,
Tearing down like
A leaf shed off on a winter moon..
A song sang but in Ode
No epics released deep down my soul


Play me a song, with a guitar with no string
Type me a book, binds with sandusts
Could it hold? An rhetoric words I could form...

No sunny day I smile, all frozen faces
Could bow...
Hits me hard with my fate
I'm a lover cos ve felt hate...

A hard time to get my weakness,
getting them, gives me strength ...

A cup of coffee blended with no sugar
Yet with milk, creamy indeed.

It breaks my Heart
To see you chose
The door over me...
It breaks my heart
to see you happier
after you dishes me

It breaks my heart
When I see you often in my dream
More like my nightmare...

It hurts more
cos I ask you to stay
But you choose to leave.
Guess you think you won
but No
I won ...
And you know why?

Not long when you realized
You made a mistake,
crawling back
Like my pet cat..
Who wants more milk

With loots wrapped with you tears

And now that I told you
To get lost...
You keep showing up at my door step.

Worrying is like a rocking chair
It gives you something to do
But doesn't lead you
Anywhere...


Born with no sliver spoon
Lives heading itchy in a ghetto cafe
Taunted by wars at every corner
Wars, masses fought daily
To survive...
"You don't know a thing about me"
Some would say..
"You  don't ve the right to judge"
Others would be blunt..

Sometimes, I feel I dunno myself
the way I thought I do..
Sometimes, I ve these uncomfortable feelings
That I was born earlier than it should ve been
And I don't belong in this world..

Sometimes, I take a deep look at myself in the mirror,
and something in me
Feels I can do more if I let myself to
I feel my fingerprints needs to be felt in these world..

At times, I take a deep breathe,
Facing my potentials,
Wondering if I won't disappoint those who place me so high...
Ve got a life
That, I must live
So, I'll just make myself believe in ME
cos that's all I need to do
Believing in my dreams, vision, potentials
And chasing em ..
Right?

"Help !! " help me!!
The voice of my soul scream out loud
Everything seem so broken
Worst feeling is
Not been able to fix it.
. The more you give it your shot
It seems u haven't  done enough...

Feels like I'm gonna drown
Trapped in BTW two close windows
A shadow of myself I have seen
Reflecting on a broken pieces of mirror...
How best could I explain this?
Words can't be enough
Even if I mumble them up...
"help me! "I cried.
Not heard but felt...
Still
No help came close by ...

Vampires hovers round my shadow
Seeking for blood... as if it were
A bottle of *****
More like a cognac...

Painting my walls with my blood,
But,
guess I already did...

History would keep popping up...
In a merry
We all go round
When d face of horrors
Keeps haunting us
Bet our last shot
Is to hold still...
Cos at the end of every dark tunnel
comes light...
Hope
.

At the corridor of planet
Murmurs raise my gaze
The thorn of life
******* masses
Could this be fate?
Or life is just unfair

In a quest to ascertain my thesis
A log of thousand thought struck me
Soliloquing yet to myself
The visit of death
Even to the tender hearted

I found myself wrapped
In dilemma
Life criticizing death
Of been hallow,
Death took turn in pointing the *******
"That's for ******* lives over"

The agonizing dialogue ensued
Right in the depth of my clouded thoughts,
It then dawn on me
That indeed,fate prevails,
And
Even if we feel the harsh tone of life,
Or we enjoy the vast of its bliss
What remains of us afterwards?
For I later realise
That,
As the day close by rapidly
Our intense aim of frivolous acquisitions
Allow us exempt
the fact
That the end of each day
Brings us closer
To our journey beyond...

While
            I was fiddling with my phone..
          Awaiting a beep
                 From my most precious..
                            Alas!
   A text came in...
       And it was my ex
Texting me... confessing
How much he miss me..
And so I replied
                "We re sorry, the subscriber you
             Are trying  to reach
            Doesn't give a ****."

Walking down the lane
Footsteps wouldn't hurt
Even if I hit a rock
I giggled often
But to myself
Chuckling loud enough
To earn passerby gaze
Do I even care?

As I rush down the lane
Playing safe while crossing the polls
And
At the sight of McNeil route
my gaze brighten
My steps hastened
My thoughts got clouded
..
Swiftly I thread
Along the part with caution
Bet I almost ran...
But that will wash off my face ups...

The thought of seeing my beloved
Overshadowed me...
The warmed hug I'll give
The pleasant kiss that will follow..
our lips entwined in day light dreams
Of shut eye..
Stirs me nervously..
The joy of been together
After distance made a tiny bridge
makes me feel a warm jolt

At the gate of my thought
..
With the haste I dive through the stairs..
Up and up I flip through it...
But at the door... guess what happened?

A sharp pinch gave me a twitch,
As I was awoken to day consciousness...
Oops, I then realized..
I had slept on my imaginations...

There comes an eternal peace
Right there
Deep down d well of our soul
When we make some known utterances
up to d potters above
And the solace we find
When we become  assured
that the spirit itself
makes intercession
For us all with groan utterances
.. this ve known
and the joy
I ve found...

I thought this would get better with time
I thought times will refresh the page of odds
I thought moments will swing pass
But its hurts my pride
To confess this
That I miss you
Like everyday...
And that I need you ..
Always to breath...
Seems life is drown out of me...
Without us been around each other
And the sun had refuses to smile
Since distance made these bridge
I miss you
Like the air I breath
when my nostril seem stuck
With fluffy muds ...
Picking my pieces been so hard
I just ve to keep moving...
But I miss you ... like everyday....  

I know I'm going to survive these...
And this cup shall pass me by..
But in the mean time
I'll like to admit...
Cos denying brings more pain
than admitting does
That I miss you .

I believe that
Lies begins with
" I'm always good"...
No one is truly good
We all possess a fair of good and evil

I believe that
Trust is a lie
No body ever knows any one
I believe
there's no small lie, big lie, white lie or black as human rationalize it..
The fact remains that you lied... either
For a good reason or otherwise

I believe
You don't ve to hold a gun to ****
Or stab in a knife to ******
a blunt Lie
Can as well ******
Faster than a bullet from a ******...

I believe in what I believe in...
what about you...

As time flies
We only realizes
That each day had been written down
Exactly how its gonna be
And our worries about the future
Is just an inflated tube
That shouldn't even be
Cos as today becomes yesterday
Our worries for one future
Becomes history ...
And the tomorrow we were worried about today
Well,
Become the today we were worried about yesterday....

Sometimes
I hate myself for loving you more than you worked for
Sometimes
I get mesmerize by the things you do...
That makes me scream silently...
Louder than the gunshot
That echoes in a soldiers funeral
Sometimes,
I see you as a living punishment
Because the more I want to go...
The stronger the pain inclines
You made me realize
That the worlds most beautiful lines
I Love you...
Could turn to the worlds most hurting lines
I Love you BUT....
Our been together
Could only be
But a wish

I dunno if I'm sad, happy, depressed
Stressed, gloomy, ill, healthy, pale.. weak
Or strong...
All I know is that
Today, I don't feel like doing anything...
And so,
I wanna remain glued to my bed...