No matter how long I love you
You will never care
No matter what I do
You will never dare
To tell the truth
Where would you be
If you had never met me
I don't know what I would do
If I had never met you
Where would I be?

Walking in the darkest night
No one near or even in sight
Alone with my thoughts
So overwhelming, compelling
Me to stay strong
To last as long
Not for forever
Will I ever
Wear a smile that's not fake
As I break
Slowly I fade away
Its been a bad day.

What is This?
I'm falling into the abyss
Deeper through my feelings
Farther away from healing
Loving you rips my life apart
Until the end, when I've lost my heart
It is gone.
Into the rising of dawn
It will awake at night
Grow to the highest height
Flower in the moonlight
Take over the sky
Can see nothing with your eye
Darkness has spread
Until I bleed red
What is going through my head?

I prayed to you
But you were never there
I needed something to do
To make me feel less bare
Or stop society's stare

I prayed to you
But you were nowhere to be found
What could you do
Stop me falling down
Release me from this bound

I prayed to you
But you could not be seen
You will never do
What I always dream
Why are you so mean

I leave you with this,
An empty amen
...again

I wish you were mine
Becuase I know I won't find
Someone like you
To make my dreams come true
Through days dark and light
I will love you tonight

I'm

F-frustrated
I-insignificant
N-negative
E-exhausted

J-jealous
U-underrated
S-stupid
T-traumatized

T-tired
I-irritated
R-restless
E-embarrassed
D-dead

Thinking, thinking
What should I say
To help improve your day
To make you feel okay
Because the way
You make me feel
Can heal
All the rain
Inside of my brain